Sometimes we get very self conscious of our bodies. As someone who has an eating disorder and body dysmorphia, I know I definitely struggle with confidence. Some days I feel worse than others and other days I am okay with myself. It's so sad that young beautiful girls feel so bad about how they look, whether that be too skinny, too big, too short, too tall, or they just hate different features that they have. These days it's getting to a point where most girls will experience this at least once while they are in school. I mean that's when I developed my eating disorder. Iโve always been on the bigger side, and I stopped growing in 3rd grade because my pituitary gland decided it didn't want to tell my body to produce growth hormone anymore. I started growing out more then up. I was bullied for being short and chubby, and after a while, I started to notice how the other girls looked. They were developing in the chest, having growth spurts, getting their periods, etc. I didn't understand why it wasn't happening to me. I especially started to notice when boys didn't like me the same way they liked other girls. It didn't really start getting bad until high school though. Junior year was really difficult, I was struggling with depression, forcing myself not to eat, participating in self-harm, and was bulimic. I was a such a low point, and then my parents found out about everything. I was sent to a psychiatrist and I started to feel better. I still felt really bad about my body but I knew I couldn't go back to my old ways, so I didnโt. I changed my perspective. I started eating better, working out, and taking care of myself. I can honestly say that I had never felt better, I was happier, healthier, and felt stronger. To this day I still try my best to be healthy. I still feel bad every once in a while until I remember everything I went through to get to this point.ย
So if you are struggling just like I did remember this, I know it seems so dark right now, like you arnโt ever going to get out but trust me, you will. You are so much stronger than you think and if you need it, don't be afraid to ask for help. Let me know if you have any questions, I would be more than happy to talk to anyone that wants or needs to. ๐๐ ๐ฆ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ค๐ ๐๐๐๐ฅ๐๐๐ฆ๐, ๐๐ ๐ง๐ ๐ช๐ ๐ฆ!!!
