Elle's Daydreams

I unfortunately think I’m hilarious

Ok I LOVEEE editing stupid videos for my twisters/marvel OC but have nowhere to post without shame lmao except this place

This is about my Marvel Self Insert/Oc/Sona there’s a generic description of her lore on my acc if you’d like to see more of her

So the way Elle’s trauma works surrounding Endgame and Tony Stark’s death is the fact that she doesn’t really deal with it. 

Such as processing how traumatic the entire experience is, the toll on her psyche etc. 

instead she takes all of that hurt, and pain surrounding Tony, and trauma and chucks it all at Steve 

Because unlike Tony, Steve CHOSE to leave

Picture Elle, in her early 20’s her  ex boyfriend (Peter Parker) who literally died five years ago in her arms is back from the dead. In fact most of her team mates who died five years ago are back. Her dad literally dies in front of her and said ex bf the funeral for her dead dad ended literally minutes ago and her current boyfriend LEAVES HER

Because for her Steve had every single chance to make any different decision other than straight up abandoning her he at any time could have ended their relationship or spoken to her about Peggy and how he can’t get over her could have came back to her but he didn’t 

He abandoned her for a woman whose legacy she knows she can never live up to in his eyes

And when he leaves THAT is what shatters Elle 

And before this she thought their relationship was GREAT like no problems she was beginning to hint at a more serious/settled down relationship 

Listening to the song Gives You Hell reminds me of these two, both a ghost in each other’s story.

I can only imagine the scene when he comes back in doomsday. I might be getting my timelines mistaken but I think doomsday takes place around 10yrs after the ending of endgame so Elle has moved on (finally). There’s been a lifetime between those incidents shes a thunderbolt now. Living in the Avengers/z tower again. Happily dating Walker and none other than Stephen Grant Rodger’s walks in and she’s frozen. 

Walker would be internally screaming Bucky would actually be screaming 

Considering that her and Peter Quill both dealt with similar situations and are good friends with shared trauma if he’s there when this scene goes down he’s going to hold Elle back. The scene wouldn’t be pretty. It’d most likley take her right back to that moment.

If you survived my Captain America trauma candy salad on a much happier note 

I have this silly little head cannon that once Walker and Elle start (seriously) dating that he gets a tattoo for her. I picture a black flower tattoo that starts under his right ear around his neck and spirals down until the elbow. It might be a little ooc of him (Ive never been one to write IN character in the first place). And the tattoo placement might be janky buuut I just like the idea of the tattoo showing even when Walker’s fully covered or in uniform. 

Anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk 

Idk if anyone will even read this but I enjoy yapping, and if your seeing this you obviously enjoy reading

I know that she’s also the maryest sue to ever exist and in my defense I CAN write well written and three dimensional characters this is just a guilty pleasure you have been WARNED

Her name is Penelope “Elle” Stark

She was a Hydra experiment, taken from an active war zone at the age of six, Hydra figured with everything going on no one would notice a missing child (or know where to look for her)

She was part of the Venus program where they experimented on her, giving her the ability to grow flowers, the one catch is they must be bloomed from her body

Experiments included seeing how she’d react to certain chemicals, pesticides, what exactly could she bloom (for example only flowers found in nature) how to create not only serums, medication, etc. from the flowers but how she could become an assassin, how she could use ivy to strangle, oak as a shield, flytraps used more like bear traps

Right before she could be turned into a child assassin at the ripe age if twelve Tony Stark found the hydra base and instantly took her in

She grew up veeery babied and sheltered after her previous life experiences, the media constantly trying to force themselves onto her, because of this the literally only two people around her until she reached her late teens (16-18) were Tony and Rhodes

The other avengers knew Tony had a kid (Bucky knew little of project Venus) but none of them knew how she was acquired or interacted with her she was not present during civil war but the fight between cap and iron man is what made her first take notice of the star spangled man

She had REALLY conflicted opinions on it because on one hand Bucky did kill them, not only them but her adoptive dads freaking parents, buuuuut she was also a hydra lab rat so she understands where hes coming from

