or: your best friend valarr swears up and down daddy kinks are gross. so why are you tied to his bedframe?
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Youâre sitting cross-legged on his mattress, a romance novel propped between you; Valarr is taking it entirely too seriously. Heâs sitting opposite you, arms crossed, his jaw set in a line of pure, competitive steel. He looks less like a guy hanging out in sweatpants and more like a judge presiding over a high court.
"Your turn," he murmurs, his voice a low, challenging drawl. "Page 142. Go."
You clear your throat, tapping the page, and start reading the dialogue in the most monotonous, flat, textbook voice you can muster.
"...He leaned down, whispering against her ear, 'Do you like that, baby?' She gasped, arching her back she whimpered, 'Yes, daddy.'"
Valarr freezes. The stoic, unbothered expression heâd been maintaining instantly completely crumbles, replaced by a look of sheer, visceral horror.
"Hold on. Stop. Pause," Valarr cuts in, throwing his hands up in disgust. "Did she actually just say that? Out loud? To a man she is actively sleeping with?"
"It's just a trope, Val," you wheeze, already losing the straight-face challenge as your shoulders shake with laughter.
"Itâs fucking disgusting," he corrects aggressively, shifting around to face you fully, completely abandoning the game. "I mean, genuinely, what deep seeded issues do people who enjoy that have? Is it a validation thing? It ruins the entire mood. If a woman ever called me that while I was fucking her, I would genuinely put my clothes back on, leave the house, and recommend a therapist."
He goes on. And on. A solid, five-minute, passionate, deeply offended lecture about the absolute degeneracy of daddy kinks. He is gesturing with his hands, his mismatched eyes wide with genuine bafflement, completely oblivious to the massive, predatory grin spreading across your face.
You wait for him to finally take a breath, pausing his tirade.
You look him dead in the eye.
"Whatever you say, Daddy."
Valarr snaps his mouth shut. The silence that falls over the bedroom is sudden and deafening. His eyes narrow into slits, a dangerous, warning heat instantly flaring behind them.
"Do not," he says, his voice dropping an octave, dangerously quiet. "Do not call me that."
"Why not, Daddy?" you chirp, leaning forward, utterly delighted by how easy it is to press his buttons. "Scared you might start liking it, Daddy?"
"I am warning you," he mutters, his knuckles whitening where heâs gripping the edge of the blanket. "Stop saying it."
"Make me, Daddy."
You barely even see him move. One second you're smirking at his frustration, and the next, Valarr lunges. He tackles you back onto the pillows, his heavy frame instantly pinning yours into the mattress. Before you can even scream-laugh, he grabs your wrists, hauling them up over your head.
"You think you're so funny, don't you?" he growls, a dark, wicked smirk finally breaking through his annoyance.
"I think I'm hilarious, Dadâ"
He cuts you off by crashing his lips onto yours, left hand grabbing his spare silk tie from the nightstand. With terrifyingly efficient speed, he secures your wrists together, looping the fabric securely around the sturdy, wrought-iron bar of his headboard.
You blink up at him, your heart suddenly doing a violent flip against your ribs as the reality of the situation settles in. Youâre completely trapped, your arms anchored above you, and Valarr is hovering over you like a shadow, deliberately slow as he sits back on your thighs to completely pin you down.
"Let's see how long that smart mouth lasts when you aren't the one in control," he whispers, his fingers tracing a slow, agonizingly light line down your throat, making you shiver.
Valarr knows exactly what heâs doing. His hands are everywhereâtouching, teasing, dragging his lips along your jawline, pulling soft, desperate gasps from your throat. He brings you right to the edge, the overwhelming ache building so intensely behind your eyes that youâre practically begging, your hips blindly rolling up into his hands.
And then, he stops. He pulls back just enough to leave you shivering, empty, and burning up from the inside out.
"Please," you whimper, pulling against the tie on the headboard, your head tossing back against the pillow. "Valarr, come on, don't be a dick."
He leans down, his breath hot against your ear, his voice a low, smug purr. "Admit it's gross. Promise me youâll never say that word again, and Iâll finish what I started."
You take a ragged breath, looking up at him through heavy lids. Your chest is heaving, your body is screaming for release, and your best friend is looking down at you with absolute triumph written all over his face.
You swallow hard, summon every single ounce of stubborn defiance left in your trembling body, and give him a breathless, filthy smile.
"No way in hell... Daddy."
Valarrâs jaw tightens, a sudden, dark growl ripping from his throat as his eyes darken to near-black. You look at himâreally look at himânoticing the way his dark hair is mussed and the way his eyes are blown wide with a hunger that matches your own. Heâs dying to give in, you can see it in the tension of his shoulders, but his pride is a fortress.
You take a shuddering breath, a defiant, dizzying heat rushing to your cheeks. If he wants to play the long game, you'll play.
"I think..." you start, your voice trembling but thick with mischief, "that you're just mad because you actually like the sound of it coming from me Daddy."
Valarrâs eyes darken instantly, his nostrils flaring as he lets out a low, dangerous hiss of breath. He leans down, his hands pinning yours against the iron bar, his face inches from yours.
"I am going to make you take that back," he growls, "if it takes me all night. Don't think for a second I'm letting you off easy now." "Look at me," he commands, his voice like gravel.
You force your heavy lids open. Heâs watching the way your chest heaves, the way your skin has flushed a deep, feverish pink. Every time your hips jerk upward in a desperate plea for friction, he replaces his hand with the soft, mocking brush of his lips, or worseânothing at all.
"Youâre shaking," he notes, a cruel, beautiful smirk tugging at his mouth. "Is it still funny? Is the joke still worth it?"
"Itâs not a joke anymore," you gasp out, your wrists straining against the silk tie until the metal of the headboard rattles. The sensation is all-consuming; you are a taut string waiting to snap. You look up at him, your vision blurring. "Valarr, please. I can't... Iâm going to lose my mind."
"Good," he whispers, leaning down so his chest brushes yours, the heat of him nearly making you black out. "Lose it. But tell me whoâs in control first."
He slides his hand back down, his touch firm and possessive, and for one glorious second, you think heâs finally going to let the dam break. He builds the tension until youâre sobbing into the pillow, your entire body vibrating with the force of itâand then he stops. Again.
"Say it," he growls, his own composure finally beginning to fracture. Heâs sweating now, his jaw ticking with the effort of holding himself back. "Say Iâm the only one you're ever calling that. Say you're mine."
"You are" you echo, your voice breaking. "Fuck, you're my Daddy."
Thatâs the final thread. The "disgusting" cliche he spent ten minutes mocking is the very thing that finally shatters his restraint. Valarr lets out a sound that is half-snarl, half-groan, his pride finally collapsing under the weight of his own want.
He doesn't even bother untying you. He doesn't have the patience left.
He moves over you with a sudden, violent urgency, his hands gripping your waist so hard his fingers leave ghostly white marks against your skin. When he finally sinks into you, the sensation is so overwhelming that a high, keening sound leaves your throat.Â
Valarr buries his face in the crook of your neck, his breath coming in jagged, hot bursts. Heâs no longer the composed lecturer; heâs a man possessed, his movements frantic as he tries to make up for every second he spent teasing you.
"You stubborn little bitch" he grunts, the words lost against your skin as he drives you higher and higher.
With your hands still anchored above your head, youâre forced to take every bit of him, your back arching off the mattress as the first wave of release finally, finally crashes over you. Itâs more intense than anything youâve ever felt, a literal white-out behind your eyelids that leaves you gasping his name.
Valarr follows a second later, his entire body tensing as he collapses against you, his forehead resting against yours as he tries to remember how to breathe. After a long moment, Valarr reaches up, his fingers slightly clumsy as he fumbles with the silk tie, finally freeing your wrists.
He rubs the red marks on your skin with a sudden, uncharacteristic tenderness, then looks you in the eye, his expression a mix of lingering heat and utter exhaustion.
"Don't," he pants, pulling the covers up over both of you as he settles into your side, "ever mention this to anyone. Ever."
You let out a weak, tired laugh, curling into his chest. "Whatever you say, Daddy."
"Go to sleep," he groans, though he pulls you closer, a faint, defeated smile touching his lips. "Before I tie you up again."
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. . . SUMMARY. you suddenly change positions and take control during sex !
. . . PAIRINGS. maekar, aerion, daeron, valarr x wife!reader.
. . . CW. +18 content, afab! reader, aerion is rough (ofc), praising, begging, pet names.
. . . WC. 1.4K
. . . NOTES. it's my very first time writing for maekar and valarr... apologies in advance. huhuhu. i hope you enjoy this post, likes and reblogs are highly appreciated. asks open. đ
MAEKAR. the first time you push him onto his back, he looks up at you like youâve grown a second head. like, what in the seven hells is this woman doing now? heâs used to being the one who fucks you â not the other way around. not you taking control over him like heâs some virgin boy you can tame as you please.
his eyebrows shoot up and his lips part slightly. you already know something grumpy is about to come out of that mouth. âwhat the fuck are youââ his rough words die in his throat the second you sink down on his cock.
he inhales sharply as his hands fly to your hips and waist, gripping the soft flesh in a bruising, punishing hold. he has enough trouble dealing with his children â now he has a bratty wife too? but as soon as you start moving up and down on his dick, his brain turns off. he tries to keep control, but the way your pussy swallows his cock with every roll of your hips makes him want to surrender completely.
his jaw clenches and a low growl rumbles from deep in his throat. his eyes never leave your body as he assesses this new position. maybe it wasnât so bad⊠he has a perfect view of your tits bouncing every time you stuff your pussy full of his aching cock.
he breathes heavily through his nose after a rough curse leaves his lips, hands still gripping your sides like iron. heâs fighting the urge to flip you over and remind you exactly whoâs in charge, but he holds back. at least for now.
as you keep riding him, his composure slowly shatters â deep breaths, low curses, and broken moans he tries and barely manages to swallow. he squeezes your waist in a silent command, eyes burning into you as if to say âif youâre going to do this, at least donât torture me.â
you obey. and maekar finally snaps. one hand slides up to squeeze your breast while the other guides your hips, his own hips thrusting up to meet you with powerful strokes.
âi hope you fucking realize that this will not happen again.â
oh, but it will. especially on those nights when heâs exhausted but still needs to bury his cock inside you.
AERION. you managed to catch him off guard. just this once. he looks surprised when you push him down and climb on top, but that shock quickly morphs into something far more dangerous. aerion smirks, his violet eyes piercing into yours with a challenging gleam. he flashes a hint of his canines. ânow you wish to ride the dragon? are you certain you can handle me?â he asks, every word dripping with mockery.
his gaze drops to your pussy as it slowly envelops his cock inch by inch. his nails bite into your skin as he lets out a deep, guttural growl. his half-lidded eyes never leave the sight of his cock disappearing into your cunt every time you sink down, like itâs the most magnificent view in the world.
his hands slide down your body to grab your ass, squeezing hard and pulling you flush against him, forcing you to take him to the hilt. you donât stay in control for long. soon heâs fighting to take over, gripping your hips and slamming up into you with restless, powerful thrusts.
âlook at you⊠so fucking perfect.â he grunts against your skin, breath hot. his lips latch onto the swell of your tits, kissing, licking, and biting without any gentleness. he leaves open-mouthed marks all over your chest, sucking dark bruises and bites into your skin like a dragon marking his claim. âalways thinking you can tame me, my sweet naive wife.â this time he isnât smirking â he sneers. because you almost, almost do tame him, and that bruises his draconic ego more than heâll ever admit.
your teasing only makes it worse. you slow your pace deliberately while he keeps trying to force you down harder. heâs not having it. in one swift motion his arms snake around your waist, nails digging into your back hard enough to leave scratches. you squirm and moan from the sharp mix of pain and pleasure.
âenough.â he hisses against your mouth, done with your games. his lips crash into yours, tongue forcing its way inside as he starts pounding up into you harder and faster, whispering filthy curses and possessive words against your swollen lips.
ânext time you want to play dragonrider, make sure youâre prepared for a real dragon, wife.â
DAERON. his brain short-circuits the moment you take control and climb on his lap. he doesnât even try to fight back â heâs too stunned to react properly at first. daeron blinks a few times, suddenly finding himself on his back, and the second you sink down on his cock he loses the ability to form a single coherent sentence.
âoh, gods⊠fuck, mmhâŠâ his eyes roll back as you start riding him. his hands are everywhere â groping your tits, squeezing your waist, gripping your hips and thighs. he squeezes and kneads your flesh like he canât decide where to touch first, completely overwhelmed. the room fills with the wet sound of your hips meeting his and his shameless, breathy moans and whimpers.
you deliberately slow your pace just to watch him, and he whines almost instantly. âplease, my love⊠iâve been good. donât do this to meâŠâ his voice cracks, sounding dangerously close to tears as his hips buck up desperately, trying to fuck himself into you faster.
the sight is too pathetic to resist. you pick up the pace again and his thighs start trembling. every time your cunt squeezes around him, his cock twitches hard inside you. daeron is moaning loudly with every wet slap of skin, tears gathering in his eyes as he struggles to keep them on your face instead of your bouncing tits. âjust like that⊠keep going⊠âm so close⊠so closeâŠâ
he completely loses control right before the edge. his hands grip your waist tightly as he thrusts up into you with frantic force, hitting that perfect spot until you both shatter. he cums with a long, broken whimper, burying himself deep as your walls spasm around him.
âfuck⊠you did it so good,â he pants, still twitching inside you. âif i knew you had it in you i wouldâve put you on my lap myself much sooner.â
VALARR. his eyes widen when you suddenly change positions. the usually composed prince freezes as you straddle his lap, a small, surprised sound escaping his throat. he doesnât trust himself to speak â he knows his voice would tremble. but then a small, charming smile curves his lips, letting you know heâs more than happy to let you take control this time. he leans back slightly, placing his hands gently on your thighs as he watches you sink down on his cock with hooded eyes.
