evan

Im 16 and i draw art, mainly fanart but occasionally ocs, i write poems and i like to make stimboards

Im a trans boy, neptunic and i use he/him pronouns

The future

"Prepare for your future"

But i cant

I dont see a future

Not that ill die

Or maybe I will

I dont know what ill be able to do

Im stuck by my body

I cant work

I cant move out

I cant look after myself

I dont see a future

Loving when chronically ill

Its hard to love a chronically ill person

It can never be all love and smiles

Its appoiments and care

It takes patience and care to love an ill person

Something most people dont have

Its hard to find love as a chronically ill person

Most people say they can handle it

then panic at the hospital stays

Panic at the symptoms

Younger me

Younger me dosent know my life will end up a mess

I dont think I would've even been able to imagine this

I was so sweet

How did this happen

I have no future

I was meant to be dead years ago

Younger me always wondered what my future job would be

My health is gone

I didnt expect to get this bad

Younger me never would've guessed this

My relationship with my mum is complicated

I hate and love her at the same time

Younger me loved her so much

Younger me had so much hope