Healin

I need to stop crying I need to stop crying

Anyway I love my man and I’m continuously proud of him! He loves me and encourages me to be my best self and vise versa! We’re connected at the hip but at the exact same time were living our own lives. We’ve got a harmony. It’s kinda bare minimum to have this kinda support but it’s still nice to not have to not ask for it

Is it depression or am I falling out of love

He asked me to move in with him. It would be so nice to wake up with him every day. I think I need a few months at my parents still. Being home has given me this feeling. I’ve barely spoken to my friends recently. I’m touching base. So much has happened since I last lived here. I work in the shopping centre I used to work in. There’s a big window looking out onto the escalators. Everyday I see people from my childhood and teens pass by. I’m constantly reminded of people and things from the worst times in my life. And it’s grounding. I’m reevaluating. I miss the friends I’ve lost contact with. And I don’t know how to reconnect. I’ve got to get some things back before I can move in with him.

Nearly a year since we met

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Every time I tell myself it’ll never get that bad again. I need to be right this time. I have to be.

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I told him about something that happened to my sister the other night

Bit by bit I’ll let him know

I just want to hug my mum and cry