you can love somebody without using your hands

I've been writing a fanfic for a while but I started rereading moby dick recently and upon rereading my fic u can tell exactly when I did

daniel "i don't have transformational trauma" molloy & louis "i don't consider myself abused" de pointe du lac & lestat "abuser? liberator. emancipator" de lioncourt & armand "i basked in his mercy" de nolastname. let's all be in denial with mama

the deniabolicule

if i think too hard about nikki’s experience in Obsession i feel physically ill. imagine one second you’re just walking up to your house after a night out, and then the next, you’re looking out of your own body, but you’re not longer in control. you’re a prisoner to a terrible, unnatural version of yourself that only exists because of a choice someone else made. when you scream, nobody listens. when you claw your way out for long enough to explain that this isn’t you, nobody listens. when you beg the man who trapped you in this situation to put and end to it, to set your free, he just. doesn’t. listen. and then when you do finally regain control, all your friends are dead, and you are covered in their blood. because of a choice someone else made

“denied the catharsis of punishment” is an underappreciated but hugely effective narrative consequence imo 

tragic: mutual puts a fandom poll on your dash begging you to vote for blorbo bleebus but you know in your heart that the other option, blingus blarbo, is the correct choice. on some judas shit. forgive me brother for you have forced my hand.

Orgasm denial. Orgasm anger. Orgasm bargaining. Orgasm depression. Orgasm acceptance.

Somebody tagged this as fucking Spock.

women are like diamonds: synthetically-produced women are not meaningfully different from naturally-formed women, and anyone trying to tell you otherwise is probably trying to justify keeping their women mines open

The De Romanus family tree is insane as fuck because we know the older a vampire gets the more potent their blood becomes which is why really old vampires aren't allowed to make fledglings as it makes them too strong and also go mad. But Marius's maker was Teskhamen who was like 3000 when he made Marius, and then Marius waited until he was 1500 to make Armand, who waited until he was 500 to make Daniel. Whole family lineage of geriatric pregnancies that ends up making crazy ass fledglings.

my most Millennial trait is that i want big screen to think properly. to compose my thoughts. app exists for your thing but no website? bad bad bad not good for think, need big screen for think. i wrote this post on the small screen btw