honestly just catch me on discord

it’s always “i love you” and never “grace the most beautiful sound rocky has ever heard.”

the thing about holland march is i've always just seen a gay man there. i can totally see him being bi as well because of the whole backstory with his wife. but at the same time it's tragically scrumptious to imagine a holland that has to juggle his grief with his identity and somehow reconcile the two. i think he would have a hard time ever coming to terms with being gay because he would feel like it's a betrayal to his wife and the life they had together. and he already did that by not smelling the gas before the house burnt down. he already holds so much guilt and he's not sure if he can add another dimension to it all. if he's gay, does that mean he's a horrible person? that his wife died for nothing? if he lets himself act on it, if he accepts another love into his life, would that mean moving on from that chapter of his life? he doesn't deserve to move on, he thinks. so he punishes himself every day for it by being reckless, drinking nonstop, and not acting on his desires

what if one of the eridians assigned to take care of grace does a deep dive into human psychology and then forces him to do talk therapy but it's over the radio because the eridian can't come into the biodome. and so grace calls him frasier

project hail mary is a touching and poignant film that leaves you asking questions about humanity like, "wow what if all mainstream media was genuinely good" and "what if book adaptions actually gave a shit about the book in question" and "what if studios hired actors that could actually act, and then let them get a lil wacky with it"