Here We Go Again

Full circle, listening to arctic monkeys while scrolling through tumblr oh my

Food is gross food is gross food is gross

I’m so upset today, I can’t get out of this headspace. A million things are running through my head and I just wanna go jump off a cliff bruh

You know it’s bad when you’re back 🫣🥹

I’m gonna do a 20 hr fast, I haven’t done one in awhile and we will see if I can get over my plateau. I hardly have food in the house anyways… c:

I need some new thinspo, I can’t find any lately :<

I’ve been doing so well until this weekend. I’ve been drinking all weekend and then I decided to eat a huge breakfast, thank god I had time to purge after but damn I’m mad at myself . It’s the only way I know how to control my life

I have to remind myself that once I lose this weight I will look completely different. I miss my slim face with a sharp jawline and button nose. Skinny wrists with medium shirts that drape over me. Looking tiny and fragile standing beside anyone, pictures where others look at me and gasp at how different I look. Wearing crop tops and bralettes without a single care in this world. I’m doing everything I need to do right now but it’s not fast enough, I’m impatient. It’s like Im waiting to go on vacation but my body is the one who decides when that happens

Yesterday I got tattooed for 6 hours and I had to have sugar to keep my blood sugars normal so I splurged a little and I don’t wanna weigh myself. I also drank a crap ton of wine and I feel like garbage, im still trying to get my 10,000 steps in but I’m about to puke on this treadmill. I also have to buy a dress of the wedding but maybe I should wait a bit longer till I lose more weight idk

Goodbye 180’s- 190’s tomorrow I will hopefully be in the 170’s and I’m so fjenjejdjf excited 🤭🥹

I have a wedding I have to go to in August, the person who’s getting married is my cousin. When we were children we used to compare each others weight and boast about who’s skinner. Even with all this hard work I’m still going to be fatter than her by then, I haven’t seen her in years… I’m gonna cry

I think I found the perfect routine for me, 1000 Cals and I just go for a 2 hour long walk and I run. I literally can’t stop and it’s so sustainable, the amount of calories I burn off makes my total intake for the day around 800 calories. Ive dropped 10 pounds in a week and a half. I can do this I’m so proud of myself❤️🥲