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Sunday, November 26, 2023

Yesterday, after going to church, I decided to go to the cinema and watch a movie at SM Mall. There were many new movies available but I chose to watch the Pinoy horror film, Marita, co’z I saw a positive review on TikTok mentioning its scary and startling scenes. I enjoy horror films and marami akong scary experiences in the past, so I am accustomed to them. Before the movie started, I felt calm and not afraid. I have been avoiding caffeinated and energy drinks for a month to para maiwasan ang palpitations ng malala. If I recall correctly, the movie was expected to run for about two hours. When Marita began, I experienced a strange sensation, as if something was pressing down on my chest. My heart started beating fast and I could even feel it para akong galing sa pagtakbo ng matagal. It felt like my breathing was affected as well. While watching, I tried to figure out if it was just the sound effects or if my anticipation of the story being based on a true story was causing these feelings pero sanay naman kasi ako manood ng katatakutan. It felt like something was urging me to stop and leave before the story ended. I felt uneasy, which was unusual considering my familiarity with horror movies. At dahil sa hindi na rin ako mapakali, I checked the time and there were still 30 minutes left, nasa story na yung nasabing multi ay nagpaparamdam na more frequently. I made the decision to leave. I didn't mind wasting my money na 😅 dahil sa it was the first time I sensed some sort of danger if I continued watching. According to others who have watched Marita, the image of Marita stayed in their minds even after finishing the film, even while sleeping. Eh saktong Monday na ulit, balik sa dating gawi. Magpapa alipin na ulit sa trabaho. Bawal mapuyat hahahaha

Endings pound one's spirit and leaves an individual numb, left with weepy eyes. Individuals say, that endings lead to fresh start's. Definitely, it does yet some of the time it's difficult to relinquish your closest companion, relative, home, a most loved book or that extraordinary individual you generally need to clutch. It's a blend of feelings or like a close to home exciting ride. Endings are self-contradicting. Everything will undoubtedly reach a conclusion whether it's life, relationship, work, a book or a film. In any case, does it truly end there? It stays inside you, until the end of time. These things or individuals take gradually space in one's heart. Perhaps, they don't bound to end by any stretch of the imagination. Rather, they will generally live always in one's heart. Perhaps, these are the fresh starts individuals discuss. It adds a part in one's journal. It's wonderful how much an individual clutches recollections. About those pieces are assembled to finish a riddle. Each of the encounters, individuals, connections, pet's, work's, or side interests, completes an individual. That is the way an individual is sewed all together. At any point it's hard to let things go yet do we allow everything to go? Actually we don't. It stays inside us, until the end of time.