eilishslut

re reading that one post you made about me over and over again because i know you’re right and it kills me. i know now and i knew then that every word was true and i just couldn’t admit it, and now i get to sit here and look at ur posts with ur perfect girlfriend while i re read the shitty ones that were made about me because i deserved it. i don’t hate that you wrote the words i hate that they’re true.

i said i got over it but there’s still immediate tears in my eyes whenever i see her face because if i never fucked it up maybe i wouldn’t have to make a whole separate account just to see it

making progress because i stopped notifications for both of the blogs i’ve been stalking 😪😪

i just saw reneé rapp at msg.

especially feeling “nothing gold can stay” after brody’s departure ☹️