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We met at a party at a roof top and Sara Larssons song 'Rooftop' - as a Swedish artist - couldn't be more perfect as this crush anthem.

Today I looked trough our messages on messenger, because I wanted to remember how it all started. I didnt managed to go to the beginning of the conversation but mostly read the end. It wasnt very exciting or uplifting.

But sitting here, reminiscing the roller coaster tummy tickles I was experiencing, not to forget the madly crush I had on her, I also wish I at that point knew, what was coming for me, that I should let go of that feeling of a crush when she wanted to to stop. Right here I am looking back it myself being 23 years old with a smile on my face. I have come so far and I wish I could tell myself that I would actually shake off the feeling of that crazy crush, even though it was so heavy and it felt impossible at thay point.

I was so in love. I am so impressed that one could fall so fast and so madly in love as I did with her. I still listen to some of the music she sent me. It reminded me of her for a long time. It doesnt anymore, now it just makes me happy and it feels so safe in some way.