♡i think it was fate♡

up at 1 AM inventing new ways to want and want and want and want and

Why would you love someone like me

How to fill the void no glue no borax

I trusted him I trusted him I trusted him I trusted him I trusted him I trusted him I trusted him I FUCKING TRUSTED HIM

being raised by adults who were always angry at you means becoming an adult who’s always angry at yourself

Just once, I want my absence to be felt.

“your trauma doesn’t define you” no actually it does. it dictates every aspect of my shitty life.

unfortunately i actually AM impossible to love and its not just all in my head

Being with me is like torture I think

The fear of abandonment isn’t just about people leaving, it’s the gut-wrenching belief that you aren’t worth staying for.

when the "i don’t need anyone anyway“ act wears off and all i want is for someone to hold me in their arms and tell me their biggest fear is losing me.

as my final act of love, I will swallow every "please stay" and turn it into silence so you don't feel trapped by my ache

I love harsh motivation so much like yes please make me even more mentally unstable then i already am and make me feel terrible about myself

Baggy clothes till I reach my ugw so no one sees how ugly, disgusting and repulsive my body is ever again… It’s a disservice to the world