sounds of loss

woke up hungover as fuck scraped myself out of bed long enough to turn on fishies lights and feed him and also eat some cold fries from last night went back to sleep woke up again put away my blow dryer from where it was taking up my entire kitchen (only place I can plug it in) was absolutely overjoyed when I found a fresh pair of fishnets in my drawer while looking for something else which means I don't have to wear the ripped to fuck tights I wore last night AGAIN tonight used some spit on my finger to take off some leftover mascara under my eye to head out to the grocery store and I'm like jesus I really am some sort of deadbeat

i swear to god it's completely random when you connect to the big screen in the meeting rooms with an hdmi cable whether you're gonna get just your screen projected up onto there or if it's gonna act like a second monitor and split your windows evenly between your laptop and the big screen anyways i ended up beaming the artist page for ossuary on the spotify desktop app wall sized directly at my elderly supervisor

Also my main thesis of that last post that I literally didn't get to cause I was too busy just bullshitting about shit that doesn't matter is the money came in nearly to the day one year after #myincident so with the combined power of this additional weight in my bank account and feeling a tad bit unmoored with it all I will be behaving irresponsibly this weekend 🙂‍↕️ god bless

my government issued sorry for your completely random unprovoked unsolved asskicking last summer reparations have hit the bank account and as soon as I get over the cringe of having to dm a tattoo artist on ig I'm making that fucking appointment babey!! I'm treating all of it as 100% fun money nothing is being used responsibly I'm lifemaxxing every red cent and if anyone has some shit to say about they can go get almost murdered in the stairwell of their apartment building and invest their earnings into a house. also I've thrown my whole pussy into trying to fix my situation at work and I genuinely cannot believe I'm saying this but I begged and pleaded for them to send me back to fr*nce and was overjoyed when they agreed cause the alternative would have honestly objectively been so much worse so like.....new can of worms incoming in late october I guess but it's only gonna be for a couple weeks and I WILL be getting a publication out of it and god willing inshallah I'll be a stable and normal genius come late october who's not gonna pine for the unfortunate weedman again and will actually be done pining for the weedman forever and will actually not switch to pining for a new weedman and won't pine ever again!! I've been getting a lot closer all of a sudden with this girl I used to only see in passing at random parties and events and in turn she's been bringing me around a bunch of new people and fresh faces and I think if I really give it my all I can get myself involved in some kind of mutually toxic soul draining entanglement before late october so I can show up to f*ance with enough shit on my mind to just pass the time quickly. please bear in mind the alternative to getting a paper in fra*ce was literally doing fucking nothing in fucking g*rmany so I had to do what I had to do there. apart from that I thought I was gonna immediately have to spend some of my sorry you got minked money on my expensive as fuck daily contact lenses but I found like 3 more boxes that my dad bought me last time I was home so I'm more than good for now and if my mom comes to visit me this summer and I lay out my sob story of bausch and lomb brand lenses not being sold here I might be able to finesse some more 🙏

I thought I wasn't gonna like having a septum clicker after having a tuff af metal ring that needs pliers to open and close for so many years cause I'm a violent nose rubber and I either have to kick the habit or be really careful that I catch it falling out but in an unprecedented twist I'm actually really rockin with how easy it is to just take it out and handle my booger situation and then put it right back in

I've been flirting (and by flirting I mean rawdogging in a bar bathroom) with the idea of getting a vertical labret piercing and it's not being helped by how many people tell me I would really suit one but apparently you're not allowed smooching for like weeks/months after getting one which is like okay ask me to walk on fucking water next how about

I've been flirting (and by flirting I mean rawdogging in a bar bathroom) with the idea of getting a vertical labret piercing and it's not being helped by how many people tell me I would really suit one but apparently you're not allowed smooching for like weeks/months after getting one which is like okay ask me to walk on fucking water next how about

genuine open ended question here wtf are you actually supposed to do if one of your feet is an entire half size bigger than the other one like my right shoe is pleasantly roomy but my left side toes look like a battlefield and they're in constant pain but if I sized up the right would genuinely be too big and I'd just slide right out of it and before anyone comes to me with some like oh nordstroms offers a like size difference thing for shoes I live in a country that doesn't even sell doritos

ended up going out kinda unexpectedly while still in the absolutely enormous cavernous mens 5xl cargo pants I wore to work and a big loose tshirt and my oversized square glasses cause I'd had my contacts in since 6am and my nearly 2am walk back home thru my fuck ass nasty ass neighborhood was the most peaceful and uneventful one I've literally ever had like I was just gliding through not one single catcall no leering no shouting completely unnoticed god the feeling was so intense I could have gotten high off it

feelin like a damn ant with a bindle after posting a near nips out gothed up pic on here and getting absolutely aired im gonna start posting thirst traps on linkedin idgaf anymore

people keep describing me as a thick woman in a tone of admiration and I need to not let it get to me but it gets to me but it's like literally you're going about with huge melons bouncing and a round ass wtf do you want people to say omg skinny queen