EarthQuack Word

The Nazis lost WW2. this is true.

My impatience is an AI

It learns how to find it’s way into my darkest, hidden spots,

It adapts to it’s environment and mine,

The hardest, toughest parts of my heart, it has learned to penetrate,

You come closer and it deafens me, the silence of what we can’t say,

We know we can’t say it either,

You make my heart pound against my ribs,

And still you break me so.

We both know we hold love for one another… but it stays hidden,

We carefully put it away where it can’t hurt anyone,

It used to mumble obediently but it screams at me now,

That silent scream… it deafens me, love

Yearning is just so painful,

It is painful to love you, darling

When I listen to you rhyme,

It soothes me,

So, I find it hard to stop,

Myself from going too far,

Too much, too soon, too loud, too fast,

My impatience grows as the screaming gets louder, stronger, smarter,

Better equipped at breaking me down,

Crushing me under its weight,

Sometimes I feel that I can’t stand it… but there is something that refuses to let me go…

Refuses to let you go…

It gets me down, love,

I go into a dark pit,

And I don’t even know about it until I reach the surface again,

It’s like coming up for air,

Except you don’t know that you’re underwater

It’s like turning on the lights in a dark room,

Brilliant, different, light,

It’s like opening your eyes when you first wake up,

But you send me back my love,

You break my heart and make my day at the same time,

You kiss my neck and rip out my throat,

You caress me so tenderly then slap me back,

I’m grateful I had days full of you,

I cry because I know I’ll have no more

I’ve said enough is enough too many times,

You don’t get to do that any more,

You don’t have the right

You are the only person I cant get over,

The only one I ever really wanted,

The only one I actually feel for,

The only one I can’t overcome,

I can’t get over you and I’m not sure I ever will,

But for myself I say goodbye

Everyone else, I push them away,

I keep myself heavily guarded, like the pentagon,

I let no one in my airspace,

I keep on the lookout all the time,

Sometimes, I let you in,

But you come in, drop the bomb and then disappear like a ghost.

I can’t play this game any more, it breaks me every time

I feel you

I really feel you,

I’m not even saying that to sound cool, I’m not,

I really feel what you feel,

I connect to you,

I feel your temper snap,

I feel your heart break like mine is broken,

I feel it when she breaks you down, again,

I feel you

I feel your stress,

I feel your deep depression, I’m there next to you,

I feel your happiness… when it happens,

I feel you next to me too…

But my chest collapses with the knowledge that someone else is next to you,

Someone else gets to break your heart,

But I feel you

I feel it when you beg,

And I’m begging you back,

I feel it when you forgive her,

I feel it when she forgives you,

I feel it all I truly do

I feel it when you think about me,

I feel it when you’re angry with me,

I feel it when you forgive me,

I feel it when I hurt you

I feel your truth, too

I know you well enough to know… well I’m not so sure

I don't know any more…

I feel what you feel,

Like phantom emotions,

When you fight, I feel my fists clench,

When you cry, I feel my eyes burn,

When you laugh, I feel it in my stomach,

When you fuck, I feel it down there,

I feel you