When she was 16 she met and began dating Peter Parker both aware of each others identities and backstories, this was until the events of infinity war take place in which Peter was dusted, he dies/gets dusted in her arms

Hello PTSD

Much to Tony’s avail she begins to grow close with Steve over missing peter and him relating the loss to Peggy, he slightly understands her better due to his relationship with Bucky and Buckys own experience being in hydra and it makes her feel better knowing that someone finally kinda gets her

They begin to date, she starts moving on from Peter, starts thinking about getting serious, he does not, she reminds him SO much of Peggy it just makes his heart ache for her all the more, the nickname ‘Penny” that Elle goes by, her brown waves, her eyes, even her relation to the Stark name makes him ache all the more for his lost love

So of course tony dies in endgame, Peter’s back, Steve ditches Elle for Peggy and she’s SHATTERED

She cant continue anything with Peter, she’s devastated bc of cap (and had already moved on from Peter) so they remain the best of friends

She ultimately decides to join the guardian's going off world for a while and studies rare and alien plants that she learns to begin to bloom and use for healing purpose's, love serums, truth serums, even blooming a mini Audrey two

Quill and her are the closest him mourning gamora and her mourning cap, they kinda have this depressing will they wont they banter but they neeeeever make moves bc they cant get over the ache, they are besties

After the end of GOTG 3 she decides enough Time has passed to return back to earth

The timelines dont match up buuuut weve already got enough shenanigans going on so Elle returns with Quill to find the Avengerz with the only semi familiar face being Bucky

NOW there’s this blonde asshole with a dingy knockoff shield of her ex boyfriend claiming he was Captain America and its on SIGHT

Elle is forced to join the Avengerz, having no money after running off in space for the last several years (even if she did have money she’s bored or wants to actually FINALLY become an actual avenger)

Now she’s on a team with this blonde asshole who assumes she’s had an easy prissy princess life aaaaaand it’s time for ENEMIES TO LOVERSSSSSSS

In the end, she ends up dating Walker whenether its through a mission they must pretend to date, them finally airing out their dirty laundry (actual backstories not just what the media said about them), love serum confession, you NAME IT

Synopsis: Sunflower hasn’t slept for a week, her best and oldest friend Rooster would know what to do…only he’s on vacation..for the entire week. Leaving the Dagger squad needing to figure out what to do with their sleepy sunflower

Fandom: Top Gun Maverick

Pairing: Hangman x OC Elle “Sunflower” Stark

Sunflower: Bradley Bradshaw’s best friend since forever, she earned the name sunflower for being a hippie, maxi skirts, crochet tops, and flowers constantly behind her ears. She’s unfortunately got a secret thing for Hangman (much to Rooster’s dismay), she’s also an artist and if not Sunflower her call sign would have 100% been Doodle

Elle could hardly keep her eyes open as she watched the game of pool going on, the roaring sounds of laughter and conversation dulled by the lingering effects of sleepless nights and alcohol in her system. It’d been a week since she’d slept, although it felt more like a month. In the last week the Dagger’s usual routine of fly, run, repeat had taken more of a toll on her body than usual. She’d manage to aggravate an old injury and between the medication, discomfort, and worry she’d hardly slept. 

Typically Rooster would be attached to her hip, sleepless nights meant movie marathons, medication meant ice cream sundaes to wash it down, and worry meant he’d stay the night at her place. He was like a big brother to her, and yet in her time of need Rooster was gone. Gone, for a week, in Vegas. Old college friends apparently, leaving Elle to face the restless nights alone, and worried. 

She’d tried everything from medication to meditating, and even if she’d managed to lull herself to sleep by four in the morning, by six the neighbors were up, mowing their lawns. This left Elle here, at the hard deck, exhausted, yet unable to sleep. 

There was one last thing she had yet to try, something that was once more reserved for Rooster and Rooster only, but she was getting desperate as she inched closer to her sixth night in a row with only darkening eye bags. 

