Esther After Midnight

5:00 🕔 AM Thanksgiving morning. It’s so peaceful and quiet, and the comfort of sleeping children that could sleep late and have fun for next few days is priceless. Wind blows at my window, Coldplay keeping me company. And words. Piecing together thoughts, memories, 💡 ideas, inspirations, devastations. Life, all woven into stories. #storyteller #earlymorning #peacefulwarrior #amwriting #writer (at Clifton, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5aD1tHB-Ht/?igshid=1b4tyw5118ea0

Thanksgiving 🙏🏻. I put a poster board up for the kids to fill with all their gratitudes 🙏🏻. They love doing it. I added desires for them too. Without acknowledging our big, giant, rich and ginormous desires, they simmer. They never completely leave, they just simmer. SO here’s to a happy healthy Thanksgiving holiday full of contemplation on every teeny tiny thing to be enormously grateful for, and every big and small desire brewing. 😎🙏🏻❤️#LIVELOVELAUGH #thanksgiving #thanksgivingdecor #gratitude #gratitudechallenge #gratitudechangeseverything #grateful #desires #family #familytime https://www.instagram.com/p/B5X1t_nBpEr/?igshid=1a04icj60o8sl

Beauty everywhere. Rainy day sighting from my car. Look 👀 around, people. Look around. #rain #rainyday #sunday #sundayvibes✨ #dog #dogwalkersofinstagram #manandhisdog #thinking #contemplation #sundaythoughts #meditationbythelake #meditate (at Boathouse Cafe) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5Qxoe_BFRK/?igshid=1eckczgzdfywr

Beauty everywhere. Rainy day sighting from my car. Look 👀 around, people. Look around. #rain #rainyday #sunday #sundayvibes✨ #dog #dogwalkersofinstagram #manandhisdog #thinking #contemplation #sundaythoughts #meditationbythelake #meditate https://www.instagram.com/p/B5QxfPlBeBL/?igshid=18y8774bmrcuq

I have 2 hours to get to Jordan 🇯🇴 to hear Coldplay live, New Album! But NO. I’m in Starbucks with a latte ☕️ and a laptop. Just WHY. This is a case of being in the wrong place at the wrong time in the wrong life in the wrong town with the wrong childhood and the wrong... oh boy. Here we go. If I could turn the clock ⏰ back to 15 years old: I would have packed a backpack 🎒 and traveled to live music concerts 🎶 all over the world 🌎 for my entire life. That would be all. #truth. Just want to hear Coldplay live so FREaKInG badly. They have this ‘keeping the world sustainable’ thing where they’re not planning on touring...Good for the 🌎 world BAD for me. SO. Back to the cold latte. I have no words of inspiration for myself right now. #music #musicismylife🎶 #travel #backpackaroundtheworld #coldplay @coldplay #coldplayjordan #cowboytakemeaway (at Englewood, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5LExWkhSn8/?igshid=182ajwmky9m4i

I have 2 hours to get to Jordan 🇯🇴 to hear Coldplay live, New Album! But NO. I’m in Starbucks with a latte ☕️ and a laptop. Just WHY. This is a case of being in the wrong place at the wrong time in the wrong life in the wrong town with the wrong childhood and the wrong... oh boy. Here we go. If I could turn the clock ⏰ back to 15 years old: I would have packed a backpack 🎒 and traveled to live music concerts 🎶 all over the world 🌎 for my entire life. That would be all. #truth. Just want to hear Coldplay live so FREaKInG badly. They have this ‘keeping the world sustainable’ thing where they’re not planning on touring...Good for the 🌎 world BAD for me. SO. Back to the cold latte. I have no words of inspiration for myself right now. #music #musicismylife🎶 #travel #backpackaroundtheworld #coldplay @coldplay #coldplayjordan #cowboytakemeaway (at Englewood, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5LExWkhSn8/?igshid=hzlt56p3ok5d

I have 2 hours to get to Jordan 🇯🇴 to hear Coldplay live, New Album! But NO. I’m in Starbucks with a latte ☕️ and a laptop. Just WHY. This is a case of being in the wrong place at the wrong time in the wrong life in the wrong town with the wrong childhood and the wrong... oh boy. Here we go. If I could turn the clock ⏰ back to 15 years old: I would have packed a backpack 🎒 and traveled to live music concerts 🎶 all over the world 🌎 for my entire life. That would be all. #truth. Just want to hear Coldplay live so FREaKInG badly. They have this ‘keeping the world sustainable’ thing where they’re not planning on touring...Good for the 🌎 world BAD for me. SO. Back to the cold latte. I have no words of inspiration for myself right now. #music #musicismylife🎶 #travel #backpackaroundtheworld #coldplay @coldplay #coldplayjordan #cowboytakemeaway (at Englewood, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5LExWkhSn8/?igshid=rdza8lfc7dtk

I’m melting down. Coldplay. New Song, Daddy. Go have a listen. Or 2. Or 10. Or 💯. I’m having a 🎶 musically induced lyrical meltdown. 😢😔😰😓 Stunning song. NOT how I thought 💭 I would end a very random Wednesday. I am going to sit on the stoop in my coat and under the dark starry sky 🌌 and listen to this on repeat. Until I hear my kids bouncing 🏀 basketballs and bickering with the 🐶 dog. Then I’ll be forced inside. Then I’ll eat pasta. #coldplay ❤️❤️❤️. #coldplay #music #sadsongs💔@coldplay @chrismartinfans #chrismartin #songwriter #everydaylife #daddy #thursdaymusic #thursdayvibes #amwriting (at Clifton, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5G9PBun8rq/?igshid=12cg83w6nrbkc

