in which i, an avatar fanart blog, talks about love, creation, and sin
silence and fear have ruled over me. iāve always been scared to talk and make friends and keep those friendships because i seek peopleās approval and i have so much quiet pride which makes me want to be better than others without explicitly saying i am. and so i shut up. and i avoid. and then i create sometimes, but itās all been shallow art. at least i maintain a neutral- hopefully, slightly positive- presence because being bullied isnāt something i wanted to get used to
but iāve been given love and courage that i havenāt been using. iāve been fortunate to have a voice and to have the means to share that but iāve been selfish. iāve wanted to preserve what little charm i have and itās so dumb. SO-
you and i? weāre sinners. we feel and see and hear and speak and exist in darkness and imperfection in a world that was intended to be good for us. we have separated ourselves from God our Creator and so resulted in our own creations- sin, selfishness, fear, inequality, injustice, racism, pride, loneliness, and i would go on but itās real sad
whatās not real sad? God is God. the few times iāve shared the message of God and salvation with people, iāve always led with God loves you. and itās because itās true and i love to hear it so chances are, others would love to hear it first and foremost too. but in order to preserve that neutral, hopefully slightly positive image, i havenāt been mentioning that God is capable of hatred too. because too many needless times, people have taken that fact and twisted it to feed their own hatred of people different from them.Ā
God can hate but he has never hated you or me. He hates what weāve created- itās shallow and self-preserving and prideful and it has separated us from him. He set out to give us a good life in a good world to be filled with good people.Ā
and he gave us choices and freedom
and here we are- lost and scared for the future, confused and angry about why injustice still reigns, saddened and hopeless when we lose our dreams and loved ones.
and here it is, my favorite part: God loves you. Jesus gave up His life so that we can have ours. we separated ourselves and yet God is still reaching out to us because he is in loveĀ with us even when we have deemed ourselves unlovable. the sin that has broken our connection has been obliterated by that love.Ā
itās that love that has kept me living. iāve wanted to give upĀ die, fade into peace, no worries, no pain. but thatās not whatāll happen. as flawed and sinful as we all are, when we die, we canāt enter the same place as GOD (come on dude this guy holy!! and perfect!!). u know what that means - 7734 (now flip your calculator upside down)
i use humor as a defense mechanism... itās not that good but i still use it. um
but seriously guys, hell is real.Ā
and Godās love is real. and itās real that Heās the only one that can save us from ourselves, from our sin, from our messed up creations that we call government, self-hatred, poverty, and the like. God is God and that statement is something that iām still learning to fully grasp, if i could ever.
For God so loved you, that he gave his only Son. If you believe in Him, you wonāt perish in that sin that He hates. And instead, youāll have life, actual life that is forever good, back in connection with the God of good. (John 3:16, paraphrased by me, an avatar fanart blog to talk to you, u cutie, u wonderful and loved being)
isnāt it time for something good?