The Daggers eyes lingered on Elle in her half awake state, they shared the same concerned glances and furrowed brows. Elle was typically screeching along to whatever was on the jukebox, sketching away like a madwoman, or bickering with Hangman. To see her not only tired, but injured.

“All right.” Sighed Phoenix as she rubbed her temples ,”Who’s gonna take one for the team?” 

“What do you mean take one for the team?” Fanboy looked at her quizzically eyes darting back to Elle, currently curling in on herself, eternally cold. 

“Someone needs to make sure Sunflower gets a good nights rest tonight.”

“Oh I can make sure of that.” Hangman mused 

Without even glancing his way Phoenix smacked him sharply square in the center of his chest he let out a choking sound. 

“As I was saying before I was rudely interrupted, Sunflower is going to fight whoever it is off like a feral cat, and it’s not going to be pretty or fun.”

“She’s fine with Rooster, we’ve all seen their stories, their doing each others hair and giggling over cute boys it’ll be fine.” Coyote said 

“That’s Rooster, the rest of us cant even hug her, and it’ll be worse with her in this state, loopy, exhausted, in pain.”

“Why can’t it be all of us then?”

“It’ll be too much, all of us crammed in her teeny apartment all trying to force her to sleep will overwhelm her, too loud and too many bodies, besides at that point I think she’d stay up out of sheer stubbornness.”

As the team’s quiet musings amongst themselves continued, Elle slipped off of her stool and towards the group, her inhibitions might have been slightly askew due to her current circumstance and the addition of alcohol. Her current goal, find warmth. 

“Hold me.” 

All eyes snapped toward her within an instant the murmured conversation of drawing straws halting to a stop when they saw Elle arms gently outstretched to the group waiting for a hug. 

“Sunflower?”

“That’s it she’s officially been replaced by a clone.”

“Someone call Rooster.”

“Rooster? Sunflower is asking for physical touch call Mav!” 

Yet no one budged they stared at her as if she was some anomaly, Elle “Sunflower” Stark had officially gone crazy. Hangman, leading with his heart rather than his head surged towards her.

“Don’t have to ask me twice Sunny.” He smiled down at her, not a teasing grin but something more underneath the surface, his tone lacking its usual edge and instead carrying a softness. 

He gently wrapped his arms around her back, hesitant knowing she could retreat at any moment, return to reality, shove him away and call him a prick. Elle instead leaned into his touch, his warmth, eyes instantly fluttering shut as she let out a sigh of contentment. 

“Your warm Hangman.” She smiled looping her arms around his neck

Hangman meanwhile was hyper focused on not allowing his knees to buckle at this close proximity. 

“Glad to be of service.” He eked out his voice an octave too high. 

“Well looks like we’re not drawing straws tonight.”

“Hangman looks like you’re stuck with babysitting duty!” 

Fandom: Top Gun Maverick

Character: Jake “Hangman” Sersin x OC

Synopsis: Elle comes into the Hard Deck crying, Jake comforts her (to the best of his ability)

Warnings: None

Word count: 900

She didn’t care who’s arms she was in as long as someone would hold her, Elle “Sunflower” Stark walked into the Hard Deck instead of her usual spunk she walked in defeated, brown eyes shining not with mischief but tears. 

Necks snapped towards her at lightning speed as if she was a ghost, here she stood, the Top Gun’s one and only Sunflower, shaking with silent tears. All of her friends froze, Elle tended to refuse touch shrinking away from open arms, swatting away hands, shrugging off back pats so any attempt at comfort posed a risk. 

The bar for a moment was silent, the murmur of other conversations filling the silence that came from the Dagger squad, the soft twinkling of the lights on Elle’s frame as she plopped down on a barstool eyes never leaving the floor. 

She didn’t see who reached out for her first but she could tell just by the way they held her, strong forearms wrapped their way around her one curling around her chest the other around her back. She was no longer slouched forward in her chair, hair covering most of her tear streaked face, she was now resting, leaning into a firm torso  the scent of cologne overtaking her sense of smell. A chin resting on the top of her head. 

Jake. 

“Sunshine.” He murmured into her dark curls as his fingers began to trace light circles wherever his hands lay. 

