nobody

I won’t lie to you, I still had so much anger in me, even as a young adult, because of the shit you put me through. I was mad at you for years. I blamed you for my shitty love life, I even told you that you started the avalanche of every boyfriend I had ever had cheating on me. But after everything that I had told you, you apologized.

You fucking apologized for everything that you did to me, even the shit that you did before we were even 16. I don’t think you understand how long I had waited for that apology and how much I needed it. I think that’s when all of the anger I had for you for years had managed to dissipate. After that apology, everything felt normal. There was no more awkwardness, no more resentment, just two old friends catching up.

I had told you about the relationship I was in. About how he cheated on me as well and that I wasn’t sure if I still wanted to be with him because I wasn’t over it. You told me something along the lines of “I know I can’t speak on it since I did the same thing, but you can’t live your life in misery.”

That was three days before he found out. He has went through our messages that were well over 6 years ago and he got mad at me for not only befriending you, but he got mad at me for confiding in someone who would be neutral (double standard since he confided into another girl as well). He got upset with me for telling you that I wasn’t sure if I still wanted to be with him after what he had done. To keep the peace, I blocked you.

One thing you’ll never know is that even though we had spoken over the course of those 3 days, you treated me with more respect than he had in 4 years. I wasn’t walking on eggshells speaking to you, we both said things to one another that we had held onto for years. We both amends. We were both respectful. We both showed one another that we had grown as individuals.

That was the last time we spoke, nearly two years ago. I thought you had dropped off of the face of the earth because I couldn’t find a single social media account of yours, I only found your tiktok that hadn’t been active. That was until I got a notification the other day that you had viewed my page as well.