Capsize All the Way Home

Goodbyes have always been so deeply painful for me, and I don’t see this one letting me off the hook any easier than ever before. I keep thinking if I can analyze the situation enough, then maybe I can crack the code and nothing will have to hurt anymore. Instead I just think myself into oblivion, and come out the other side feeling every bit as defeated as I did to start.

Keep finding myself in the same situations over and over again with no idea which specific decisions steered me in the wrong direction. 

Wait, hold on, when did Tumblr ban posts containing nudity or “adult content”? I am upset. Clearly I haven’t been here in a while. 

Spent time away from home visiting some very dear friends this past weekend. Found out about some things that broke my heart all over again, years later, but made memories I will cherish always and was reminded once more that I am surrounded by individuals who are good and kind and present if I would only just give them the opportunity to be. Despite being forced to finish letting go of what I once remembered to be beautiful, I am so thankful for those who have stayed over the years despite the distance in miles and in me.