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I mean I can’t be too proud but at least I’m proud for not drinking

Might end up going and being admitted in the hospital again (I was admitted two weeks ago).

Two weeks ago it wasn’t my fault, ended up with a horrible virus.

This time though, 100% my fault and it’s so god damn embarrassing. I knew what I was doing and I knew it wasn’t good but I just did notttt give any fucks, not a single one. NOW, I’ve been sitting at home since yesterday extremely sick and just flat out miserable. I don’t know why I did it and what came over me but it’s done, can’t redo it, and now I sit and wait to feel better.

Also, I really don’t want to talk about it. I just need time to cope and think.

I don’t think I ever want to love again

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My chest is constantly and I mean constantly hurting

No matter how much Xanax I take it doesn’t help I’m so fucking used to it

No matter how much I smoke weed or drink ... doesn’t help

Whichever way I turn I hit a cement wall