foolishness to the nth degree

erin: where do you keep your brother?

#phm#‘i like to keep a wall up in my relationships’ well other people would like you not to. so how about that.#admittedly i do think we’re supposed to read movie!grace as much more of a loner#(there’s a bunch of little moments like his lonely polaroid and his awkwardness in the karaoke scene that imo are meant to reinforce this)#and that’s the characterisation i prefer to lean on in fics because it suits my purposes#plus if you're writing in first person it's in character for him to *say* he doesn't have a lot of friends#but i also see posts that imply that he’s like. bursting with love and ready to reach out and make friends and form meaningful connections#and that nobody ever met him with that same energy in return before rocky?#and that’s just straight up not true?#other people clearly like grace and want him around and make an effort to reach out to him#it’s just that he only wants to let people in a certain amount and no further.#he likes his boundaries! he likes his clearly defined and fairly superficial relationships!#he describes himself as ‘not a people person’#the distance that exists between him and other people and the reason why he feels alone is largely his doing i'm afraid!#because he is. say it with me guys. a coward.#he's risk averse and scared of getting hurt or being vulnerable and that extends to his interpersonal relationships <3#he reaches out as much as he's comfortable and then scares himself off and retreats!

#like for real. as a guy who has semi frequent spirals about being lonely. and who has also been meaning to message back#their best friend for. checks dates. over a week.#sometimes the problem is you!!!#my hottest phm take is rocky is absolutely not the first person grace has met who he Clicked with#rocky is the first person grace clicked with that he has been forced into inescapable close proximity with#like yes they do have one thing in common that is entirely unique to the two of them#but earth is not hurting for mean sarcastic autistics. grace did a STEM DEGREE.#and then also like. if we contrast rocky and stratt.....#stratt is also holding grace at arm's length. it's mutual#it's not good for either of them. and again it's partly circumstance#they can't be close the whole world is at stake. what a lovely convenient excuse#whereas rocky and grace can't not be close

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