âyouâre so beautiful,â valarr murmurs. his hands stroke slowly up your thighs, taking their time as they move to your hips and waist, and finally to your breasts. his thumbs brush over your hardened nipples, focused on your pleasure before his own.
as you keep riding him, his composure begins to crack. his jaw clenches, trying to hold back low groans, and his breathing grows ragged. those gentle eyes burn into you now with a hunger and intensity youâve rarely seen from him.
your movements falter for a second at the sight, but he gives you another sweet smile, even as his lips tremble slightly. âdonât be cruel, sweetheart. keep going.â he encourages in a breathy whisper, rolling his hips up to meet yours, silently begging you to ride him harder. when you obey, his eyes flutter shut for a moment as he inhales deeply. his voice grows more desperate. âyesâ thatâs my girl. my wife. godsâŠâ
your pussy swallows his cock with every roll of your hips. he pulls you down against his chest, and you melt into him as your climaxes draw closer. his parted lips brush against your neck, hot and humid, while he moans softly and whispers sweet praises. his thrusts become deeper and more controlled, focused entirely on making you cum first.
when you finally shatter around him, he lets himself go, cumming deep inside you with a quiet, trembling groan.
he stays buried inside you for a long moment, softening but not pulling out as you both catch your breath. his hand strokes your back with quiet devotion, fingers eventually burying into the hair at the nape of your neck.
âyou do not cease to surprise me, my dear,â he murmurs. âyouâve just opened my eyes⊠i may be made to be beneath you.â
READER TEASING THEM IN PUBLIC. featuring maekar, aerion, daeron, baelor, valarr x wife! reader.
cw. +18 content, afab! reader, suggestive/smut, no use of y/n, clothed sex, implied angry sex, mention of public sex, handjob, pet names, mention of oral sex (both receiving)
wc. 2.1k
notes. i said i wasn't writing for baelor again and i lied !! asks are open. likes and reblogs are appreciated. thanks for the support on my previous posts, makes a woman so happy. đ
ââ .⊠after another fight with his sons that same morning, maekar hoped the day wouldnât keep punishing him any further. they already had him stressed enough. what he didnât expect was that, in the middle of that feast filled with lords and ladies, his own wife would be the cause of another sweet torment. maybe she was bored, maybe she just wanted to tease him a little, when she leaned toward his seat and whispered in his ear, âyou know, iâm not wearing anything under this gown.â
maekar took a second to react, but when he did it seemed like he hadnât heard her right. had his ears failed him? was he starting to hallucinate from the dayâs built-up frustration? with a perplexed expression, he turned his head slightly to look at her, needing to confirm he hadnât imagined it. and the damn woman was there, watching him with that mischievous smile that made him want to drag her to the first dark alcove and fuck her until she begged for forgiveness.
âfor fucks sake, woman. are you messing with me?â he growled under his breath while his eyes locked onto her cleavage, as if he could melt the fabric with just a look. when he realized what he was doing, he turned his head again and closed his eyes heavily, clenching his jaw tight. he wanted to ask why the hell she had decided not to wear any underwear that day, if she was trying to send him to the grave quickly, but the words got stuck in his throat. he had to take a long sip of wine to keep from giving her the satisfaction of seeing how much that little piece of information was affecting him beneath his black and red breeches.
but he couldnât stop stealing furtive glances. his eyes kept drifting back to her chest like a magnet, trying to make out whether her nipples showed through the silky fabric. to his disappointment he saw nothing, but he would be patient. he would have her all to himself later that night. he inhaled deeply and his hands moved restlessly in his lap, already imagining how he would push her against the table in his study, bend her over the wooden surface and fuck the frustration out of himself with her pretty cunt. too impatient to undress her properly, he would simply hike up her skirts until he revealed the needy swell of her entrance, his reddened cockhead already nudging her soaked folds apart.
just so you know, maekar is not very fond of this little game you're playing, and he's keeping count of every second you're making him suffer. be prepared for consequences!
ââ .⊠aerion is training alongside the other knights, with you â his beloved wife â as a spectator, since he had practically dragged you there so you could watch and be proud of how strong he is and how quickly he can disarm any man foolish enough to face him, even if it was only training. honestly, he just wanted your attention, and he was more than capable of turning a simple sword practice into a full performance just for you.
once he finishes, he approaches you with a proud smile, drenched in sweat after defeating everyone in record time. seeing those puppy-like eyes searching yours for even a sliver of validation makes you want to tease him, just a little. âsuch strength you possess, my love⊠i bet i could bring you to your knees in seconds.â you purr deceptively sweet, a playful smile lit up your face as you handed him some cool water, letting your fingers brush against a bead of sweat trailing down his forearm. he raised his eyebrows, surprised that you had said such a thing so casually, right in front of the knights and squires still training around you.
his violet eyes darken dangerously as your words finally register in his mind, and a slow swipe of his tongue across his lower lip wipes the smile from his face. âwhat did you just say to me?â he asks through gritted teeth, grabbing your wrist with a firm grip â strong enough to immobilize your mischievous hand but not enough to hurt you. his gaze, a volatile mix of fury and raw desire, makes you swallow hard and immediately question your choices. âfucking tease. you dare speak to me like that in front of everyone, knowing my father would have my head if i dragged you to the nearest wall and fucked you right here in front of those idiots.â
your knees almost tremble at his words. you should be scared, but the thought only sends a rush of heat through your body. his lips curve into a dark smile when he notices your reaction. he glances sideways, aware of the few curious stares now fixed on the two of you, though the onlookers quickly find something else to distract themselves with. heâs drawing attention, and he knows it.
his head tilts slowly, as if he were about to press a gentle kiss to your cheek, but instead a cruel whisper brushes against your ear. âwhen iâm done here, iâm taking you back to our chambers, and iâm going to show you exactly who brings the other to their knees, do you understand, wife?â his lips press against the shell of your ear, and his jaw clenches so tightly you can feel it against your skin, as if heâs already imagining you naked and spread beneath him.
after pulling back, he gives a slow, deliberate look up and down your body. ânow act like a good wife and behave. or i swear by the seven i will bend you over and fuck you right here in the yard.â
ââ .⊠you had lost count of how many cups of wine daeron had downed, but it was clearly far too many. his gaze looked distant and unfocused, his knuckles turning white from how tightly he gripped his goblet, as if it were the only thing anchoring him to reality. it had become a familiar sight after so many months of marriage.
you called his name softly a couple of times, trying to catch his attention as a lord attempted to strike up a conversation with your husband, who remained lost in his thoughts. it seemed youâd have to resort to your final option: give him a reason to stay awake, even if only for a few minutes.
you couldnât see his face clearly, hidden as it was behind messy strands of sandy hair falling over his eyes. your hand slipped beneath the table and settled on his thigh. His muscles tensed instantly under your palm. a gentle squeeze made his pale, red-rimmed eyes peek through the disheveled locks, more confused than lost. âmm⊠whaâ what?â he stammered pathetically. his legs parted instinctively, widening just a little more, already craving your touch even in his sorry state.
âi know itâs hard, my sweet husband,â you murmured with quiet amusement, âbut try to pay attention to poor lord vance. heâs been talking to himself this whole time, thinking he has your full attention.â your hand continued its slow ascent up his thigh until your nails dug lightly into the inner seam of his breeches, making him straighten up like a startled horse.
âhard⊠i meanâ yes, uh⊠lord vance, of course.â he cleared his throat, his voice rough. his gaze finally shifted toward the lord seated across from you. daeron shifted his hips slightly in his seat, trying to get more comfortable despite the growing hardness between his legs. as if he could care less about that irrelevant lord! the man could rot in the seven hells for all he cared â his wife was practically stroking his cock under a table full of people!
the lord wasnât completely blind; he clearly sensed something was off, even if he couldnât quite place it. you offered him an innocent smile. âyouâll have to forgive us, my husband is feeling a bit⊠indisposed. isnât that right, dear?â your hand gave his straining cock a firm squeeze. daeron barely managed to choke back a needy groan, nodding along to whatever you said. you could have told the man anything while your hand was on his cock and daeron would have agreed like the good boy he was.
âyes⊠we must leave,â he muttered, sounding far more desperate than drunk. âlord vance, if youâll excuse us. it seems i may be unreachable for the rest of the night.â
ââ .⊠baelor sat beside you on the high royal stands, tall and regar in his black, expensive tunic as he watched the jousts below. the sun was merciless today, beating down on the crowd and making the air thick with heat and dust. you fanned yourself with an ornate fan, your cheeks flushed slightly, though the heat was only partly to blame. your husband right beside you found the knights below much more entertaining than your constant complains about the heat.
with a soft sigh, you switched in your seat and discreetly tugged at the neckline of your dress, pulling it down just enough to give him a generous view of your cleavage. the thin fabric clung to your skin from the warmth, and the subtle movement drew his attention immediately.
baelor's head turned slightly towards you and his eyebrows arched, his mismatched eyes fell on the patch of skin before he forced them towards the field again. his jaw tightened visibly and his fingers started fiddling with his rings.
âmy love,â he murmured under his breath, voice low, barely audible over the roar of the crowd. âmay i ask what are you doing?â
you continued fanning yourself innocently, tilting your head so your hair fell gracefully over one shoulder. another small tug lowered the silk just a little more, letting the sunlight kiss skin. âit's so terribly warm today, husband.â you replied sweetly, your voice soft but laced with mischief. âdon't you think so?â
his gaze flickered down again despite himself, lingering in the curve of your breasts before he tored his eyes away. âmy love, do not behave so improperly.â he whispered, his voice growing rougher. âcompose yourself, dearest.â
you smiled behind your fan, delighted by the way his breathing has grown heavier. even as another knight was unhorsed below, baelor's attention remained divided â torn between duty and the tempting sight you were deliberately offering him.
âperhaps you should help cool me down later then,â you murmured, letting your knee brush against his.
âperhaps,â he murmured back slowly through clenched teeth, clearly fighting a losing battle against his wife's teasing. âyou would do well not to test a prince's restraint so openly. not when half of the court sits mere feet away from us.â
ââ .⊠valarr sat beside you at the high table, ever the picture of princely composure as the feast stretched on. musicians played softly in the background while lords and ladies laughed and chattered around you. he looked regal in his dark tunic, violet eyes scanning the room with quiet vigilance, the weight of expectation always resting on his shoulders.
you leaned slightly closer to him under the guise of reaching for your goblet, letting your lips hover near his ear. your voice was barely a whisper, soft and velvet as you spoke. âyouâve been so tense all evening, my husband,â you murmured, a sweet smile playing on your lips for anyone who might glance your way. âi keep thinking about how good you looked this morning⊠naked, with my thighs around your head.â
valarrâs hand froze halfway to his cup. his jaw tightened instantly, and you felt the subtle shift in his posture as he fought to keep his expression neutral. a faint flush crept up the back of his neck, barely visible in the warm torchlight. you continued, voice low and wicked, pretending to comment on the music. âi can still taste you on my tongue if i think about it long enough⊠and right now, all i want is to drop to my knees under this table and take you into my mouth again.â
his breath hitched. valarr turned his head just enough to look at you, his eyes dark with a mixture of shock and burning desire. âwife,â he warned quietly, his voice rough and strained, âthis is hardly the placeâŠâ
you smiled innocently and rested your hand on his thigh beneath the table, giving it a gentle, teasing squeeze. valarr swallowed hard, his fingers clenching around the stem of his goblet until his knuckles paled. he tried to focus on the conversation happening further down the table, but you could see the way his chest rose and fell more quickly. the honorable, dutiful valarr was unraveling thread by thread right beside you.
âyou are going to pay for this later,â he whispered back, his tone dark with promise, though the slight hoarseness in his voice betrayed just how affected he was.
you simply took a sip of wine, looking every bit the perfect wife, while your fingers traced slow, maddening circles on his thigh. âiâm counting on it.â
Synopsis: The third arrow strikes, sealing the fate of Jacaerys Velaryon⊠except he wakes up in a world without dragons, convinced it was only a dream. Or was it? Because there is one promise his soul never forgot, and somehow⊠yours remembers it too.
Pairing: Jacaerys Velaryon x fem!Reader
Genre: reincarnation au, modern!jacaerys, established relationship
Warning: None tbh its just fluff (coping mechanismđ„č), there is no specific description of reader so enjoy, no aegon or viserys, Rhaenyra is married to Laenor but its platonic, inaccurate description of battle of the gullet? (I tried-).
A/N: I recently got into HOTD and then I lost my favourite character aka Jace. I made this blog so I can be delulu about him đ. Also half of this is me word vomitingđ„Ž.
Word Count: 10.1k
- English is not my first language so / apologise in advance for any mistakes or typos!
The sea did not merely roll that day, it burned.
Fire danced with a horrific, erratic grace across the blackened waters of the Gullet, transforming the vital shipping lane into a sprawling, floating graveyard. Flames leapt from ship to ship in hungry arcs, feeding on timber and pitch and the desperate prayers of drowning men. Beneath the merciless onslaught of Team Blackâs dragons, mighty Triarchy war-galleys splintered like kindling, their hulls cracking open to swallow their crews whole. Great masts toppled into the waves with the slow, theatrical finality of falling monuments. And yet, this was no easy victory. No clean triumph etched into the history books with golden ink. Below, Lord Corlys Velaryonâs fleet fought with everything it had, attempting to trap the armada in the narrow, choking passage, buying time in blood and smoke and screaming iron.
The atmosphere was a living thing, a suffocating shroud woven from the sharp salt tang of brine, the acrid bite of billowing smoke, the unmistakable iron-sweetness of fresh blood, and the sickening, almost honeyed stench of burning pitch. It coated the throat and burned the eyes.
High above the carnage, roaring through the roiling tempest of fire and ash, rode Prince Jacaerys Velaryon.
He sat astride Vermax like a man born to the sky because he was. The great emerald dragon cut through the smoke-choked air like a gleaming blade, his scales catching the hellish firelight below, wings spread wide. Jaceâs riding leathers were already dark with spray and soot. His dark curls whipped against his face. He did not notice. His eyes were fixed on the battle, calculating and measuring, feeling the terrible weight of command settle across his shoulders with the intimacy of something he had worn all his life.
He had locked his mother in her chambers at Dragonstone before leaving. Had stood outside the door and listened to her pound against it, her voice cracking on his name. The sound had nearly unmade him entirely. But she was the queen. She was the cause. She could not be lost, and Jacaerys Velaryon had long since made peace with the arithmetic of that.
She lives. Therefore, I go.
Beside him, Baela streaked across the smoke on Moondancer fierce and brilliant, her silver hair streaming behind her like a war banner. And then, piercing through the mist like something half-imagined, a new silhouette emerged. Jaceâs eyes snapped to it. His stomach lurched with shock before his heart swelled with a pride so fierce it nearly hurt.
