Dusk Tales

I upgraded myself countless times

Because they said, only the best gets the elixir

They lied, or perhaps, time has changed

A savage play is going on

Everyone is drunk in it

They're reducing the value of every pure thing

And lauging at those who still value them

I feel lost; I refuse to believe

All my preparations went in vain

I will open a notebook to write a letter to my lover

I will smell the flowers and breathe a little more

My heart will be loud. My mind will be calm

I will put on the rain boots

And plod on the soft earth in the backyard

One by one, I will pick the fresh berries

In the evening, I'll make jam with them

I will hang the fairy lights on the walls

To distract them from the memories

Which are full of my cries

My books, covered in dust, are on the bedside table

I will read them before sleep grows heavier on my eyelids

The noise inside her head vanished.

You are not a friend

You walked into my life veiled in innocence

You acted as a victim to incite my tenderness

So, you can push your hook deep into my flesh

I see myself now

Stab marks all across my skin

Small, but many in numbers

How did you do it? Was I blindsided?

I must say, I'm amazed

You call yourself a victim

When in real life, you're a sly demon

Damn!

I lost so much by feeding your still heart

My veins have dried up

I tried to runaway, hearing your footsteps

No use, you catch me, caress my skin

Your eyes shine as you admire the wounds on it

I'm paralysed to move away

When you rub a fresh spot on my skin

I feel the familiar horror flowing down my spine

You dig in your blood-stained hook

I know this place, filled with ruins

Twigs rising from moss-covered from concrete beams, dew-soaked earth

It's cold and wet, not so pleasant to come in

Hardly any light here

It's twilight for 12 months

Neither Sun nor the moon rises on the sky here

Are you asking about how it sounds?

No sound, Pin-drop silence

You'll yearn to hear even the sound of an insect

It's abandoned

Standing still like a slap on the face

Of gardens and cottages I have built.

I had a palace here once

One day, it crumbled

I cried for years, being stuck under the debris

Sniffing the dust with my broken ribs

Nobody heard, nobody came

I thought I would die

Until one day, the beam felt lighter to push away

I stood up, patted the dust away from my clothes

Followed a narrow trail out of this place

How am I back here again?

I don't recall taking the trail back

In fact, I kept myself away

Now, where's the trail?

There it is, but why can't I move?

I am glued to the earth

My clothes are soaked in dew

I'm weeping like a kid, holding knees to my chest

How do I go out this time?

No ego, no denial

Here, I'm sitting with empty hands

Yes, I feel stupid for liking you

I'm naive to fall for you in just a few days

I'm blind; I didn't see you are just none

I'm deaf not to hear what you actually said

I'm slow; I didn't understand what you actually wanted

Now, I'm sitting with empty heart

And a mind drenched in shame

What was I thinking?

Isn't it the ludicrous thing you ever heard?

You must be wondering

She looked so sharp, but it turns out,

Just another airhead

I didn't want to lose it

Why do I feel so small in front of you?

Why do I think my worth is linked to

If I'm desirable to you or not

What part of myself is so malnourished

That you cut right in to spread the rot

How do I take my respect back?

Tell me, how will I forget the shame?

I'm growing sick of always being my guard

Can you feel the weight on my shoulder?

Yeah, my spine is bending

You heard the rash breathing,

Didn't you?

Take it off

Free me

Are you hearing?

I want to stop feeling vulnerable

Like an open wound need protection all the time

Throw this weight of my shoulder

I hope, you're brave enough to open it

I hope you aren't scared, anxious, unsure

To show your home whose natural charm is robbed

I hope, you don't think too much

Or worry about what's coming next

Is it the end?

I hope, you live every moment to the fullest

And let all hurt, fear, hatred, and ego melt away

Because this love is thoughtful

It will fill up your cup, but will not overflow it

Because this time, when love will arrive

It will erase the signs of destitute from your home

So, I hope this time, for even one last time,

We are breathing, not in sync

Your breathing is laboured

Burning my face

You can barely stay still

Your musculor arms are shaking around me

Darling, I am worried; you can collapse anytime

I touch your face

Your eyes are bloodshot, locked with mine

There's a cry of help in your eyes

You are yearning to be free

Free from the weight on your back

To dissolve the clots in your arteries

To blow out the thick black smoke from your lungs

You are wretched

They have ruined you, we have ruined you

I wish I could help

My heart is breaking

I'm as useless as the humans who stomps on your chest for centuries

My lips quiver

You grab my hand on your chest

You bring it to your lips, kiss it

And I whispered