elisa

hey!!!!

don’t really know how things work here on tumblr (honestly, I’ve no idea), but what I am absolutely certain of is that posting long stories of your own when you don’t have many followers is a bad idea😭

I don’t really mind, though, because I’ll learn how it works this app in time, so no problem hehe

anywayyyyy, here are a few little drawings I’ve been doing!!!

"Oh, my love, what am I to do?

All the lads talk and talk about women, speaking foolishly and crudely about them, treating them as some kind of precious object—forbidden jewellery—that grows dull and tarnished in the hands of men, who turn it into something ordinary, something plain and lifeless.

What am I to do, if I think only of this, if for me you are the only one I love and will ever love?

I cannot share my thoughts with the other lads, nor my view of the way they speak about women; they would take me for a strange and unworthy man.

But oh, Lord, why me? Why us? Why are we considered less? Why are we unworthy? Just for being born this way? Jesus, it is as though one were sentenced to death for having curls in one’s hair or rosy cheeks. We did not choose to be this way.

I am sick of holding myself back, of suppressing my thoughts, my desires. Of having to be someone other than who I truly am. Of the fear that consumes me entirely when someone begins to insult and spout nonsense about gay people—that clammy feeling, as though one were in a slow chase, always on the verge of being caught.

Damn it, I just want the war to end. I hate living in this constant state of persecution."

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For example:

Baz comes home and sees Simon in the living room watching something very intently. He moves a little closer.

"What are you watching?"

Simon is so focused that he doesn't even answer. Baz looks at the screen and suddenly sees Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander doing adult activities.

"WHAT THE HELL, SIMON? WHAT ARE YOU ACTUALLY WATCHING?"

"Oh! Hi, love, look, it's Heated Rivalry. Sit down with me and watch it, I promise you it's really good."

"Damn, Simon, you seem very calm. What the hell is Heated Rivalry? (Our chronically offline boy) And how do you expect us to watch this like any other series? It doesn't seem to have a plot. Do you really think they're handsome...?"

(He says this as he sits down and snuggles up to Simon's shoulder)

"Shut up and watch the bloody thing."

...A few hours pass and the sixth chapter ends.

"Merlin, Morgana and fucking Merlin, Simon. When is the second season coming out?"

"I TOLD YOU IT WAS GREAT."

"Yes, yes, but when is the second bloody season coming out, Simon?"

"Next year..."

I wanted to finish the drawing I had started in honour of the most introspective and handsome vampire character ever created, the most profound and complex I have ever read about, and the character I have identified with most throughout my life (and there have been many, many obsessions over the last 16 years). I didn't colour it in, but I have exams coming up, so I don't have much time.

Anyway, I'll post it soon.

Happy birthday to me and to this wonderful character, created by Rainbow Rowell.

(my birthday is at midnight on the 24th, that is, the 25th but we still have the same bday because we are twins and because I want)