Rhaena. Flying the wild dragon Sheepstealer.
Of course she was.
Together they were three dragons raining hell from the heavens, and for one blazing, exhilarating moment, Jace believed they might actually win this despite Sheepstealer almost knocking him out. He watched their collective fire devastate Admiral Loharâs vanguard below, great tongues of flame consuming the armadaâs leading ships, sending men screaming into the sea. He felt the savage triumph of it. The rightness.
Then the heavy, rhythmic thrum of scorpions began.
Massive iron bolts tore through the clouds around them. The Triarchy fleet was enormous, he had known this, had known it academically the way one knows a thing from maps and reports but knowing it and watching it materialize below him in all its terrible scale were entirely different experiences.
He pressed Vermax into a steep, dangerously low dive.
Below, through the roiling chaos, Jace had spotted Lord Corlysâs flagship being violently rammed by Loharâs vessel. The silver-haired sea snake, his grandfather by every measure that mattered, surrounded and struggling. Jace made his decision in the space of half a breath. He would break the enemy lines. He would fly low. He would end this.
He flew too close to the water.
His focus had narrowed to a single burning point, the ships, the threat, the duty and so he did not hear the volley until it was already too late.
A heavy iron shaft sliced violently through the membrane of Vermaxâs right wing with a sound like tearing cloth and screaming metal fused together. Another slammed directly into the dragonâs chest with a concussive, world-shaking force that Jace felt through every bone in his body.
Vermax screamed.
The sound ripped through Jace like a physical blade. Not a roar, not the magnificent, terrible declaration of a dragon in battle. A scream. Raw and agonizing and so deeply personal that Jace felt his own lungs seize in sympathy, as though the bolt had pierced him too. The great emerald body shuddered beneath him. The massive wings faltered, losing the steady rhythm that held them aloft. The world tilted.
They were falling.
âNo-â
Jace yanked desperately on the reins, his boots straining hard against the stirrups, body thrown forward as the sea rushed upward to meet them with terrifying speed. Wind screamed past his ears. The fire and the smoke and the battle became a chaotic blur of sensation.
âVermax, fly!â
The dragon fought. Even now, even broken and burning, Vermax fought. A beast born of fire, refusing absolutely to yield to the water. One wing beat heavily, then another. The torn membrane fluttered uselessly, a tattered rag of what it had been, but still Vermax tried, and something in Jaceâs chest shattered at the sight of it.
âSoves!â His voice broke on the word, all royal dignity stripped away, reduced to something raw and helpless and very young. âSoves, Vermax! Please-â
One final, agonizing beat of the wings.
It was not enough.
Freezing, brine-heavy water swallowed Jacaerys Velaryon whole. It was not like diving, it was like being struck by the earth itself, like the sea had become solid in the last instant before collision, and he felt the shock travel up through his ankles, his knees, his spine, rattling his teeth in his skull. The sheer velocity of the crash tore his fingers from the saddle. The weight of his armor dragged at him immediately, a slow, patient, lethal pull downward into the dark.
Primal instinct flared.
He unhooked himself and practically clawed upward. His lungs burned. The cold was absolute, the kind that doesnât feel cold at all but rather feels like being unmade, like the sea was simply erasing him a layer at a time. He could see nothing, only dark water and distant fire and the enormous bulk of Vermax somewhere below him, a shadow become a nightmare.
He burst through the surface with a gasp so violent it tore his throat.
âVermax!â
He spun in the churning water, hair plastered to his face, salt burning his eyes. The battle raged on around him, ships groaning and splitting, men screaming, iron raining from all directions. The world had not paused for him.
âVermax!â
Through the haze of cresting waves, he found him. His dragon, his Vermax, who had carried him since boyhood, who had grown as he had grown, who had been as much a part of him as his own heartbeat was desperately trying to swim. The damaged wings beat uselessly to try to swim up. His great neck was straining upward. His eyes, when they met Jaceâs from below the water, held something that a person with less grief in them might have dismissed as imagination.
They did not look like the eyes of an animal.
They looked like the eyes of someone saying goodbye.
A massive anchor, or debris, Jace could not tell which, tangled around Vermaxâs exhausted body. The sea accepted its offering. With a final, sorrowful look that Jacaerys Velaryon would carry with him for the rest of his life.
He never resurfaced.
Something inside Jace broke. Not cracked. Not bent. Broke, the way an old bone breaks, the kind that doesnât ever quite knit back the same way. He hauled his upper body onto a large piece of floating wreckage with the determination of a body that had not yet received the message from his mind that none of this mattered anymore. His chest heaved in ragged, desperate gasps. He was shaking. He was exhausted in a way that reached all the way down into whatever part of him had believed, until this moment, that he might survive this.
He had not brought enough of that belief. He saw that now.
He thought of his mother.
The image of her face, proud and terrified and trying not to show either rose unbidden. He had done this for her. Had done all of it for her. He hoped she would understand, someday, that locking her in her chambers had been the most love he had ever offered anyone.
He thought of Baela. Of Rhaena.
He thought of-
A sharp, dull impact struck his upper back.
Jace lurched forward with a sound that was almost nothing, barely a breath. Confused, of all things, not yet understanding, he glanced over his shoulder. A heavy crossbow bolt protruded from his shoulder blade at an angle that his mind catalogued with strange, distant calm, the way one notices a detail in a painting.
Slowly, numbly, he turned his head toward the source.
A Triarchy war-galley drifted just yards away. Lined along the wooden railing stood a row of Admiral Loharâs soldiers, unhurried, methodical, their crossbows leveled at the figure in the water.
They knew exactly who he was. There was no urgency in their posture, no battlefield fever. This was an execution.
The heir to the Iron Throne, stranded and defenseless.
A second bolt flew. It slammed into his chest. He heard it before he felt it.
Then a third...straight to the neck.
A strange, sudden calm washed over him.
The deafening roar of the battle receded, becoming muffled, distant, the way sounds narrow when one goes underwater. The sea rocked him gently now, almost tenderly, as if it had been waiting all along to offer this small mercy at the end. He had not expected kindness. He was grateful for it.
He thought of his mother, safe on Dragonstone.
He thought of Baelaâs laughter.
He thought of his brothers.
And he thought with a softness that surprised him, with something that might have been the very last warmth his body could generate, of you. Of a future that would not be built. Of a promise he was not sure, now, that he had ever been given the chance to make.
The last image to imprint itself on the fading mind of Jacaerys Velaryon was that reflection.
A burning sky, mirrored in the water.
Beautiful.
Tragic.
Then everything went black.
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BEEP. BEEP. BEEP.
Jacaerys bolted upright with a gasp that felt like surfacing.
His eyes flew open. His hand flew to his chest and then to his neck, pressing hard against his sternum, feeling for something, a wound, an absence, a bolt buried in bone and found nothing but the soft cotton of his t-shirt and the solid, living rhythm of his own heart.
He sat there for a long moment, chest heaving, and simply stared at the ceiling.
White plaster. Crown moulding. A small water stain shaped vaguely like a continent.
No smoke.
No dragon.
No sea.
No battle.
Just a bedroom. His bedroom.
Morning sunlight filtered through floor-to-ceiling windows in long, clean shafts, illuminating the warm disorder of his life: the desk buried under business textbooks and notebooks with pages dog-eared and margins crowded with his handwriting, his laptop open from the night before with a lecture slide still visible on the screen, a hoodie slung over the back of his desk chair. Outside the windows, Kingâs Landing stretched endlessly in the early light, the city already stirring, glass towers catching the sun.
His alarm clock flashed 7:00 AM.
No swords or the banners of House Targaryen.
Jace pressed the heels of both palms against his eyes and breathed.
The memories were still there. That was the wrong word for them, memories. They did not feel like the soft, dissolving stuff of ordinary dreams that faded on the edges as soon as you tried to examine them. They felt like the other kind of remembering, the kind that lives in the body rather than the mind. He could still feel the cold of the Gullet in his fingers. He could still smell the smoke. He could still feel the weight of dragon-riding leathers across his shoulders, the particular pull of Vermaxâs movement through the air, the way the saddle had sat against the backs of his thighs.
He could still feel the bolts.
Just a dream, he told himself. The words felt inadequate in his own mouth, like trying to describe a storm with the word weather. He muttered them anyway, pressing his face harder into his palms.
âJust a dream.â
A dream where he had been a prince.
A prince who had died.
His stomach dropped with a physical lurch. The alarm was still beeping. He silenced it with a slap and sat on the edge of the bed for one more moment, just one, breathing in the ordinary scent of his ordinary room..
Then his brain supplied the information he had been avoiding.
Classes.
Shit.
He was already late.
He moved through his morning routine with the efficiency of someone running on instinct rather than thought, shower, clothes, a cursory battle with his curls that ended, as it always did, in a draw. He emerged from the bathroom in jeans and sneakers and his favorite dark hoodie, his hair doing exactly what it wanted. There wasnât time to argue with it. There was rarely ever time.
The smell of coffee reached him in the hallway. It pulled at something in his chest and he followed it through the penthouse to the kitchen.
His steps halted in the doorway.
Rhaenyra stood at the island counter, reading something on her tablet with the focused, slightly stern expression she wore when she was processing information she found annoying. A coffee mug steamed beside her elbow, forgotten. She was already dressed soft grey, elegant, effortlessly so in the way that had always seemed to come naturally to her and she looked exactly as she always looked in the morning, tired by all the corporate bullshit.
CEO of Targaryen Corporation. One of the most influential women in Kingâs Landing. The most formidable person he had ever known.
His mother.
The word hit him somewhere unsteady. Something twisted painfully in his chest, relief so acute it nearly hurt, threaded through with the dreaming grief of a boy who had watched her face in his mind as the water closed over him, who had spent his last conscious moment believing she was safe, needing her to be safe, and had been right without ever knowing he was right.
He crossed the room before he had consciously decided to.
He wrapped his arms around her.
Rhaenyra nearly dropped her coffee.
âJacaerys-â
She caught herself, setting the mug down with a firm clink on the marble countertop, and then without hesitation, because she had always been this, whatever else she was, she wrapped her arms around him and held him back.
âSweet boy.â Her voice was softer now. Her fingers found their way into his curls the way they had when he was very small. âWhatâs the matter?â
Jace swallowed against the tightness in his throat.
The dream came rushing back through him like a tide, the war, the weight of a crown his mother should have inherited without blood, the desperate, bone-deep need to protect her. The image of her face as he had walked away from Dragonstone, toward the dragon, toward the battle, toward the Gullet. The way he had looked back.
He shook his head against her shoulder.
âIâm fine.â
âYou are clearly not fine.â
Her hand moved in slow, soothing circles against his back. Despite himself, despite everything, Jace felt something in him begin to loosen.
He laughed. A weak, slightly broken sound, but genuine. âI justâŠâ His voice cracked on the nothing he was trying to say.
Rhaenyra pulled back slightly to look at him. Not the way she looked at her board of directors, or at rivals across conference tables, or at the city from thirty floors up. The other way. The private way, that only he and his brothers ever saw.
âWhat happened?â
He wiped his eyes quickly, hoping she wouldnât comment on it and took a breath.
âI had the most vivid dream.â
âWhat kind of dream?â
He hesitated. There was something strange about saying it. As though speaking about it aloud would make it either more real or less, and he wasnât sure which outcome he wanted.
âI was a prince,â he said.
Rhaenyra blinked. Whatever she had been expecting, it was not that.
âA prince?â
âYeah.â A small smile found its way onto his face, unwilling, almost involuntary. âYou were a queen.â
Something passed across her expression something soft, something she would never have allowed in a meeting room. âOh?â
âI died fighting a battle for you.â
Silence.
She looked at him for a long moment. Then she reached up and brushed a curl from his forehead with the gentleness that had no performance in it, something she reserved for the three of them and no one else.
âWell,â she said finally, her smile warming to something that was almost, almost teasing. âThat sounds exhausting.â
Jace stared. âThatâs all youâve got?â
âYou are standing in my kitchen wearing yesterdayâs hoodie and telling me about dragon wars, Jacaerys.â
He opened his mouth to protest then closed it. âFair.â
She squeezed his shoulder. âIt was only a dream.â
âYou know,â said a new voice from the doorway, âsome families start their mornings with good morning.â
Luke wandered in carrying a cereal box like a trophy, nineteen years old and permanently, professionally smug. He surveyed the scene with the cheerful heartlessness of a younger brother who had found ammunition and intended to use it.
âDid Jace finally lose his mind?â
Behind him, Joffrey, fourteen and grinning with the particular delight of someone who had been waiting for this squeezed past into the kitchen. âAbout time.â
Jace rolled his eyes so hard it was almost an athletic achievement. âThere he is.â
âDreaming about being a prince?â Luke plucked a bowl from the cupboard with casual ease. âThatâs because youâre already treated like one.â
The napkin Jace threw hit him square in the face. Luke threw it back. Rhaenyra sighed with the air of a woman who had calculated exactly how many more years of this lay before her and found the number disheartening.
âMy sons,â she said, picking up her coffee. âTruly intellectual giants.â
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Breakfast passed with the comfortable velocity of mornings that had been rehearsed through repetition until they ran themselves. Luke complaining about something, Joffrey eating cereal in quantities that defied his size, Rhaenyra reading from her tablet while simultaneously tracking all three of them with the peripheral attention of someone who had never once been entirely off duty.
Jace was reaching for his coffee when Rhaenyra glanced up.
âAre you still picking up your girlfriend?â
He froze.
The coffee cup remained halfway to his face, arrested in mid-air.
ââŠMy what?â
Lukeâs head snapped up. The expression that crossed his face was one of pure, unalloyed joy. He looked like he had been handed a gift.
Rhaenyra stared at her eldest with the patient, faintly incredulous expression of a woman who had not expected to be performing this particular reality check on a Tuesday morning.
âYour girlfriend.â
âOh.â Jace set the cup down carefully. âRight.â
You.
He had a girlfriend.
A beautiful girlfriend, and she was his girlfriend, and she had been his girlfriend for- he was briefly lost in the arithmetic of it, which was itself a kind of answer and she was wonderful, she was brilliant, she made him laugh, and somehow in the space between waking up with the sea in his lungs and standing in his motherâs kitchen in yesterdayâs hoodie, he had momentarily forgotten she existed.
