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Any and all help is appreciated!!! Please share even if you can’t donate!!

I am trying to get to this conference to speak on disability in debate to be on the panel. I don't have the funds for it and my school is unable to help me with it. If you can donate anything I would appreciate it. Unique Link will match any donation made by midnight on Thursday. If for some reason I don't get enough to go I will donate whatever money is there to DKC - which inspired me to do debate in high school - even if you can't donate please share https://www.gofundme.com/ru72q7n8

#lupus #lupusproblems #chronic illness #chronic pain

Last night a friend mention the he and other friends including my best friend have had convos about how whenever I call or txt I need something so they sometimes ignore me. I wasn't aware I am such a burden on them. I should be able to detect that considering Malaika but I didn't. Buts it's not even their fault because I'm lonely at home I call them to bring me things so they will hang out. I feel (know) that if I don't need something they won't come. But that's manipulative as fuck and I shouldn't be doing that. They obviously don't want to hang out with me. The boys will txt June and each other to hang and I'm never included. That should have told me they just don't want me around and I was trying to force it. I am a burden. I can't walk all the time and I'm in pain all the time and that comes up every time we do hang out cause they ask questions. Instead of hanging out they end up assigning suicide watch and forcing one of them to spend the whole day with me in shifts... Which is even worse. Only being with me cause you're scared the pain is gonna get the better of me. Not because they want me around rather they don't want to feel responsible if I do kill myself. I'm done with being/feeling like a burden to people. I have a disability that I'm am going to have to learn how to handle by myself. So no more asking for help. No more asking for people to hang out with me on bad days. No more. #lupus #lupusproblems #icant

Why is it of all the pills I take prednisone is the one that get caught up and I have to have the after taste???! Shit is nasty! #lupus #lupusproblems

I've stopped making appts with professors and advisors bc every time I do I get a flare and have to cancel. Now I just cross my fingers and hope they are in their offices on my good days. #lupus #lupusproblems #chronic illness