eddy-core

Seriously. That one scene of Nakumara walking while being surrounded by a bunch of heterosexual couples after learning that Hirose has a girlfriend might be the single most relatable thing I've ever seen. Something like that happens to almost every queer person who's lived in an unaccepting, heteronormative culture (which I'm sure is all of us). Honestly, I hate how relatable this episode was. I hate it, but I love it. I'm not sure what I want the ending of this series to be. God. I literally cried at this episode it was so heartbreaking.

And you always know, deep down, that they're probably never going to actually date you, but it still hurts like hell when it happens. Because you're just a fucking 15 year old who has dreams of falling in love like most other people, the only difference is, you love the same gender.

I've also been exactly here before

You think you're fine with just being friends, but then, they start dating, and your whole world turns upside down. Reading too much into your friendship until you start having hope, and then it being ripped away. It fucking hurts.

Anyways.

and no, this isn’t me saying “write that messed up, disgusting thing” because while, yes, write it if it’s what you want (I myself enjoy writing dark fics, something I believe would be considered “vile” to a lot of people), this is me saying in a world of censorship and capitalism, ao3 really is a treasure.