And then, because his brain was apparently in full catastrophic mode this morning: betrothed.
Not yet. Not technically. But the word had been sitting in the back of his mind ever since he woke up from his dream.
Heat flooded his face with spectacular completeness.
Luke nearly choked on his cereal.
âOh my God.â
âShut up.â
âYou forgot your girlfriend.â
âOnly briefly.â
âOnlyâ Luke dissolved entirely, shoulders shaking. Across the table, Joffrey watched with the dignified appreciation of a connoisseur.
Rhaenyra shook her head slowly. âHonestly, Jace.â
âIt was a very intense dream,â he said, with as much dignity as one can muster while slowly turning the color of a sunset.
âYou forgot your girlfriend.â
âThe dream had dragons, Mum.â
She gave him the look. The specific look, the one that had been making him feel twelve years old since he was actually twelve years old. âSheâs a lovely girl. I wish youâd bring her home more often.â
Jace stood from the table with the decisive energy of a man drawing a conversation to a close.
âI was planning to.â
âWhen?â
âSoon.â
âToday?â
ââŠPossibly.â
âGood.â Rhaenyra returned to her tablet, the slight smile at the corner of her mouth saying everything she was too dignified to say aloud.
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The underground parking garage was cool and dim, smelling of concrete and oil and the expensive quiet of a building where people took the lift rather than the stairs. Jaceâs Porsche sat in its usual spot, Oak Green Metallic, catching the fluorescent light.
Vermax.
He had named the car Vermax which now sounded so ionic to him.
He stood beside the driverâs door for a moment, hand on the handle, the thought arriving fully formed and then sitting there in his chest with an odd weight. He had named his car Vermax years ago. He had thought it was because he liked the sound of it, or because it was the name of a character in a book heâd read, or because of some half-remembered reason that had never quite solidified into anything coherent.
He looked at the car. The deep green of it. The long, low lines of it, built for speed, built for the sky-
Built for the sky.
A strange feeling settled over him, the kind of not-quite-vertigo that comes with recognizing something without being able to name what it is youâre recognizing. Like seeing an old friend across a crowd before youâve registered their face.
He shook it off. Got in and drove.
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The street outside your house was quiet in the way that Tuesday mornings in Kingâs Landing occasionally managed to be, with the morning light that made ordinary things seem briefly considered. Jace pulled to the curb and sat for a moment with the engine idling, window down.
Then the front door opened and you stepped out.
He got out of the car.
The morning light caught your hair the way it always did, making you look almost angelic in Jaceâs eyes in that moment. You were still in the act of adjusting the strap of your bag when you spotted him, and the smile that crossed your face. Happy just to see him.
And for one strange, suspended moment, another image overlapped the morning like a transparency laid over a photograph. A figure standing on the cliffs of Dragonstone. The sea grey below and the wind pulling at dark fabric. Watching him leave. The expression on her face, your face, heartbroken and resolute and trying to be neither.
Waiting for him to come back.
The image dissolved as quickly as it had arrived. The morning reasserted itself. You were walking toward the car, your bag settled on your shoulder now, your smile still in place, and Jace found himself already stepping forward already moving toward with certainty that was less decision than gravity.
Before you could say a word, he took your hand and raised it, and pressed a kiss against your knuckles.
Deliberatea and unhurried. Like heâd done it a thousand times before, in other rooms, in other centuries.
âHow are you, my beloved?â
You stopped.
Looked at the hand.
Looked at him.
And then, because you were you, you laughed, the bright, surprised sound of someone caught genuinely off guard. âWhat has gotten into you this morning?â you questioned him.
Jace grinned, and the grin felt more like him than anything else had all morning. âI genuinely have no idea.â
âYouâre being sooo weird.â You studied him with the narrowed eyes trying to grasp his words and actions. âHow weird is this going to get?â
âI had the wildest dream.â
âOh?â Already your expression was shifting into the one you wore when you were preparing to be entertained.
He leaned forward and kissed you softly quick, warm and certain.
âIn it,â he said against your smile, âyou were my princess too.â
Your cheeks went pink with entirely gratifying speed.
âOh my God.â
âYou asked.â
âI asked what was wrong with you, not-â
âDetails.â
âJacaerys Velaryon, I am going to need you to be normal for the next five minutes-â
âI make no promises.â
He opened the passenger door for you, still grinning, and the morning felt lighter than it had when heâd left the penthouse.
The dream wasnât entirely terrible, he thought, settling behind the wheel. If nothing else, it had done this, sharpened his vision, made ordinary things brilliant again. Made you more vivid than youâd already been, which was saying something considerable.
He found himself smiling the entire drive to university.
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University should have felt normal.
Instead, Jace spent the entire morning convinced he was losing his mind by degrees as new details of his dream would hit him.
The dream lingered with a persistence that ordinary dreams did not have, the kind he usually forgot by the time he reached the kitchen. This one clung. Every corridor he walked reminded him of castle hallways, the echo of footsteps on stone, and the smell of torch smoke. Every crowded lecture hall conjured the geometry of noble courts; the subtle theatre of power performed through proximity. His Strategic Management lecture had an entire section on resource allocation that kept pulling his thoughts sideways, toward councils and war rooms and Dragonstone.
He stared at his notebook.
He had written, in the margin: Corlys was right about the Gullet.
He had no idea when.
âYouâre disassociating again.â
Jace blinked.
Across the seminar table sat Cregan Stark, regarding him with the expression he used on everything: tall, dark-haired, slow-blinking, fundamentally and constitutionally unimpressed by the world and all its events. He was from Winterfell like genuinely, actually from Winterfell, which Jace had always found slightly funny without ever quite being able to explain why.
Theyâd been best friends since secondary school, the friendship that had calcified into something so much more. They were like brothers in every sense.
Also, he looked almost exactly like the Cregan from the dream.
Same jaw. Same eyes. Same expression, the one that said I am listening to you and I find you exhausting.
Same, in other words, as he always looked well except his had slightly shorter hair.
âWhat?â Jace managed.
Cregan raised one eyebrow. âYouâve been staring at me for ten seconds with an expressionless face.â
âSorry.â He rubbed a hand over his face. âI had a strange dream. I feel like I keep repeating these words over and over again.â
âYou texted me at four in the morning.â
Jace went very still.
âI did?â
Cregan reached for his phone with the patience of a man who had long since resigned himself to the chaos of being Jace Velaryonâs closest friend. He scrolled briefly, then began reading aloud in the flat, informational tone of a news anchor delivering a weather report.
ââBrother, imagine if we were medieval nobles.ââ
âOh, God.â
ââYou would have loved Winterfell.ââ
âCregan-â
ââYou were Lord of the North.ââ He glanced up briefly. âIâm from Winterfell, Jace. I grew up in Winterfell. I know what Winterfell is.â
âPlease stop-â
âI miss Vermax.â
Cregan lowered the phone.
âI donât know what Vermax is, if its not talking about your car.â he said.
Jace buried his face in both hands and made a sound that was less a word than a comprehensive statement.
âYou were never meant to read those.â
âYou sent them to me.â
âI was apparently not fully conscious at four in the morning. I donât remember doing this at all.â
âThatâs concerning.â
âYes.â
âAre you okay?â
The question arrived without ceremony, Cregan always asked things he actually wanted to know, dropped into a conversation like a stone dropped into water, watching to see what it displaced. Jace hesitated for long enough that the silence became its own answer.
âYeah,â he said. Then, quietly: âNot entirely.â
Cregan nodded. He didnât push. This was something Jace had always valued about him, the Stark capacity to hold space without filling it.
âTell me later,â Cregan said, and turned back to his laptop.
Mostly, Jace thought. He was mostly okay.
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You found him outside the business building at noon, materializing from the flow of students and your smile arrived before you did.
Jace felt the thing in his chest that had been clenched since 7 AM ease, slowly, like a hand opening. There was something about you that operated on him this way, had always operated on him this way, since the beginning. A quality of presence that grounded him, that made the worldâs coordinates make sense again. Heâd never found quite the right words for it. Heâd stopped trying.
You slipped your hand into his without ceremony.
âBetter than this morning?â
âA little.â
âStill thinking about your prince dream?â
He laughed, the sound freer than he expected. âUnfortunately.â
âYou are such a nerd.â
âI was literally fighting a war.â
âYou were dreaming about fighting a war.â
âDetails.â
âJacaerys Velaryon, if this dream becomes your entire personality, I want it on the record that I tried to prevent it-â
âNoted and rejected.â
You rolled your eyes with magnificent feeling. âI make no promises about what I tell your mother.â
You had barely settled into your seats when a familiar voice arrived from approximately two tables away, belonging to someone who had apparently been watching for them.
âWell, if it isnât my favorite nephew.â
Aegon Targaryen dropped into the empty chair beside Jace with the comfortable confidence of a man who owned, and this was literally true, approximately half the building they were sitting in. Twenty-six, blond, expensive, reliably catastrophic. His jacket probably cost more than Jaceâs car maintenance for the year, and he wore it with the carelessness never once considering the cost of anything.
He was nothing like the monster from the dream. The dream-Aegon had been something Jace couldnât fully bring himself to examine yet. Jealous and bitter and capable of terrible things. This Aegon was mostly known for throwing parties that became local legend and mysteriously managing to avoid all professional consequences for anything he did, ever. Jacaerys supposed that has something to do with his mother and his uncle Aemond keeping these things contained.
âTo what do we owe the honor?â Jace asked.
Aegonâs attention had already moved to you.
âAnd how are you?â
âGood,â you said politely.
âStill putting up with him?â
You smiled. âBarely.â
âExcellent answer.â
Jace groaned. Aegon looked absolutely delighted.
âYouâre blushing,â Aegon observed, with the tone of someone reporting a natural phenomenon.
âIâm not.â
âYou absolutely are.â
You leaned over the table, and Jace recognized the look on your face immediately. The collaborative look. The look that meant you had identified an ally.
âHe was calling me his beloved this morning.â
Aegonâs chair nearly lost him. He grabbed the table.
âNo.â
âYes.â
âIn what context?â
âHe kissed my hand. In the street. Before nine in the morning.â
Aegon looked at Jace the way someone looks at an archaeological discovery with facination, slightly appalled, deeply pleased. âThis is the greatest thing that has ever happened.â
Jace contemplated his options. Leaving. Changing his name and moving to Braavos. Committing entirely to the persona of someone who had never been caught calling his girlfriend my beloved at eight forty-five on a Tuesday.
None of these were practical.
He reached for his coffee and said nothing, which Aegon correctly interpreted as total defeat.
You and Jace remained at your table, and the laughter faded naturally, the way good laughter does, not dying but simply becoming something quieter.
He was staring into his coffee again.
You watched him for a moment.
âYou never told me the whole dream, since it has you in a weird mindset today.â you said quietly.
His fingers tightened almost imperceptibly around the cup. He was aware of you looking at him, with your full attention, which had always been more like listening than looking, patient and genuine and without agenda.
âTo put it simply, there was a war,â he said.
You didnât ask him to explain. You waited.
âA civil war.â He looked up briefly, then back at the table. âA war over who would rule over Westeros. My mother was supposed to inherit as was the rightful heir to the throne but there were those who didnât accept it. Didnât accept her.â
âAnd you fought for her.â
âOf course.â
The images came without invitation, Dragonstoneâs grey halls, the council table, the maps spreading the whole kingdom out before them like a wound. The feeling of duty that had lived in his chest since childhood, not as a burden but as a definition. This is who you are. This is what you do.
You reached across the table and took his hand.
He continued.
âI flew a dragon. I know this sounds no so scary but-â Despite everything, he heard the ghost of wonder in his own voice. âVermax. He was- he was mine. Since I was a boy. He knew me.â The wonder curdled, softened into something heavier. âHe died with me.â
Your thumb moved in a slow arc across his knuckles.
âThe last thing I remember,â he said quietly, âwas dying. Floating in the sea, after everything.â He paused.
âIt was strange. It wasnât- it wasnât the way I would have imagined. It wasnât terrifying.â
âWhat was it?â
He thought about it honestly.
âIt was sad,â he said. âBut calm.â
You were quiet for a moment. Then you reached up, and the gesture was so unexpected that he went still, your hand cupping his cheek, steady and warm, thumb tracing a line beneath his eye.
He leaned into it without thinking.
âIâm glad it was only a dream,â you said softly trying to calm his anxieties that he didnât want to confess out loud.
âIâm glad youâre here.â
The tightness in his chest released, not all at once but in stages, like a knot worked loose over time. He turned his head slightly, pressing his lips briefly to your palm, and you let him, and neither of you made anything of it.
Sheâs right, he thought. Whatever that was. Whatever it meant.
He was here. Alive. With his family, with his best friend, with his girl.
Maybe that was enough. Maybe that was, actually, everything.
The afternoon passed.
Classes ended. The university slowly emptied like it did every day at dusk, students and professors releasing themselves back into the city like a pressure valve opening. The parking lot filled briefly with the usual chaos and then thinned.
âMy mother wants you over more often,â Jace mentioned, as they walked toward the Porsche.
âApparently she likes you.â
You brightened immediately. âReally?â
âShe said so unprompted. First thing this morning.â
âGood.â You smiled with satisfaction. âIâm charming.â
Jace looked at you sideways. âYou are deeply smug about this.â
âIâm charming,â you repeated, pleasantly.
He laughed. âCome over tonight?â
You looked at him, with that look you had, the one heâd never found a word for, the one that made him feel simultaneously seen and unsteady in the best possible way. Made him feel a bit giddy.
âIâd love to,â you said.
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The penthouse was unusually quiet when they arrived.
Rhaenyra was visible through the glass of her home office, phone tucked between her ear and shoulder, reading from a document with the focused intensity and it was clear that the woman needed a break from everything. Luke had evaporated somewhere. Joffrey was reportedly studying, a claim no one in the household had ever been successfully able to verify.
You and Jace settled at the dining table with laptops and scattered notes and the collective fiction of productivity.
For forty minutes, it was remarkably functional.
Jace had his economics module open. You were working through something, he didnât ask, didnât need to and the sound of quiet typing and the occasional turn of a page created a kind of companionable silence that he had always thought of as the specific luxury of being comfortable with someone. presence. You could simply be in it.
He was reading about capital allocation.
