23 || any pronouns || writer ItaFushi enthusiast !! fanfic creator !! idgaf about the jjk canon because it makes me sad !! gege and i fight for custody of those fictional gay ppl every day
I guess I'm mainly using this blog for JJK content and to highlight my writing...?? but here's some other random shit about me for anyone who's curious:
â I'm currently 23 years old !!
â I am the first-born & eldest daughter in an immigrant family. My 2 younger sisters are little shits but I wouldn't survive without them
â my friends & family have always made me who I am. I am not an individual; I am everyone I've ever loved.
â I graduated with a B.A. in psychology and double-minors in feminist studies and human rights, which really bleeds through in my writing (especiallyyy the psychology, oml). (My senior thesis was on queer attachment theory) (this will be very clear in my fanfics).
â Queer is a political identity and I don't generally find microlabels very useful to describe who I am. Asexual Grey-Panromantic Demigirl is the closest I can think of for myself, but even that's not 100%. At the end of the day we are just people.
â Everything is inherently political, actually. We must be anti-imperialist and anti-capitalist if the world & people in it are going to survive. Liberation and decolonization aren't just metaphors. Don't ever mistake me for a liberal. Lock the fuck in.
â I play the guitar and love tons of music, but always find myself returning to 2000s/2010s pop punk and alternative rock
â Before I dislocated my left shoulder for the 3rd time, you best believeeee I was in the pit at a metalcore shows
â other fandoms I'm in but not as insane about are Chainsaw Man, PJO & HOO, Paramore/Hayley Williams, and Waterparks
a series of canon-divergent stories that reimagine the development of Yuji and Megumi's relationship w/o the major jjk arcs. The actual jjk canon make me fucking sad, so I chose to make my boys traumatized in a unique way (Ëśáľ áľ áľËś)
1. I'll Find Forgiveness In Your Heartbeat
https://tiny.cc/IFFIYHeartbeat
(mature rating // 64 chapters // 317k words)
Megumi & Yuji slowly realize their feelings for each other and navigate the relationship that follows amidst Yujiâs looming execution.
This fic explores boundaries between love and self-sacrifice; the inherent tragedy of loving deeply. Itâs about how to grieve a prolonged death // how to love a doomed life.
Grief is love persevering, but ItaFushi has always been about grief and love conjoined in real time. There will be tears.
2. Last Night in London
https://tiny.cc/LNiLondon
(teen rating // 1 chapter // 19.6k words)
Yuji and Megumi agree that they need some time away from home after the events of the last year, and London seems just far enough away to give them a brief reset.
But after a lively, unpredictable, and fun time in a queer bar with their friends, their night takes an unfortunate turn as they walk back to their hotelâŚ
Yuji wants to save everyone but himself; Megumi only wants to save Yuji; they argue about it.
3. Favorite Thing To Taste
https://tiny.cc/FTtTaste
(explicit rating // 14 chapters // 70k words)
What doesnât kill you makes you weird at intimacy.
This fic explores dissociation, post-traumatic healing, and sex; the discomfort of having to be embodied to fully accept intimacy. What it means to seek pleasure after trauma // how trauma sometimes becomes directly written into our pleasure.
ItaFushi are in their mid-20s & just trying to figure out life after all the shit I put them through in the last fic. Oh, and they love each other a lot (obviously).
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âDid you find him?â Megumi couldnât bring himself to say Itadori's name.
Getoâs mouth pressed into a thin line as he shook his head.
âThen I donât want to hear it,â Megumi said curtly, standing up and brushing past his teacher.Â
âMegumi, weâre trying our best-â
âWell it clearly isnât good enough!â Megumi said without turning around.
He heard Geto breathe in and out slowly â probably some stupid therapy technique. âWeâre doing our best to find Sukuna, but you have to realize that even if we did find him, it wonât necessarily mean that weâll be able to save Itad-â
âI donât need another fucking reminder.â Megumi crossed his arms and shrugged his shoulders uncomfortably at the mention of his name, glaring at his teacher. âAll everyone does is remind me of that. I get it. The higher-ups want him gone.â
âYes, and weâll try-â
âBut I canât keep my hopes up. I know! I got it!â Chills pricked at Megumiâs skin and he bit the inside of his cheek. âI want to help.â
A beat of silence. âYou know thatâs not a good idea.â
Of course he fucking knew. Of course he knew that he would probably break down if he so much as caught a glimpse of that pink hair again. Of course he wouldnât be able to think clearly or do anything useful. Or course he would be absolutely useless against a special-grade curse unless he summoned his divine treasure. Of course killing himself was the only way heâd have a fighting chance to save the love of his life.Â
It was like the universe had decided that only one of them got to live. Only one could live, but he would never live happily without the other.
~~~Â
excerpt from chapter 56 of
âIâll Find Forgiveness In Your Heartbeatâ on ao3Â
https://tiny.cc/IFFIYHeartbeat
where Yuji goes missing after Sukuna fully takes over his body & Megumi doesn't handle it well
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On a similar note as the last post bi Yuuji. He's obviously not homophobic, and he knows being gay is a thing but it just like never occurs to him liking other boys is an option for himself until he meets Megumi...
Yujiâs pulse rose with anxiety as his gaze dropped to the final, mangled finger sitting innocently between the iron bars as if it wasnât part of the entity that ruined Yujiâs life.
âYou ruined your own life, brat, donât pin this on me.â
Yuji clenched his jaw, hands curled into fists as he went to pick up Sukunaâs 20th finger. And he stayed there, at the edge, with his back turned to everyone in the viewing room as usual; he didnât want them to see.Â
The leathery skin of Sukunaâs finger felt the same as it always did, the fingernail sharp and chipped like all the rest. Yet, Yuji swore that some sort of unfamiliar shiver ran up his arm as he held it, like some sort of sick spark of energy.
His gut churned at the memory of the taste of all the past fingers, his mouth going dry with dread.
âJust eat it.â
Itâs not like sitting here staring at the finger was going to make it better. Itâs not like dragging something out would make it hit less hard; not like temporary relief would do anything to stop the flood later. He just needed to get it over with.
So he closed his eyes and swallowed the last finger.
~~~Â
excerpt from chapter 55 of
âIâll Find Forgiveness In Your Heartbeatâ on ao3
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