Corona Immortalis

i don't care if you think i'm dumb.

i'm the girl you'd die for.

i'll chew you up and i'll spit you out.

that's what young love is all about.

pull me closer and kiss me hard.

life gave me some lemons, so i made some lemonade.

i think you're gonna be my biggest fan.

all i ever wanted was the world.

you say that i'm kinda difficult, but it's always someone else's fault.

i got you wrapped around my finger.

you can count on me to misbehave.

would you do anything for me?

would you get down on your knees for me?

i'm sad to the core.

i wanna be adored.

i really don't know why it's such a big deal.

you're never gonna love me, so what's the use?

what's the point in playing a game you're gonna lose?

you're too proud to say that you made a mistake.

you're a coward 'til the end.

why don't we just pretend?

i can't let you go.

you only ever touch me in the dark.

it never happens like you think it really should.

deception and perfection are wonderful traits.

i don't belong to anyone.

we're all very lovely 'til we get to know each other.

i guess you could say that my life's a mess.

deep down, all you want is love.

you're hard to hug. tough to talk to.

i never fall asleep when you're in my bed.

the only time you open up is when we get undressed.

you don't love me. big fucking deal.

i'll never tell you how i feel.

sometimes i ignore you so i feel in control.

come on, baby. let's just get drunk.

i send my best regards from hell.

i would sell my sorry soul if i could have it all.

my life is a play.

that's just how you are with love.

you may be good looking, but you're not a piece of art.

i'm gonna make you fall.

i am weak.

was it really worth it?

did i really deserve it?

i think of all the men i could've kissed.

i wish i hadn't been so clean.

i wanna stay inside all day.

i wanna make a big mistake.

i wish i wasn't such a narcissist.

oh god, i'm gonna die alone!

i can feel it coming to the end.

who are you to tell me who to be?

i know you only want to own me.

you tell me one thing and do another.

i lived a lot of different lives.

i see it for the first time.

there is no crime in being kind.

not everyone is out to screw you over.

baby, i'm the one who left you.

when you're around me, i'm radioactive.

do you wanna be a member?

do you want to be with somebody like me?

you named it after me.

you're still living in the dark.

all my life, i've been so lonely.

i'll always belong in the sky.

don't get attached to somebody you could lose.

kiss him goodbye at the door.

leave him wanting more.

“  I,  just  like  those  from  the  abyss,  want  to  survive.  Survive  amongst  everything  else,  not  for  anyone  else,  only  myself.  ”  He  said,  pinching  his  eyes  shut  as  he  let  himself  speak  from  his  heart  with  nothing  extra.  The  dragon  could  tell  that  he  was  holding  those  thoughts  back,  clouding  them  with  words  of  bold  nature  that  did  nothing  to  solve  that  terrible  situation  he  found  himself  in.

“  I  don’t  wish  for  them  to  be  hurt  if  it  is  a  result  of  me  surviving.  I  will  do  what  I  can  to  spare  them  that,  for  I  know  how  it  is  to  survive  at  the  expense  of  everyone  else.  ”  He  continued  to  speak,  his  voice  wobbling  as  he  swallowed  thickly  once  again.

“  Then  I  will  speak  plain,  why  have  you  not  killed  us,  just  as  you  have  killed  your  kin?  If  your  disgust  is  so  immense,  why  not  vanquish  us  all?  What  is  it  that  you’re  trying  to  prove  to  yourself,  dragon?  ”  Illuga  raised  his  head  and  met  the  gaze  of  the  serpent  with  more  confidence  than  he  had  before.

A shame to the very oath sworn by Lightkeepers.

Nahvithaam's head cant downward, peering intently at the investigation team's captain.

"And does my choice displease you still?, for i can indeed end you", but will he, was the better question left unanswered. "To decide for oneself is no crime surely?", however they are those who are inevitably shackled.

"My disgust belongs not to the humans but to the greater beings above", and the Shades to some level, namely Death.

Ah that's right. Amidst talking he forgot to be gracious enough. "You may call me Nahvithaam but do as you will", its just a name after all.

A brief pause as the dragon listens still.

"Do you want to make a deal, that is the better question no?, the duty of such decision falls to you", and that was what set Nahvithaam apart from the usual villains.