âJace.â
He looked up.
âYouâre getting lost in your mind again.â
âIâm not what are you talking about?â he said automatically. Then, because honesty was something heâd apparently committed to today: âI was thinking about- uhhh. Economics?â
âThat is not better.â
âYou look pretty,â he said simply.
The silence that followed had a distinct texture.
You looked at him for a long moment. Then you slowly, deliberately, closed your laptop.
âNo,â you said.
âWhat?â
âYou donât get to say things like that when Iâm trying to study.â
âI was simply making an observation.â
âYou are impossible.â
He was very pleased with himself. He did not bother hiding it.
An hour later, the economics module had not progressed. The textbooks had been consolidated into a single pile and pushed to the far end of the table, a gesture that meant these exist and will eventually be addressed, which was as much as either of you were willing to commit to. A film had been agreed upon via negotiation.
Blankets appeared.
The overhead lights went off.
And somehow, as these things always somehow managed, you ended up curled against his chest on the enormous sectional, his arm around your waist, the film playing distantly while neither of you particularly watched it. Your breathing slowed first. His heartbeat was steady and familiar beneath your ear.
The city moved quietly outside the windows.
You didnât remember falling asleep.
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The prince stood before you.
The wind came off the sea like a cold hand, whipping through his dark, curling hair, pressing his black riding coat against his frame. Behind him, Dragonstone rose in its glory against a steel-grey sky, all sharp towers and dark stone, magnificent and terrible, built by people who had never believed in half measures. The sea crashed against the rocks far below. Dark clouds gathered on the horizon with the patient, deliberate advance of something inevitable.
âNo.â
Your voice came out broken.
âNo, please.â
He looked at you the way he always looked at you as if you were the clearest thing in a world that had lately become very unclear, like looking at you was the one thing he could do without effort in a life that had demanded extraordinary effort from him since the moment he was old enough to understand what he was.
âI have to go.â
âYou donât,â you said, even though you knew it wasnât true. Even though somewhere beneath the desperate present tense of the argument, the truer, older part of you already knew exactly what was coming. Already knew the shape of this farewell.
His hands found yours.
They were warm. Strong and real, so real that makes their loss so much more brutal than the loss of things you never fully believed in.
âYou can stay,â you said. Your voice was steadier than you felt. âYou can let someone else-â
âI cannot.â His voice was gentle but stern. He was stubborn and so if he made peace with this decisions, he wouldnât have it any other way.
Tears burned behind your eyes. The fear inside you was almost unbearable and burning, it was twisted and layered, because you knew. You already knew. This was not a premonition, not a vague presentiment. It was knowledge, carried somewhere beneath language, beneath memory, in whatever part of you had been this person before.
You knew what awaited him at the Gullet.
Fire.
Water.
âYou promised.â The words escaped before you could decide to say them.
His expression shifted. Something moved across it, grief, tenderness, the ache of a man who loves something too well to pretend it isnât breaking.
âAnd I will keep that promise but this is a battle I must fight for both myself and my mother.â
He stepped closer, and you let him, and he pressed a kiss to your forehead so gently it barely qualified as a touch at all.
Then he rested his brow against yours.
His eyes never left yours.
âIf I do not return- which I intend to,â
The world seemed to hold its breath.
âI will find you.â
A tear escaped. Traced the line of your cheek. He watched it with eyes that were very dark and very steady.
âIn every lifetime if not this one. I promise.â
The words landed somewhere deep in you, somewhere wordless, somewhere older than the language you used to think with. A promise that had the weight of truth rather than intention.
You memorized his face. The curls. The strong jaw. The eyes, brown and earnest and alive, so alive.
He smiled.
Then he stepped away.
He turned toward the waiting dragon.
Toward the dark water below.
Toward a destiny that was also a death.
And all you could do was watch him leave.
ââ㻠⊠ă»ââ
You woke with a gasp that tore itself from somewhere past your chest.
For several seconds, you could not find the room. Could not find yourself in it. There was only the dream...the cliffs, the wind, his forehead against yours, the sound of his footsteps retreating and the grief of it, which was specific and devastating and nothing at all like the vague emotional residue of ordinary sleep.
Tears burned behind your eyes. Your heart was pounding.
You pushed yourself upright. A blanket tangled around your legs. The room was dim, the film long since ended, the television showing a menu screen. Outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, Kingâs Landing glittered in the full dark of night, the cityâs lights reflected upward in a warm wash against the low clouds. Jace must have moved you to his room when you fell asleep.
The bedroom door opened.
Jace stepped in carrying two mugs, steam rising from both. He had apparently, at some point during your sleep, been productive.
The moment he saw your face, he froze.
âHey.â
The concern in his voice was immediate, the shift from normal to careful happening in the space of a single syllable.
âWhatâs wrong?â
You didnât answer. The words were somewhere on the way, but in the meantime your body had already decided what it needed, and what it needed was to close the distance between you and him as quickly as possible.
You stood.
Crossed the room.
The mugs barely survived. He caught them against the edge of the side table with an impressive reflex, setting them down quickly before his arms came around your waist, and you buried your face against the side of his neck, and breathed him in.
âSweetheart?â Low and careful. His chin came to rest on top of your head.
You stayed there for a moment just letting the reality of him replace the dream of him. The warmth of him. The solidness.
Then you pulled back. Not far. Your forehead came to rest against his, which put you close enough to feel his breath and see the small crease of worry between his brows.
âI had a dream,â you said. It seems it was your turn to utter those words.
Something moved across his face. He went very still in the way that meant he was paying every variety of attention he had.
âWhat kind of dream?â
âI saw a prince.â
His breath caught. You felt it.
âI saw him leaving for a battle. He was going to fight-â
Your voice faltered, then steadied. âHe knew he might not come back. And he said-â You stopped.
Jaceâs arms tightened around you, almost involuntarily.
âHe said he would find me,â you continued. âThat if he didnât return-â Your eyes met his, and something in your chest recognized something in his. âHe would find me in every lifetime.â
Silence.
Complete, absolute silence.
Jace stared at you.
Because those were the exact words. Not a version of them, not a paraphrase but the exact promise, the exact phrasing, the exact scene, the stone of Dragonstone under grey skies and wind coming off the sea. He had lived it from one side and you had lived it from the other, and here you both were, in a penthouse above a city that did not have dragons, with the memory of them living in your bones.
His throat moved.
You smiled softly with tears still bright at the corners of your eyes. Your hand lifted, your fingers moving gently through his curls, the same gesture that felt simultaneously new and ancient.
âI donât know what any of that means,â you said.
âNeither do I.â
âBut if it was real-â
His forehead pressed more firmly against yours.
âYou kept your promise,â you whispered.
He felt his throat close.
And for the first time since he had woken to the sound of an alarm clock and a bedroom that wasnât the sea, he stopped wondering whether the dream had been real. He stopped wondering whether he was grieving something imagined or something true. He stopped needing to know.
Because you knew.
You had been there.
You rose onto your toes.
Your lips met his.
It was slow and gentle. He kissed you back like someone returning to something, like a navigator finding a landmark in familiar water.
Like he had been waiting centuries and perhaps his soul had waited for this moment. The moment to return to her.
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The knock was soft.
They both startled apart with the excellent reflexes of guilty consciences, then immediately demonstrated the dignity of two people pretending they hadnât.
Jace cleared his throat. Rested his forehead against yours for one final second. His breath was unsteady in the best way.
Another knock.
âJacaerys?â
Rhaenyraâs voice, measured, carrying through the door with the easy authority of a woman who managed board rooms and board members and the shenanigans of three sons as a single uninterrupted professional skill.
âDinner is ready.â They heard the muffled voice of his mother.
Jace answered at a volume calibrated for normalcy âWeâll be there in a minute!â
A pause that had weight.
âFive minutes,â his motherâs voice returned, drier than a desert, and entirely aware of everything and perhaps making a wrong assumption of you two being alone in his room.
You laughed, pressing your face briefly against his shoulder to muffle it. He was already smiling.
âYour mother doesnât trust you.â
âShe absolutely does not.â
âAnd honestly?â You poked his chest. âI donât blame her.â
âYou wound me.â
âGood.â You pulled your hand back, but he caught it, quick and easy, and pressed a kiss to your knuckles again. The same gesture as that morning. The echo of it traveled through both of you clearly.
Your cheeks went pink.
He watched it happen with a feeling in his chest that was too large and too simple to require any examination at all.
There she is, he thought. My girl.
My princess.
He took your hand properly, fingers laced and led you toward the dining room.
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They heard the argument before they reached the dinner table.
Luke and Joffrey, seated across from each other in the arrangement that the family had collectively accepted as a flaw, were conducting a debate with the commitment of two people who had come to win.
âNo, because youâre objectively wrong-â
âIâm objectively right-â
âYou donât even know what objectively means.â
âI literally do.â
âYou used it wrong.â
Joffrey groaned with his whole body. âI hate this family.â
âYou are this family,â Luke pointed out.
Joffrey considered this. âExactly.â
Rhaenyra, at the head of the table, was pinching the bridge of her nose with annoyance. This was her normal and yet it was tiring.
The moment she saw you, her face entirely changed.
âThere she is.â
You smiled. âHi.â
She stood and pulled you into a hug with a warmth that was, Jace thought privately, rather more enthusiastic than his own homecoming greeting most mornings. âI was beginning to think my son had invented you.â
âMum.â
âWhat? He never brings you over.â
âThatâs his fault,â you said.
âTraitor,â Jace said.
âYouâre literally my boyfriend.â
âExactly.â
You smiled sweetly. âIâm allowed.â
Rhaenyra looked delighted in the specific way she allowed herself to look delighted when she was genuinely pleased, a rarity outside this apartment. Luke immediately leaned toward you.
âSee? This is why sheâs my favorite.â
âIâm sitting right here.â
âUnfortunately.â
Jace threw a bread roll at him.
Luke threw one back.
The war began immediately, and lasted approximately five seconds before Rhaenyraâs single sharp look ended it. She had a look for this. It was very effective.
âSometimes I wonder,â she said, settling back into her chair and accepting a bread roll from the basket with the serenity of someone who had already mentally exited the building, âif I raised wolves.â
âThatâs insulting,â Joffrey said.
Everyone looked at him.
The fourteen-year-old shrugged with the composure of someone who had thought this through. âWolves are smarter.â
The silence held for two seconds before Lukeâs expression cracked. Jace looked at the ceiling. Rhaenyraâs attempt at severity collapsed at its foundations.
You sat beside Jace with your hand warm against his under the table, and you were already laughing, and the sound of it filled the room the way laughter does when a room is already full of people who are glad to be there.
ââ㻠⊠ă»ââ
Dinner found its rhythm.
Conversation moved in the easy, overlapping way it does with people who have logged enough hours together that they no longer need to manage it consciously. Luke complained about a group project with the vivid resentment of having decided the problem was everyone else.
Joffrey explained something about a game or a film or a historical period but the audience could not quite keep up, but that seemed to be part of the experience. Rhaenyra complained, with great economy, about company politics, and then told a story about a colleague that had everyone at the table paying full attention (It was Aemond who everytone is afraid of in their company).
You listened to all of it.
Jace, mostly, watched.
He had not expected this. Had woken this morning in the sea, or the memory of it. Had spent the drive to university with the dream still active in his body, had sat through lectures half-present, had carried the weight of Vermaxâs last look in his chest all day like a stone.
And now.
He watched his mother smile at something you said. He watched Luke do the thing he did when he was actually amused, which was different from when he is pretending. Watched Joffrey explain something to you directly, having apparently determined that you were worth the effort, and watched your face do the thing it did when you were genuinely interested in something, slightly forward, slightly bright, entirely present.
You fit here. Not as a guest, not as someone being accommodated. As someone who belonged.
He thought of the dream again.
Remembered standing at the dragonpit of Dragonstone with his armor on and the dragon saddled and the sea grey behind him, and looking back at everything he was leaving, his mother, his brothers, you, the stone halls and the cold salt wind and the ordinary miracle of a morning that didnât require a kingâs son to die for it.
He had wondered, in those last seconds at Dragonstone, if he would ever see any of them again.
He had his answer now.
The realization settled in his chest quietly, without drama. Not a revelation, something more like a confirmation. A peace he hadnât known he was looking for, finding him here, at a dinner table with a bread roll dent in the tablecloth and Joffrey currently holding forth on something no one else understood.
No war. No dragons. No succession. No battles. Just family. Just love.
Just this.
Halfway through dessert, Joffreyâs phone lit up.
âOh!â He reached for it with the speed of receiving news theyâd been waiting for. âDadâs calling.â
Jace felt himself smile before the screen even showed Laenorâs face.
It appeared a moment later, that face, familiar and warm and slightly tanned by whatever sun was currently shining on whatever harbor on whatever coast he was sailing toward. Behind him, a bright blue sky suggested somewhere in Essos, probably. The man was perpetually in motion, perpetually somewhere else and yet found time for them. He was not their real father, but he might as well have been. After Harwin passed away, Rhaenyra had remarried Laenor as more of a deal since Laenor wasnât interested in anything but he cared for Rhaenyra platonically and it seemed to have worked out great and thatâs all that mattered.
âThere are my favorite children.â
Luke snorted. âWeâre your only children.â
âAnd yet somehow still my favorites.â Laenorâs gaze found you across the table, and his face smiled âThere she is.â
You laughed. âHello.â
âGood. Finally, someone sensible has arrived.â
âHey!â Three voices, simultaneous.
Laenor continued as though he hadnât heard. âHow are you, darling?â
âIâm well, thank you.â
Jace groaned. âWhy does everyone in my family like her more than me?â
âBecause,â Laenor said, and the timing was beautiful, âshe has manners.â
The table erupted. Even Rhaenyra, which was a significant achievement.
Laenor spent twenty minutes on the call, chatting about his route, trading insults with. He heard both Luke and Jofferyâs rambling. He asked Rhaenyra about the board meeting sheâd complained about, and listened to her answer. He asked you about your studies, and remembered something youâd mentioned three calls ago, and asked a follow-up question about it.
The man had walked into their lives years ago and simply decided, without announcement or conditions, that these were his sons. No performance of it. No documentation. Just- love, extended to fill the available space.
