writing job applications and thinking that perhaps I wasn't made for this world

just remembered that happiness is only an emotion and not something i can ever achieve as a permanent state no matter how many milestones reached or goals achieved it is only ever going to be an emotion that comes and goes ! No matter WHAT!

Escape screen time, rearrange furniture, open all the windows even if it’s cold, drop the baggage, drop the stuff piled up in the closet, drop the clothes I haven’t worn since 2019, go outside every day, breathe fresh air, stay out until it gets dark, feel the sun on my face

the sun literally sets and casts a golden hue over everything every single day and we fucked it all up and invented paying rent

bummed that i am a bit of a freak. also glad i am a bit of a freak. does this make sense

batting my big brown eyes at the checkout should be a valid payment method

come on brain yip yip

harry styles should change his first name to oppa gangnam

man some of the seven deadly sins aren’t even that bad. sorry I’m angry n wanna fuck? Sorry I ate a lot? shut up

im so glad discovering music is endless 

MORE INTERESTED IN HOW MY LIFE FEELS THAN HOW MY LIFE LOOKS TO OTHERS.

thank you for following me I have nothing to offer