My fixation is Lohen now ^^

He  needed  to  save  them.  If  he  could  spare  them,  he  needed  to.  He  couldn't  let  them  die  here.

The  Lightkeeper  felt  like  his  head  was  swimming  with  everything  as  he  tried  to  grasp  understanding.  What  exactly  was  he  being  offered?  What  would  happen  if  he  refused  or  accepted?  It  sounded  like  the  Ratkini  were  set  for  death  if  he  didn't  stop  it.

“  What  are  you  offering?  Are  you  insinuating  you'd  let  them  go  in  exchange  for  something?  ”  He  asked  in  heaving  breaths,  taking  a  step  forward  towards  the  beast  to  show  his  resolve.

"The mind is a most fatal enemy than thine heart ever could", something of an appease mayhaps.

As for the unresponsive crewmates, by now it would have been so easy for the ancient being to lash out at them with little effort & yet, there is no interest, no signs of voraciousness.

"Is this not enough grace then?, for us to have a privy conversation, or shall you be interested in putting them in the crossfire?", even then, so little provoke Nahvithaam.

"But do they want to be protected?, to not feel like an hindrance to you because you take away their reasons to fight from doing everything yourself, is that not so?".

Is that not why you failed long ago?.

"Do they not want to be autonomous and return all the aid that you've done them, is this what you call teamwork?, to take the brunt for yourself and leave them powerless because of your own recklessness to try and save people who wants to feel equal".

Or those who never got the chance to open eyes to the sky again.

"Such nature cost you many before", for this dragon had eyes on the happenings of the Surface from where he dwells.

"You use something that is responsible for many atrocities when they vowed to protect those below them and yet, they slumber still", the accursed Heavenly Principles, the Visions that spawn on its will and the greater gods in Celestia.

Hunger…

That  question  confused  him,  part  of  him  knew  immediately,  while  consciously  he  swallowed  any  reaction  he  nearly  had.  That  wasn’t  a  moment  where  he  could  handle  saying  words  without  clearly  thinking  them  through.

“  Yes,  I  —  ”  His  voice  failed  from  the  pressure  upon  him.  What  exactly  was  he  agreeing  to?  Why  was  he  agreeing?  Because  it’s  true.

There is always a price, even at wanting to protect others & not feel so useless.

"Thine hesitation leaves much to be desired, no?".

Or will you fail again, bring another tragedy upon you, little mortal man?

"Who is it do you truly hunger to protect more than oneself, the ones that means little to me or those that will outlive you, perhaps even yourself".

Self-preservation is no true sin, not to Nahvithaam.

"You have to wonder no?, what you truly seeks deep down or are one's trusty comrades not worth seeing a new dawn?", hardly a provocation.

Ah right, speaking of those people, gargatuan head looks towards the 'sleeping' Lightkeepers, "do you not wonder what they think underneath the surface?, about you that is to say".

His  body  unfortunately  shook  as  the  dragon  drew  closer,  he  knew  he  asked  a  stupid  question.  It  was  the  first  thing  that  came  to  mind,  because  while  it  made  sense  that  the  abyss  would  eat  each  other…  What  was  it  doing  there?

The  way  his  team  was  transfixed  made  his  own  lack  of  response  all  that  much  stranger.  Why  was  he  unaffected?

Those  jaws  were  too  close  for  comfort  and  yet  despite  the  trembling  in  his  body,  he  felt  strangely  calm  facing  up  against  the  abyss  beast.

“  I  will  admit  that  wasn’t  the  best  phrasing.  ”  Illuga  answered,  clearing  his  throat  and  looking  back  at  his  group.  Everything  begging  him  to  run  and  his  feet  were  pinned  to  the  ground.  He  couldn’t  dream  of  leaving  them  all  there.

Amidst the dreading pressure & how Illuga was feeling about all this, there is an air of contemplation at being addressed such 'inquiry' as the human puts it.

"Hunger", the simplest of response to the abyssal behemoth even if this is barely a quarter of the dragon's sheer size. Layered gem-eyes (all three of them), remains steadied upon the little ratnik captain. "You hunger as well, do you not?", as though seeing throught like a mirror's reflection.