Dream Laenor had disappeared. The thought arrived gently, without bitterness. The dream-Laenor, who had been present mostly in his absence, who Jace had barely known, who had been lost before Jace could understand what losing someone meant. This version was here. This version showed up.
And Jace was, quietly and completely, grateful for that.
The call ended. The dessert finished. The evening moved toward its natural conclusion with the comfortable inevitability of all good evenings. Luke vanished in the direction of his room. Joffrey disappeared with a quantity of snacks that could feed a whole army. Rhaenyra retreated to finish what sheâd started, she always had something she was finishing, this was simply who she was and the penthouse settled into quiet
Which left you and Jace, alone on the balcony.
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Kingâs Landing stretched below them without end.
The city was all light from up here, not the individual lights, not streets and windows and the moving points of cars, but the collective glow of it, the warmth of a few million people living their lives in proximity, translated upward into something that looked, from this height, almost like its own kind of fire.
A cool breeze moved through the dark, carrying the cityâs particular nighttime mixture of warm pavement and distant food and the faint, improbable ghost of something floral from a rooftop garden somewhere below. It found its way into Jaceâs curls and did what it wanted with them.
You stood beside him. Close enough that your shoulders touched.
Neither of you spoke. Neither of you needed to. The city was enough, for a while.
Then you broke the silence the way you often did when a thought entered your head.
âDo you think it was real?â
He didnât ask what you meant.
The dreams. The prince and the princess. The battle. The promise made at the edge of the world on the morning of an ending. The specific weight of standing on Dragonstone and knowing.
âI donât know,â he said.
You slipped your hand into his. Your fingers were cool from the night air. He closed his hand around yours.
âBut it felt real,â you said.
âIt did.â
Another silence, this one richer. Weighted, but not heavily, weighted the way a good book is heavy, in a way you want.
âIf it was realâŠâ
Jace looked toward you. The cityâs light caught you from below, softening the angles, turning you luminous in the warm way of a portrait painted with care. The same thing heâd thought this morning returned, effortlessly, as though it had simply been waiting for the right lighting.
Radiant.
The same as the princess from the dream. The same, and also entirely herself.
âIf it was real,â you continued, a smile finding the corner of your mouth, âI think sheâd be happy.â
âWho?â
âThe princess.â
Your fingers squeezed his.
âBecause she got her prince back.â
Something moved in his chest and he felt a giddy sensation.
âAnd he got his princess,â he said quietly.
The smile you gave him in return was the specific, undone kind that he privately thought was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. He doubted this would change.
âYou know,â he said, after a moment, âIâve spent all day thinking about the battle.â
âThe Gullet?â
âYeah.â He looked down at the city. âThe part where I died.â
You were quiet beside him.
âAnd?â you said, finally.
He looked back through the floor-to-ceiling windows of the penthouse.
His mother, visible in her office, signing something. The small movement of her hand showing her actions.
Luke in the hallway beyond, typing away at his phone aggressively with determinations of someone looking to win an argument even if he may be wrong.
Joffrey somewhere in his room planning a prank on his mother.
And all of it, all of this life, this ordinary, extraordinary life, glowing warm behind glass thirty floors above a city that had never known a dragon. His family.
âI think that prince wouldâve liked this,â he said.
You followed his gaze.
You understood immediately. He could see it in the way your face softened, not with sadness but with tenderness that recognizes grief and holds it carefully.
A life without war. Without the weight of a crown.
Without sacrifice, the kind that swaps one beloved thing for another in an endless, devastating ledger.
Just family.
Just love.
Just peace.
You rested your head on his shoulder.
He turned his head and pressed a kiss to your hair, slow and quiet.
Neither of you saw it.
But just for a moment, a breath, almost a blink, the glass of the balcony door held a reflection that was not quite yours.
Two figures. Side by side. Dressed in black and red, the colours of a house that had once held the world.
Standing exactly as you were standing. Looking out at exactly what you were looking at.
Smiling.
At each other, and at this, and at everything that had managed, against all odds, to survive.
Then the image dissolved.
The glass held only the room behind it, warm and lit and full of the sound of Luke losing the argument.
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Aerion Targaryen can't deal with someone insulting his wife, even if he and her are estranged.
The door slammed open so hard it struck the wall.
The lady's maids all jumped, clutching onto clean fabrics and clay jugs at the harsh footsteps sounding down the hall.
Aerion shoved the draping sheer curtains at the entrance out of his way, and his violet stare immediately honed in on your figure in the large stone bath centred in the room.
Your back was pressed against the tiles as you leant your head against the rim, and your hair was pulled back as a young girl raked oils through the ends. You simply glanced to the side, brow raised until you realised who it was. You sat up a little as you took in the sight of your husband.
Men weren't allowed in a lady's bathing chamber, regardless of who he was. But there Aerion stood - his eyes burning and chest heaving steadily.
It had been almost a year since you and the Targaryen Prince were wed. Was it a smooth transition into marriage for you?
No.
Your struggles were evident seeming as Aerion believed he was the Gods gift on earth. He also believed he was a true dragon - which was something you often ignored.
He was brash and proud and cruel, and he believed you to be too judgemental, quiet and suspicious. Your character often drew out an odd, messy mix of intrigue and anger from him.
Despite all of this, there was some kind of thin, layered respect that settled between the two of you like mist. You knew when to leave each other be in silence, or when to just listen to the other bitch and yell about something minuscule. You offered your loyalty and support, and Aerion offered gifts and protection.
But a strangeness still remained. One that you had accepted long ago.
Steam drifted through the bath chamber. The lady's maids didn't know where to look, what to do - they just knew not to draw his attention, and suddenly, the tiled floors were fascinating.
You blinked back at him. "What is it?"
"What is it?" he repeated incredulously.
He crossed the room in three strides. The lady's maid tending to your hair took a frightful step away.
"Tell me the name of the fool."
Now you leant forward, draping your arms against the side of the bath closest to him. "Whose name?" You frowned.
"The man who insulted you." He spat, raising his finger, "And don't you dare lie to me."
That got your attention.
Aerion's jaw clenched, making his angular features seem even sharper. His eyes even darker.
Someone had already paid for bringing him the tale, and the details had only worsened his temper. A knight. Some insignificant creature. A man who had apparently thought himself bold enough to speak ill of a Prince's wife before witnesses.
"He called you insignificant."
You sighed, glancing down at the dried petals in the water. You gently pushed them around with your finger. "Aerion, I had completely forgotten about such rumours-"
"He mocked you."
"I've endured worse." You shrugged.
Aerion neared closer. "That is not the point," he warned, voice cracking a little like thunder.
The faint dripping from the water on your arms was the only thing tempering the heady tension suffocating the chamber.
Aerion began to pace slowly before you, visibly struggling to contain himself. "To speak of my wife that way. In public too, y/n." His stare cut to you again.
And he saw your lips twitch.
So you were angry too.
Aerion nodded as if agreeing with a notion you hadn't even voiced. "He spoke as if you were beneath him."
You sighed, "I know why-"
"Really?" He asked, voice breathy and low. "Why?"
The way he stared at you, it was almost as though you had said the awful thing that had him so high strung. "This knight. He wanted me to..., he wanted me a very long time ago."
Wanted. The word rung in his head. Wanted you to what?
"He wanted you as a wench?" He asked.
You tilted your head, expression deadpanning as you stared up at him. Yes, of course, he'd forgotten how you hated the word.
"How long ago?" Aerion wouldn't let this go now.
He wanted you. He believed he could want you.
You.
"When?" You thinned your lips and cast your glance up in thought. "After it was said I would marry you." You replied.
Aerion's face twisted with rage as he shook his head.
You watched him disappear into his violent thoughts for a moment. "What do you intend to do, Aerion?"
And then he smiled, and it was far more alarming than the shouting.
"What do you think becomes of men who forget their place?" He whispered.
You both watched each other for a long time. Something electric hummed beneath the silence and the glances.
You finally broke the trance. "I don't wish to cause scandal because of something a nothing said about me." You shook your head. Punishment would suffice, but Aerion didn't understand the difference between punishment and torture.
"I don't care for what you wish right now." And with that, he stormed out of the chamber, leaving his braising intensity behind.
The lady maids returned to the duties, slowly but surely, as if worried he would suddenly return again.
"You've become important to him." You looked to one of the women as she dusted more dried petals into the water you soaked in. She eyed your frown with her own arched-brow look. "Not many husbands are inclined in such a way, dear. Especially future Kings."
You glanced back to the sheer curtains that still swayed from when he moved them.
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Jacaerys flipped you over onto your back, positioning himself between your spread thighs. He gripped your hips tightly, his fingers sinking into the flesh of your ass as he notched the thick head of his cock against your dripping entrance.
With a low, animalistic growl, he thrust forward, sinking into your tight heat in one hard, deep stroke. He threw his head back, groaning at the exquisite sensation of your walls gripping him like a vice.
âFuuuuck... you're so fucking tight,â he grunted, his hips already starting to move, to thrust into you with a desperate, needy rhythm. âSo fucking perfect...â
He leaned down to capture your mouth in a sloppy, hungry kiss, his tongue delving deep to taste you as he fucked you hard and fast. He could feel his balls slapping against your ass with each powerful thrust, the obscene sound of skin against skin filling the room.
He reached down to thumb at your clit, rubbing the sensitive nub in tight, rough circles. He could feel you clenching around him, your body responding to his touch, to his cock splitting you open.
âCome on, baby... scream for me,â he growled against your lips, his hips never faltering in their desperate rhythm. âLet me hear how good it feels to have my cock buried inside this sweet cunt.
You went cross-eyed as Jacaerys's massive cock speared into you, your mind short-circuiting from the intensity. "Y-yesss!!" You wailed, back arching off the bed as you focused solely on the delicious sensation of his cock stretching your walls.
With each brutal, deep thrust, a whorish moan tore from your throat. "Ah, ah, ah!!" Your eyes rolled back in your head, fluttering as you felt him pounding nearly against your cervix.
"F-fuuuck, you're s-splitting me in half!" You gasped out, your nails raking down his back. Pleasure like youâd never known consumed you, your pussy clenching greedily around his plundering cock. The obscene squelch of him fucking into your soaked cunt filled the room. Plap, plap, plapâŠ
Jacaerys's eyes locked onto the obscene sight of his thick cock disappearing into your dripping cunt with each brutal thrust, watching as he stretched you wide around his girth. He let out a desperate, whiny moan at the erotic image, feeling his balls draw up tight at the base of his shaft.
âYes, fuck... look at how well you take my cock,â he gasped out, one hand snaking down to grip the back of your thigh, hiking your leg up higher around his waist as he leaned in closer. âYour hungry little pussy is swallowing me whole, like it was made just for me...â
He leaned down and spat crudely onto your clit, watching as the saliva mixed with your arousal, making the apex of your sex even slicker, even messier as he fucked into you hard and fast. The wet, sloppy sounds of his hips slapping against yours filled the room, punctuated by his whiny moans and the creaking of the bed frame.
âYou feel so fucking good, baby... so perfect and tight... I can't get enough... can't stop... fuck... I'm going to fill this greedy cunt with my cum... pump you full... flood this pussy until it's dripping out of you... Fuuuck!â
He buried his face in the crook of your neck, his teeth sinking into your shoulder as he fucked into you like a wild dog. Each snap of his hips pushed you further up the bed, your tits bouncing with each impact.
He reached down to squeeze your clit hard, pinching the sensitive nub between his fingers as he rutted into you like a man possessed. Come for me,â he demanded, his voice a desperate snarl against your skin. âPlease come all over meâŠâ
He could feel his climax building fast, his shaft pulsing and throbbing deep inside your clutching heat. With a roar, he slammed into you one last time, burying himself to the hilt as thick ropes of his hot seed erupt from his cock, painting your insides white.
Jacaerys threw his head back, his muscular body convulsing above you as he emptied his heavy, aching balls deep inside your spasming cunt. Jet after jet of his potent, virile cum pumped into you, your belly starts to swell slightly with the sheer volume of his release.
"Fuuuuck, yes... take it all, my little princess," he moaned raggedly, grinding his spurting cock against your cervix as he filled you to the brim with his essence. "I want to see it leaking out of this tight cunt when I pull out..."
He collapsed on top of you, hips still twitching and jerking slightly as the last weak spurts of his orgasm dribbled into your thoroughly used, messy pussy. He peppered your face and neck with soft kisses, still panting harshly from the intensity of his climax.
"Such a good girl..." he murmured, nuzzling under your jaw. "My good girl... all full of my cum now..."
His hand slid down to scoop some of the excess seed dripping from your stretched hole, pushing it back inside you possessively. "Mmmm... I could get used to this... to ruining this perfect pussy every single day until it's constantly dripping with my seed..."
you grabbed jacaerys's hand with that incredible strength that comes with fear. your lashes trembled, clumped together from the tears you could not hold back. you were only a little lady, locked in a cage of stone walls.
"this is madness."
you whispered hoarsely, your voice weak, your legs barely holding you up. you tried to be brave for him, but your eyes were so wide and painfully open, crowned with silver.
"this is what i must do, my lady."
jace squeezed your hand guiltily, the hand that wrapped around his wrist like a deadly serpent.
"stay with me."
you pushed the words from your lips like the heaviest burden. your voice was timid, fragile. you were no prophetess, but your premonitions pricked you like needles, making your heart beat somewhere in your ears.
"i will return, my lady, i promise."
prince jacaerys intercepted your hand, pressing it to his heart. it was beating wildly, his face pale as a marble mask that promised to crumble into fragile hundreds of shards. marble, stone that could withstand the blows of clashing swords, was nothing compared to what loomed over you.
"jaceâŠ"
you could not control yourself, the words tangled into disgusting knots.
"shh, i am here, always here with you, my lady." the prince carefully embraced you, his fingers spreading across your waist differently than before. without his usual gentlemanly restraint. now it was a reliable shield. the feeling that a man can give to his woman. "be strong for me, alright?"
he stroked your back in an attempt to calm you, his poor lady, trembling like a little bird. in his brown eyes with golden sparks, an anxious flame flickered, a piercing too determined gleam.
jace's lips warmed your forehead. it lasted longer than was proper. his hands held you tighter, but still with lingering sweetness.
"i will be strong, i swear, butâŠ"
you could not continue. tears rose in your throat. one salty droplet quickly rolled down your cheek, falling and hitting his neck.
