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i am always one wrong word away from being shot by all the people who find me tolerable

they should invent a body that feels normal to be inside of

the thing about heavy handed symbolism is that sometimes. it's fun.

when james baldwin "you think your pain and your heartbreak are unprecedented in the history of the world, but then you read" & "love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up" & "it took many years of vomiting up all the filth i’d been taught about myself, and half-believed, before i was able to walk on the earth as though i had a right to be here" & "you have to go the way your blood beats. if you don't live the only life you have, you won't live some other life, you won't live any life at all" & &

did you have the dream i sent you?

at least the colour green exists

my summer plans consist of unclenching my jaw + forgiving myself

perhaps. i do want to be loved. unfortunate.

nobody else doing it like me. particularly because the way i’m doing it is needlessly difficult

Can we stop with the character development. Where's my beach episode.