I’m melting down. Coldplay. New Song. Daddy. I’m having a 🎶 musically induced lyrical meltdown. 😢😔😰😓 NOT how I thought 💭 I would end a very random Wednesday. I am going to sit on the stoop in my coat and under the dark starry sky 🌌 and listen to this on repeat. Until I hear my kids bouncing 🏀 basketballs and bickering with the 🐶 dog. Coldplay ❤️❤️❤️. #coldplay #music #sadsongs💔 (at Clifton, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5G9PBun8rq/?igshid=1v8z4t5ulz2ac

So I spot this GORGEOUS scarf 🧣 and I love ❤️ it and think 🤔 immediately- “OMG I should sooo knit 🧶 this for myself.” Who DOES that. I mean as if I don’t have enough on my overflowing plate. Yikes. Kids. Single parenting. My own writing ✍️ and consulting business. Graduate 👩‍🎓 school halfway done. Weekly piano lessons 🎹. Daily run 🏃🏼‍♀️ in the park (ok that’s a little lie - almost daily). Writing a 📚 book on empowerment. Writing ✍️ a children’s book on narcissistic parental abuse in comic strip format. Oh. MY. Gosh. Will SOMEONE slow me down. Oh and I’m on the PTA of my kids school. Oh and I’m giving a class for single women on Dec 7. I. CANT 🛑 Stop, people. And NOW I wanna knit a scarf? Ok that’s pushing me over the edge. I should buy that fricking thing. And my lovely sis @rachelfeldman5 asks me if i’m dating 😂 I mean when for heavens sakes. driven #nonstop #lovemylife #blessed #pianoplayer #knitting pic anthropology @anthropologie #fashion #writing #amwriting #run #runner #running (at Clifton, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5EQoneHbkf/?igshid=1yfoalefnw5j

A boy, his 🐶 dog and his 📱 iphone. What more does he need? Nothing, people. Life is good. #shabbatshalom #goodshabbos #fridayvibes #friday #picoftheday #dog #dogsofinstagram #pets #dogs #dogoftheday #dogoftheweek #weekendiscoming (at New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/B44-DcJhmzm/?igshid=y082x5ee8c7a

Do NOT say hi, wave 👋, nod, or acknowledge me in any way shape or form when I’m running 🏃🏼‍♀️ in 23 degrees. 💨 🌬 Just DONT. As in, “ignore the female in the purple hat and pink gloves 🧤 “. No, I DO NOT care that you’re walking a cute 🐶 dog just move OUT of my way. I have a finish line 🏁 to get to, nice park people. And being friendly to park strangers I see daily as I fly by is not part of my game. #runforyourlife #runforlife #runforyourself #running #runninggoals #runninggirl #runningman #morningrun #amwriting #nanowrimo2019 #workhardplayhard #stoiclife #stoicism #stoic #stoicphilosophy #stoicismdaily #justdoit (at Passaic Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/B42Yrw6hG6c/?igshid=15lct907vzl0f

Ahhh. THIS. On a cold 🥶 New Jersey morning, 7 AM, heading out for a run I see this. Maybe instead of 🏃🏼‍♀️ 🏃 running I’ll stay home and put red eyeshadow on. Hmmm. Oh, but I don’t have any red eyeshadow so I guess I’ll stick with my original plan and put my sneakers on👟 and do what I set out to start my day with. I can always swing by the 24 hr Wallgreens after I run and pick up an eyeshadow or two. #run #runner #running #runninggoals #fashion #makeup #eyeshadow #wednesdayghoughts #vibes #goforthegold #workhardplayhard #playharder #playinghard #creatinglifeandart #justdoit #dowhateveryouwant (at Clifton, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4zkR1xhNP6/?igshid=1fvsgqwzbp37i

Oh no. Now insta is sending “remember when you posted this a long time ago and you still wear that same t-shirt” posts. Ok ok. That was a great trip to Miami at the Standard Hotel 🏨 with 80 women in a secret society women’s empowerment class... Fond memories, people. Fond memories. #miami #livelovelaugh #friendship #womensempowerment #secretsociety #happytimes #memories #memoriesforlife (at Standard Hotel Miami) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4yQBRBhvJL/?igshid=9ehjbj979dm9

Does anyone else want to be here right about now? It’s raining ☔️ here in NJ and as I sit at my desk, right at the window listening to the rain as I write I think about the sun ☀️, France 🇫🇷 , and how it’s time to stop 🛑 wearing the same black t-shirt every day (I have 5 of the exact same black T-shirt, people). It’s time to travel 🧭 🧳 ✈️ #amwriting #nanowrimo #nanowrimo2019 #france🇫🇷 #travel #rainytuesday (at Clifton, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4xTLoWhyjE/?igshid=5rgt9eakujrd

Good 7:AM run 🏃🏼‍♀️ morning. Heading for 2 more miles, people. hope I live to have my coffee ☕️. #mementomori #stoiclife #stoiclifestyle #run #runner #runningmotivation #runninggoals #parkrun #morningrun #running #amwriting #writer #nanowrimo #nanowrimo2019 (at Passaic Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4ugKOrBlHE/?igshid=1hlph2dh4de3n