"it's alright, my lady. this will end, i promise. you will be alright."
jacaerys spoke with pauses, not allowing himself to show weakness to you, his wonderful lady, even now when all emotions were stretched to the limit.
"it's not about me... will you... will you be alright?"
you grabbed the collar of his doublet, your fingers aching from the pressure with which you clung to the unfortunate fabric.
"beloved⊠iâŠ"
his eyelids trembled like the delicate wings of a butterfly. salty moisture gathered in the corners of his eyes, but he did not let it spill. jacaerys did not finish the sentence. he pressed his cool, pale lips to yours. it was a moment, only a moment, but one that made the world stop, one that made the mad world lose all meaning. the bitterness of the kiss burned his palate, and a bright, wistful warmth spread in his stomach.
"i will be here."
he repeated hoarsely, hiding his face in the curve of your neck. his shoulders trembled almost imperceptibly, as if he were being lightly shaken by the wind. you did not know what his face looked like now, but you guessed that pain consumed not only you, making everything inside you go numb.
when you parted forever, your dress was damp from your valiant prince's tears. that was all he left behind. the sweetness of the first kiss and the tears of impending mourning.
this was inspired after i read a kinktober fic by @wholoveseggs with this same prompt⊠which is a trope i love so much
âgods above.â your newly husband, jacaerys velaryon, had groaned, one palm pressed against the space where your neck met your shoulder, fingers dancing along your spine with your back faced to him. âis this corset supposed to be a labyrinth of sorts?â
his palm moved down the expanse of your back, nimble fingers tangling in the laces of your corset. tonight had been your wedding, and after years of betrothal and courting, years of pining and longing, jace finally had what he wanted in the palm of his hands.
the entire night, jace had been staring at you longingly, imaging when he was finally able to rid you of the albeit gorgeous dress you wore so he could ravish your skin. heâd wanted this for as long as he could remember, and now that it was finally happening, his eagerness ran hot and his patience ran thin.
a laugh bubbled from your lips, hands clasped in front of you in excitement and nervousness. âthe maids made sure it was superbly confined to my frame.â your response had come out in a whisper, leaving jace to forget his frustration for a second to coo at your breathless voice. âiâm sorry, my love.â
âoh sweet girl,â jace breathed, the fingers entwined in your laces tugging harshly so your back pressed firmly against his front. you gasped, a blush creeping along your cheeks as jaceâs nose bumped against your jaw. âdonât apologize. if you would only give me a momentâŠâ
with a harsh downwards motion, jace yanked at the laces, the sound of fraying and pulled apart silk permeating through your ears as your beloved husband ripped the back of your corset wide open. a gasp so intense it shocked your bones tore from your lips, body jolting with jaceâs ministrations.
the brute force of it all made you bite your lip, core becoming impossibly wet as you thought about jace using that type of strength with you when you finally bedded each other. as the corset loosened around your body, the hungry eyes of your husband took in your exposed frame, his tongue kissing his teeth before he spun you around, leaving the dress to pool at your feet.
ânow theres my pretty girl.â you didnât even have time to chastise jace for ripping your dress, the wily prince crooking two of his fingers, beckoning you over with a grin.
âcâmere.â jace ordered, voice holding a stroke of softness and dominance. âi canât spend another minute not touching you.â
If a Pisces Moon is a watercolor painting dissolving in the rain, an Aries Moon is a sudden brilliant flash of lightning that splits the night sky. Having your Moon in this cardinal fire sign, ruled by the fierce energy of Mars, means your emotional world doesn't simmer or wait â it erupts. You donât have the patience to let a feeling marinate or develop over time. When you are hurt, it is a sharp immediate sting. When you are happy, it is a radiant infectious heat that fills the entire room, demanding to be felt.
Your ultimate coping mechanism is raw action and immediate expression. You possess a beautiful, almost childlike emotional honesty â what people see is exactly what they get. You don't do passive-aggression, slow-burning resentment or calculated mind games. If you are angry or upset, it flares up instantly into a storm, but just as quickly, the sky clears. You melt the tension away, forgive easily and move on, often entirely forgetting why you were even mad in the first place. You burn through your pain rather than letting it poison you from the inside.
In relationships, you love with a passionate, protective and ride-or-die intensity. You are the ultimate warrior friend, the person who will fiercely defend your loved ones against anyone without a second thought. You need connections that can handle your heat, match your high energy and celebrate your independence without trying to dim your light. Beneath that brave, trailblazing and seemingly unbreakable exterior, however lies a tender soul that just wants to be chosen first. Your deepest hidden need is simply to be loved passionately for exactly who you are, and to find a safe space where you can run completely wild and free.
đ TAURUS MOON:
If an Aries Moon is a sudden wildfire, a Taurus Moon is the ancient, deeply rooted earth that absorbs the heat. Having the Moon here, where it is traditionally considered to be "exalted", means your emotional world is built on a foundation of quiet strength, steady rhythms and an immense capacity for calm. You donât panic easily. When life gets chaotic and everyone else is spinning out, you are usually the anchor, holding down the fort with a grounding, silent resilience.
For you, emotions are a physical experience. You process your feelings through your senses â the warmth of a heavy blanket, the scent of rain, a perfectly cooked meal or the tactile comfort of a favorite sweater. When you are stressed, you don't want to talk it to death; you want to retreat into your sanctuary, dim the lights, and shut the door on the noise of the world. Because you crave safety and predictability, change can feel like a personal threat. You will hold onto a situation, a routine or a relationship long after it has expired, simply because the comfort of the familiar feels safer than the chaos of the unknown.
In love, you are the epitome of devotion. You don't give your heart away quickly but once someone is in your inner circle, you love them with an unshakeable, fiercely protective loyalty. You show affection through acts of care âshowing up, building a cozy life together and being the one constant people can always rely on. Your deepest hidden need is simply peace. You want a life stripped of unnecessary drama, a beautiful and stable home, and the freedom to enjoy existence at your own slow, deliberate and luxurious pace.
đ GEMINI MOON:
If a Taurus Moon is the steady earth, a Gemini Moon is a restless shifting wind. Having your Moon in this mutable air sign means your emotional world is a kaleidoscope of thoughts, ideas and constant motion. You don't just feel your emotions â you analyze them, question them and try to solve them like a puzzle. For you, a feeling isn't fully real until youâve found the exact words to describe it, which means you are often talking, writing or texting your way through your inner landscape.
The fascinating thing about a Gemini Moon is the duality. You can experience two completely opposing emotions at the exact same time, feeling deeply sad while simultaneously cracking a joke about it. Humor, wit and intellectual detachment are your ultimate coping mechanisms. When life gets heavy, your instinct isn't to cry or hide; itâs to rationalize, distract yourself with a new hyperfixation or scroll through social media to keep your brain occupied. Because your mind moves at lightning speed, your moods can shift just as quickly, making you deeply adaptable but also prone to sudden waves of mental anxiety.
In relationships, connection is entirely mental. You need a partner and friends who can match your intellectual pace, listen to your late-night tangents and debate everything from philosophy to reality TV. You show love by sharing information, sending memes that reminded you of them and engaging in effortless non-stop banter. Your deepest hidden need is simply to be understood in all your complexity. You want the freedom to change your mind, a safe space to vent without judgment and someone who recognizes that beneath all your talk and nervous energy, you possess a deeply curious, beautifully observant and sparkling soul.
đ CANCER MOON:
If a Gemini Moon is a shifting wind, a Cancer Moon is the deep infinite ocean. Having the Moon here, in the sign that it naturally rules, means your emotional capacity is vast and profoundly powerful. You donât just feel your own emotions, you absorb the feelings of everyone else in the room like an emotional sponge. Your intuition is almost psychic and you can sense a shift in someoneâs energy before they even realize it themselves.
Because you feel everything with such raw intensity, your moods naturally ebb and flow like the tides. To protect your tender heart, you have a beautiful but heavy "shell" â a defense mechanism that makes you retreat into total isolation when you are hurt or overwhelmed. You have a profound attachment to the past, often romanticizing memories, holding onto old photographs and remembering exactly how a specific moment felt years ago. When life gets cruel, your instinct is to go home, burrow into safety and surround yourself with the people and things that make you feel fiercely protected.
In relationships, you are the ultimate nurturer. You love with a fierce, unconditional and deeply devoted warmth, showing your affection through home-cooked meals, tight hugs and being a safe harbor for everyone else's storms. However because you give so much of your soul away, your deepest hidden need is to be taken care of in return. You crave absolute emotional security, a peaceful sanctuary to call home and people who will look past your protective outer shell to cherish, hold and gentle validate the soft beautiful depth of your heart.
đ LEO MOON:
If a Cancer Moon is the quiet depths of the ocean, a Leo Moon is a radiant blazing sun. Having your Moon in this fixed fire sign means your emotional life is grand, cinematic and deeply intertwined with your sense of pride. You donât do subtle feelings; when you love, you love with a fierce royal devotion, and when you are hurt, the wound hits your very core.
There is a beautiful theatrical warmth to this placement. You have a natural instinct to bring joy, laughter and light to the people around you. You are the ultimate hype-friend, celebrating your loved ones' victories as if they were your own. However because your emotions are so tied to your pride, your ultimate coping mechanism is dramatic silence. If you feel unappreciated or slighted, you won't throw a tantrum â instead you will quietly withdraw your warmth, ice people out and wait for them to realize what they are missing. You possess a deep-seated need to be seen, validated and adored for exactly who you are.
In relationships, you are intensely loyal and fiercely protective. You love with an open generous heart and express affection through grand gestures, thoughtful gifts and unwavering support. Beneath that confident regal exterior, however lies a sensitive soul that is terrified of being rejected or ignored. Your deepest hidden need is simply to be cherished. You want a safe space where you can drop your armor, step out of the spotlight and be loved passionately by people who recognize that your big dramatic heart is made of pure gold.
đ VIRGO MOON:
If a Leo Moon is a blazing sun, a Virgo Moon is the quiet, steady hum of a perfectly organized machine trying to process a storm. Having your Moon in this mutable earth sign means your inner world is deeply analytical, observant and deeply tied to a desire for order. You donât just experience a feeling; you dissect it, categorize it and try to find a practical reason for why it exists.
Your ultimate coping mechanism for emotional chaos is action. When you are anxious, overwhelmed or heartbroken, you don't usually break down or cry on someone's shoulder; instead you clean your room, organize your spreadsheets or create an intense to-do list. Anxiety for you is a physical buzz, a restless need to fix things. You are incredibly hard on yourself, possessing a relentless inner critic that tells you that having messy uncontrollable emotions is a flaw. Because of this, you often overthink every text message, replay conversations in your head and worry about things that haven't even happened yet.
In friendships and love, your affection is a verb. You don't show love through grand poetic declarations, but through quiet acts of service. You are the person who remembers how your friend takes their coffee, notices when they are burning out and shows up with their favorite snack and a solution to their problem. Your deepest hidden need is to feel safe enough to relax. You crave a sanctuary where you don't have to be perfect, a partner who will quiet your racing mind and the reassuring realization that you are loved for who you are, not just for how useful you can be.
đ LIBRA MOON:
If a Virgo Moon is the quiet effort to organize a storm, a Libra Moon is a breathless delicate dance to keep the storm from ever happening. Having your Moon in this cardinal air sign means your emotional world is entirely ruled by a deep desire for harmony, balance and beauty. You are hardwired to seek peace, which means your inner peace is deeply reflective of your outer environment and the people you surround yourself with.
Your ultimate coping mechanism is romanticism and intellectualizing. When life gets ugly, painful or chaotic, your instinct is to smooth over the rough edges. You might gloss over red flags, make excuses for people who hurt you or try to see "both sides" of a situation even when you have every right to be angry. Conflict is your absolute kryptonite â it makes you physically uncomfortable. Because you hate rocking the boat, you often swallow your own frustrations, choose people-pleasing over confrontation and wear a beautiful serene smile even when your inner scales are completely tipped over.
In relationships, you are a true artist of connection. You love with an elegant, deeply considerate and attentive warmth. You possess a rare gift for making people feel heard, understood and deeply valued. However because you focus so much on keeping everyone else happy, your deepest hidden need is to be allowed to be messy. You crave a safe space where you don't have to be the perfect peacemaker, a partner who will make decisions for you when your indecisiveness takes over, and the comforting reassurance that you are loved even when you are not perfectly balanced.
đ SCORPIO MOON:
If a Libra Moon is a breathless dance to keep the peace, a Scorpio Moon is a plunge into the absolute deepest darkest parts of the ocean. Having your Moon in this fixed water sign, where it is traditionally considered to be in its "fall", means your emotional world is not a safe shallow pool; it is an active volcano of intensity, passion and raw psychic energy. You don't just feel things, you bleed them.
Because your emotions are so incredibly vast and burning, your ultimate coping mechanism is total secrecy. You have massive instinctual trust issues. From a very young age you learned that showing your vulnerability gives people power over you so you built a fortress around your heart. You are a master at reading everyone else's secrets, motives and hidden shadows while keeping your own cards completely hidden. When you are hurt, you don't cry publicly; you retreat into the shadows to burn, transform and rebuild yourself from the ashes. You possess an all-or-nothing emotional spectrum â you either love with a terrifying life-altering devotion, or you detach completely as if that person never existed.
In relationships, you crave an intensity that scares most people. You despise small talk and shallow connections â you want to merge souls. You show love through unshakeable ride-or-die loyalty and a fiercely protective, almost possessive devotion. Beneath that icy, mysterious and intimidating exterior, however lies a soul that is simply exhausted from fighting its own internal wars. Your deepest hidden need is absolute unconditional safety. You want a partner who isn't afraid of your darkness, someone who will look into your shadows and choose to stay, proving that it is finally safe for you to drop your guard and surrender.
đ SAGITTARIUS MOON:
If a Scorpio Moon is a plunge into the absolute depths of the ocean, a Sagittarius Moon is a wild breathless sprint toward the horizon. Having your Moon in this mutable fire sign means your emotional world is fueled by a relentless desire for freedom, expansion and meaning. You don't like to feel trapped, heavy or stagnant. For you emotions are a landscape to be explored, understood and ultimately outrun if they start to feel too suffocating.