The Dagger squad didn’t move, didn’t breathe, seeing Elle crying was rare, seeing her willingly accept touch from anyone, especially Hangman of all people was like seeing a unicorn, and seeing Hangman be soft with her well that meant hell must have frozen over. 

One by one each member became unfrozen from their trance like state, as they stared at the pair, some murmured among themselves about why she was crying, why Jake of all people ,and why was she not pepper spraying him? Others, such as Payback whipped out their cell phones, lastly there was Bob and Rooster milliseconds away from calling Maverick and telling him something was wrong with his goddaughter and to come fix it before Hangman did. 

Meanwhile the two intertwined with one another, were unaware of the chaos unfolding around them.

“Sunny.” He whispered only for her ears, his voice in a cadence she’d never heard from his mouth before ,”Please, talk to me.”

She was beginning to come down from the high of her emotions, slowly unfolding herself, wiping her nose, if the others weren’t deathly afraid of retaliation they’d say she looked adorable red nose, big glassy eyes. 

Fanboy, much to Roosters warning and a wary glance from Hangman kneeled down, looking up at Elle resting his hands gently on her knees. 

“Hey,” he cooed at her, trying to provide the same comfort Hangman had 

“Mickey I will kick you in the chest.” She said her voice now carrying its usual bite, but still coming out huskier from her previous crying. 

“Understood.” He said getting up holding his hands in surrender

“Now there’s our Sunflower!” Rooster roared 

“Show him who’s boss Sunny!” Bob laughed 

Despite her previous comment she still sagging shoulders, hands clutching onto Hangman’s arms a little too tightly, and eyes that refused to leave the floor. 

“Elle,” Hangman started again, she refused to look his way, she was more relaxed in his arms, but the hurt still laid right under the surface. 

“Elle.” His voice came out slightly firmer, everyone returning to their drinks deciding to either give the pair their privacy, or finding the current pool game much more interesting than whatever was bubbling over. 

“Penelope.” He said. 

At the use of her real name she turned to him eyes doing something else than staring at the hardwood ,”Jacob.” She spat back wiping away her mascara streaks.

“You going to tell me why you came in here looking like you got dragged through hell and back Darlin?”

“You going to tell me why your hand was creeping twoard my lower back?”

“I-I it wasn’t!” His hands retreating from her as if she was on fire

“I didn’t tell you I didn’t want it there” she murmured 

“Elle, listen, I’m asking you what’s wrong.” He said a blush already creeping up his neck, she wasn’t going to squirm her way out of his questioning that easily. 

She let out a sigh Hangman if anything was persistent, he was persistent when it came to trying to hug, flirt, even holding her hands of corse he’d be persistent with this too. 

“Fine, fine Jake.” She said twirling in her seat so she’d no longer be tucked into him, but facing him, her hands on his chest his hands once again returning to her lower back. In any other situation it’d have been a daydream come to life for Hangman, Elle sitting at the Hard Deck, her hands on his chest a gentle weight, his hands caressing her hips, lips perfectly puffy. And, yet it was not a dream, it was reality, Elle gripping to his shirt like a lifeline, attempting not to squirm under his touch that she was now too well aware of, and the words that came out of her perfectly puffy lips…

They made him chuckle 

“You have had nightmares so bad you came in here asking for me to hold you?”

She swatted at him “I haven’t slept in damn near a week, that’s it I’m going to let Rooster hold me.” As she looked up at him he took notice, the bags under her eyes a light shade of purple against her tan skin. 

“Sunshine, sweetheart, don’t go I didn’t mean to laugh.” He said his hands guiding her back down into the seat.

“How can I kiss it better?” He smirked, despite the exhaustion, the pain, the odd feeling stirring in her chest at seeing him smirk down at her, she laughed, for what felt like the first time in days.

An: HIIII FIRST STORY IN THE BOOKS!! Currently in C.ai rehab so I decided to start writing here instead so I wasn’t as hooked! Currently I’ve got a few drafts for different fandoms with my OC sooooo