Stuff I Like

I just want to shout into the void today because I don't know what else to do. Today is such an important day and I can barely get out of bed. I'm trying so hard to put one foot in front of the other, but it feels so impossible today.

Feeling very unsure about things and like I don't have options, which I think tends to make me feel overwhelmed more easily and makes it so I have harder time talking, but I'm still getting through it 🥲

I'm trying so hard today I really am, but I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if it is burnout or shutdown or what. Then one more thing happens, something I'm already really anxious about and I just can't. And I hate how that sounds and how I feel. Most of it is my fault too. I've dug myself a deep hole and I don't know how to get out. I don't know what to do. I think that's probably what I hate the most, the fact that I feel so helpless. Most of it I did, and I can't seem to undo it on my own. I hate how it feels and I hate how it sounds and I get even more stressed and anxious what others would think knowing that I'm like this. But of course they already know, it feels like it's written on me everywhere sometimes, I can't always see it, but it seems like everyone else can. Even so, if I could somehow pay someone to make this all go away and deal with it I would. It's both the solution I hate and the only one I can think of when I'm feeling like this, how ever unrealistic it may be.