Your ultimate coping mechanism is optimism, distraction and movement. When life gets painful or heavy, your instinct isn't to sit in the dark and cry; itâs to pack a bag, book a spontaneous flight, start a new hyperfixation or crack a joke to diffuse the tension. You are the ultimate silver-lining finder, always trying to turn your trauma into a grand life lesson or a funny story for a party. However this philosophical detachment can sometimes manifest as emotional avoidance. You run away from your problems, literally or mentally, hoping that if you keep moving fast enough, the sadness won't be able to catch up to you.
In relationships, you are a breath of fresh air. You love with a generous, enthusiastic and fiercely independent warmth, acting as the ultimate cheerleader for your loved ones' wildest dreams. You need friends and partners who can match your thirst for adventure, debate philosophy with you at 3 AM and give you plenty of space to breathe. Your deepest hidden need is a safe harbor that doesn't feel like a cage. You crave people who love you for your wild untamed spirit but who will also hold you gently when you are finally tired of running and just need to admit that you are hurting.
đ CAPRICORN MOON:
If a Sagittarius Moon is a wild sprint toward the horizon, a Capricorn Moon is a solitary silent climb up a frozen mountain. Having your Moon in this cardinal earth sign, where it is traditionally in its "detriment", means your emotional world is governed by a heavy sense of duty, self-control and stoicism. You donât believe in messy breakdowns or public displays of vulnerability. From a very young age you likely felt that you had to be the strong one, the responsible one or the anchor for the people around you.
Your ultimate coping mechanism is restriction and isolation. When you are heartbroken, anxious or overwhelmed, your instinct is to lock it down, put on a blank face and throw yourself entirely into work, school or a project. You view unchecked emotions as a weakness or a liability, believing that "feeling things is unproductive." You swallow your pain, swallow your tears and tell yourself âI will deal with this laterâ, but later rarely comes. Because of this you often carry a profound quiet loneliness, hiding your struggles behind a mask of absolute competence and dry sarcastic humor.
In relationships, you are the most reliable person anyone could ever ask for. You don't know how to love with cheap words or superficial promises â your love is structural. You show affection by showing up in a crisis, paying the bills, fixing what is broken and building a secure stable life for the people you cherish. Beneath that cold, imposing and hyper-independent exterior, however lies a deeply tender, incredibly loyal soul that is utterly exhausted from carrying the weight of the world. Your deepest hidden need is simply permission to rest. You crave a safe space where you don't have to be strong, a partner who will take care of you for once, and the comforting realization that you are worthy of love even when you aren't achieving, working or holding everything together.
đ AQUARIUS MOON:
If a Capricorn Moon is a silent climb up a frozen mountain, an Aquarius Moon is looking down at that mountain from a satellite in space. Having your Moon in this fixed air sign means your emotional world is deeply unconventional, fiercely independent and profoundly intellectualized. You don't just feel an emotion; you step outside of your body, look at it under a microscope and try to understand the sociology behind why you are feeling it.
Your ultimate coping mechanism is detachment. When life gets overwhelmingly heavy, dramatic or messy, your instinct is to flip an internal switch and go completely numb and detached. You possess a rare ability to compartmentalize your feelings which makes you incredibly cool-headed in a crisis but it can also make you feel like an alien observing humanity rather than participating in it. You are terrified of being emotionally messy or dependent on someone else so you often push people away the moment they get close enough to see your vulnerabilities. You would rather write a brilliant essay, create art or fix a societal problem than sit in a room and cry about a broken heart.
In relationships, connection is rooted in a shared vision, deep friendship and absolute mental freedom. You despise possessiveness, jealousy and traditional emotional expectations. You show love by accepting people exactly as they are, without trying to change them, and by being a fiercely loyal, open-minded champion of their individuality. Beneath that cool, detached and fiercely independent exterior, however lies a soul that cares deeply about the world and feels a profound sense of cosmic loneliness. Your deepest hidden need is simply to belong without losing yourself. You crave a safe, judgment-free space with people who understand your quirks, celebrate your weirdness and love you not because you fit into their box but because you defy every box entirely.
đ PISCES MOON:
If an Aquarius Moon is a satellite looking down from space, a Pisces Moon is a watercolor painting left out in the rain where all the edges blur into the universe. Having your Moon in this mutable water sign, the very last sign of the zodiac, means your emotional world has no boundaries. You donât just feel your own emotions; you flow into the feelings, heartbreaks and energies of everyone and everything around you. You are the ultimate cosmic sponge, possessing a psychic intuition so profound that it can often feel like a beautiful exhausting curse.
Your ultimate coping mechanism is escapism and romanticism. When the world becomes too harsh, loud or cruel, your instinct isn't to fight back or rationalize â itâs to disappear. You retreat into the rich infinite landscape of your own mind, losing yourself in music, art, poetry or elaborate daydreams. Because reality can feel incredibly heavy for your gentle soul, you are prone to wearing rose-colored glasses, making excuses for people who mistreat you because you can see the hidden pain inside them. You have a profound relationship with sorrow, often crying over things you can't even name, simply mourning the collective sadness of the world.
In relationships, you love with a mystical, unconditional and deeply spiritual devotion. You don't just want a partner, you want a soulmate. You show affection through absolute empathy, listening to people's deepest trauma without judgment and offering a love that feels like a warm healing wave. However because you give your energy away so freely, your deepest hidden need is to be grounded and protected. You crave a safe, solid harbor â a partner or a friend who will build a boundary around your soft heart, pull you back to earth when you drift too far into the ether and remind you that your sensitivity is not a weakness but a rare breathtaking magic.
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Daddy kink with Jax, him catching you waiting up for him after a late night with the club, wearing nothing but his shirt in the kitchen. Also can it be the first time you call him daddy and heâs absolutely intrigued.
Sitting Pretty.
unspoken desires can only stay unspoken for so long.
jax teller x female reader
warnings - smut. cursing. daddy kink. jax is somehow so degrading but so loving at the same time.
a/n - YEEEEEEEEEAH. murphy writing a daddy kink⊠who wouldâve thought theyâd see the day. anyway iâd call this man anything he wanted me to x
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Itâs a bad habit, the waiting up.
He tells you not to do it. Says honey, I donât want to keep you awake. Iâll just come to bed when I get home in that gruff voice of his. He uses that persuasive tone, the one that makes you weak at the knees. I donât know what time Iâll be back, baby. I donât want to keep you up.
And yet, you do it anyway.
You occupy your time with tv shows, movies, books. Cleaning, tidying, cooking. Anything thatâll keep your mind from racing, wondering what Jax is doing, what the club are talking about, if theyâre in trouble yet again.
But thereâs none of that tonight. Tonight, youâre sat on the couch in nothing but a t shirt that belongs to your boyfriend, staring into empty space. All because you canât stop thinking about something that happened this morning.
â” â”  ·ă â” ăă * · â”
The glass had slipped from your hand before you could stop it, shattering all over the clubhouse floor. A chorus of patronising but amused sounds echoed around you, coming from all of the guys sat at the table.
Jax jumps up from his seat immediately, standing up to see if youâre alright.
âOoo, Daddyâs disappointed.â
The quip has come from Tig, to no oneâs surprise. You look up from your knees to see that actually, Jax doesnât look disappointed. Thereâs a sparkle in his eye that you canât quite put your finger on. Itâs mischief and curiosity and self satisfaction all at once.
â” â”  ·ă â” ăă * · â”
Itâs replayed in your head all day.
That damn look in his eye.
At first, you thought that maybe it was because you were on your knees on the ground. Heâs been very vocal about how he will never, ever, get sick of the sight of you staring up at him.
But the more you think about it, the more thereâs no denying that the twinkle in his eye appeared when Tig had called him Daddy. Or maybe youâre just convincing yourself to twist the situation to fit the fantasies that swirl around in your head day in, day out.
Youâre so lost in your thoughts that you donât hear the side door open, footsteps rumbling across your kitchen floor.
âBaby, what have I told you about waiting up?â
âHey,â you breathe, always happy to see him. âI didnât hear you come in.â
âToo busy daydreaminâ,â he observes, wrapping his arms around you from behind. âWish I could read your mind.â
âYou donât,â you laugh, securing your arms over his to squeeze him tight. âItâs not very interesting.â
He smells like gasoline and smoke, all musky and masculine. The scent of him drives you insane, like some sort of instant aphrodisiac designed just for you.
âMissed ya,â he whispers in your ear, pressing his body into yours. âBeen thinking about you all day. Was secretly hoping youâd be sittinâ all pretty for me when I got back. And here you are, wearing nothing but my shirt, lookinâ like a goddamn angel.â
âIâve been waiting for you.â
âWhat did I do to deserve a sweetheart like you, huh?â
You hum, leaning back into the firm warmth of him.
âNow tell me, my little daydreamer⊠what have you been thinking about?â
His hands migrate from your waist, skimming up your body so theyâre massaging your tits.
âJust you,â you breathe. âAlways you.â
âYeah?â
âYeah.â
Heâs hot and heavy against your back, grinding his hips into your ass to relieve some of the friction thatâs driving him insane.
One of his hands winds it way around your neck, squeezing ever so gently to make you even dizzier. His other hand is slipping under his shirt that youâre wearing to cup you over your panties, his middle finger swiping along the seam to feel how wet you are.
âYouâre fuckinâ soakinâ,â he groans, all deep and raspy. âFuck, youâre nothing but a desperate whore after midnight. Sittinâ here, thinking about all the things you want me to do to you when I get homeâŠâ
You seem to have lost your words, rendered speechless as you buck your hips to try and get him where you want him.
âWhat dâya want, baby? Tell me.â
âFingers,â you choke. âPlease.â
He whips your panties down your legs before you can even process it, kicking your ankles apart to give him better access. His fingers are dragging through your core in an instant, gathering your slick and sliding right in without any protest.
Jax curls his digits and buckles your knees as he does it, while you grip onto the countertop for dear life.
âRight there? Yeah?â
âYeah.â
âFilthy girl. Filthy fuckinâ girl.â
All you can do is whine, panting for breath as he slides his fingers in and out, his pace utterly relentless.
âOh, baby. Can you feel it dripping down your legs? Can you feel it soakinâ my hand? My favourite little whore. Just canât think straight when Iâm touchinâ you, can ya?â
Heâs rasping the words right into your ear, his breath tickling your neck and giving you instant goosebumps.
âJax.â
âAtta girl. Say my name, darlinâ. Let everyone know who you belong to.â
Youâre not sure if itâs the way heâs curling his fingers, or the honeyed words heâs rasping down your ear, or the fact that heâs claiming you as his so brazenly that it makes you dizzy, but it slips off your tongue before you can even think about stopping it.
âDaddy.â
His movements halt completely, both of you frozen in place. You figure if you donât move a muscle or make a sound, heâll carry on like nothing occurred in the first place.
That doesnât happen.
Instead, Jax pulls you flush to his body, plastering you to his chest. One hand is still in between your legs, the other one tightening its grip around your throat. Heâs panting like heâs run a marathon, body vibrating with animalistic need.
âOh honey⊠what was that?â
âHmm?â
âDonât play dumb with me, smart girl.â
You shrug, which is the wrong move entirely.
âNuh uh, you ainât getting away that easy. Repeat yourself, baby. Tell me what you said.â
Youâre still hesitating, reluctant to potentially embarrass yourself. Jax dips his head so his mouth his resting against your ear, teeth nipping at that spot on your neck he knows makes you weak.
âSpit. It. Out.â
âDaddy,â you breathe, somewhat relieved to not have to bottle it up anymore. âFuck, daddy.â
âThatâs my girl,â he purrs, and you can hear the grin in his voice. âThatâs my fucking girl.â
His hand that was around your neck twists itself into your hair as his other hand pushes you firmly between your shoulder blades, bending you over the kitchen counter. He kicks your ankles apart, folding himself right over you.
âDaddyâs gonna fuck you now, pretty girl. Gonna fuck you until you canât remember anyoneâs name but mine.â
Both of you groan when he slides inside with no resistance. You grip the edge of the countertop for stability, knowing youâll fly over it if you donât hold on.
âFuck, you feel like heaven. A filthy fucking angel.â
âJax,â you choke. âYou feel so good.â
He presses a gentle kiss to your head before setting a brutal pace with his hips, his pelvis slamming into your ass with every thrust. It takes everything in you to stay upright, knees buckling every time he pulls back and re enters.
âAll mine,â he growls as he tugs your hair so your back arches. âWho do you belong to, hmm?â
âYou,â you manage to squeak out. âYou.â
âHmm? Who?â
âYou, Jax.â
âSay that again?â
âYou, daddy. Fuck.â
âThere it is. Perfect girl.â
Heâs changed his angle ever so slightly to tilt his hips upwards, meaning heâs hitting exactly the right spot every time he slams into you. Youâre dizzy with it, overwhelmed in the best way, gasping for air as your climax gets closer and closer.
âYou wanna come? Yeah?â
All you can do is nod your head frantically, desperate for the release thatâs been building up all day.
âAsk for it. Beg me like the whore you are.â
âPlease,â you instantly start babbling. âPlease, Jax. Want it, please.â
âSo polite,â he laughs, tone dripping with condescension. âThatâs not what I want to hear though, and you know it.â
You take a deep breath, willing yourself to think straight for one minute.
âPlease let me come, daddy.â
Thatâs all he needs. He pulls his hand from your hair and slides it down your front, rubbing quick and firm circles on your clit to throw you over the edge. It does the trick instantly, your legs turning to jelly as your head tilts back and your back arches. Your orgasm rips through you like a tidal wave, uncontrollable and all consuming in the best way.
Youâre squeezing him so tight that Jax canât hold on any longer, coming inside you with a deep groan that rumbles through both of your bones.
All that can be heard is two sets of lungs heaving for air, both of you half collapsed on the cool wood of the countertop. Jax wraps his arms around you, cushioning the impact as he hooks his foot around your ankle to take you both down to the ground. You melt against him on the kitchen floor, revelling in the warmth of his body against the cold bite of the tiles. Your boyfriend presses a kiss to your hair, fingertips tracing absent minded patterns across any skin he can reach.
Youâre not sure if youâve been laying there for five minutes or an hour when Jax speaks.
âSo how long have you been sitting on that one, huh?â
âShut up,â you whine, burying your face in his chest.
âNuh uh, daddy wants an answer,â he teases, squeezing you as tightly as he can.
âI hate you,â you laugh, trying to squirm out of his grip to no avail.
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