Welcome to my blog. Here you'll find analysis/reviews of movies, tv shows, and books. And also some original short fiction.
Here are some highlights.
Movie Analysis
Ever wondered what was up with No-Face from Spirited Away?
An in-depth, topical look at how Credence Barebone from Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them, born of a difficult and repressed environment, is being pulled by various parties in his society for their own ends.
Studio Ghibli's From Up on Poppy Hill is about a time of great change in postwar Japan and how the characters choose to navigate that change without entirely losing their connection to the past.
Short Fiction
Sputnik's Passage. Just a short existential story about everybody's favorite satellite.
Night Driving. Because sometimes you catch an odd, wistful feeling on half-empty roads at night and can't shake it.
Misc
And for a bonus here's a Mega Man X vgm cover of Storm Eagle's stage music I recorded. And some very amateurish instrumental rock music I composed back in the day.
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To overwhelm the City Watch barracks in the previous episode, S03E05, the conspirators would've had to have a decent number of skilled men-at-arms. I don't think we know how many gold cloaks are typically in the barracks at any given time. Is it 15? 50? Even more? How did they do this without there being at least some witnesses for Mysaria to question, who saw a large group of men moving through the streets with swords on them, or heard the clash of arms? How are there absolutely no leads? Without an inside man, I'd have to say it feels very iffy to me.
Gwayne is the best. The most normal character in this show. The little Baratheon ruse had some nice action, more believable than Daemon or Aemond soloing the Red Keep and Harrenhal. Also enjoyed his talks with Daeron and then Ormund. Those were my favorite scenes this episode.
Obviously I still have some disagreements over the writers insisting on Alicent remaining a major player, forcing them to get her to betray her sons and do other weird things, but I guess we've already crossed that bridge. It's interesting the similarity between the names of Alys and Alicent considering the show chose to give Aemond serious mommy issues.
There's a nice little callback to S1 when Alicent grabs the same arm where she wounded Rhaenyra. Then there's this nice little gesture where Rhaenyra tugs at her sleeve, which says so much.
I wish they hadn't changed Criston's character so much. His death would've been more impactful had he actually been the Kingmaker. And they should've included the famous book quote. At least they finally showed him being the greatest warrior of his time before they took him out. I wish the writers had let him die with his armor on though. Also the Blacks hiding in the woods should've rushed the field earlier instead of letting their fake dead people die for real in an even match first. That was stupid writing and tactics.
I don't understand why Daemon killed the conspirator. Should've questioned him. Even if it doesn't work, you have to at least make the attempt to get other names. Letting your frustration get the better of you is foolish.
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House of the Dragon S03E03 thoughts (mostly about Daeron)
I really liked this episode.
Though I liked season 1, it did rush through things. I would've liked to see more of Rhaenyra and Alicent growing up together and the ill will slowly developing over time before we got a final time jump. Or seeing Jace spend more time in the North.
I wish this show's pacing was like this episode more often. It's a fantasy show with money behind it. We don't want a summary, we want to soak in the world. Spoilers below.
The fake Daeron plot only sort of worked for me. It's clever in a way for the Hightowers, but it also makes no sense that Daemon didn't use the one simple tool he had to determine whether that was Daeron or not: the dragon sitting right there at the beginning of the episode. All he had to do was say, "Ok buddy boy, simple task, get on your dragon and fly on your dragon to King's Landing and I'll escort the first part of the journey." I'm not sure if I missed it, but what exactly happened to Tessarion after the opening scene of the episode? Surely they didn't allow her to stay with the Hightower army? Because it would make sense for them to keep a potential enemy dragon close at home, in the Dragonpit where they can keep an eye on it under guard perhaps, not roaming around the Reach riderless, potentially acting as a fleet-in-being.
They are really committed to Alicent going along with what Rhaenyra wants. Because a more surehanded Alicent (like book Alicent) would've run with that situation with that unknown kid, hugging them, kissing them, a few soft words; really, it wouldn't have taken much to fool Rhaenyra. At least not until the roots start showing from the dye job. (Edit: funnily enough, there's a Corlys line this episode about sea trade that can also double for this dye job: "It will take time for the routes[/roots] to be reestablished"). It would've been a delicious character moment for Alicent.
The writers have really set everything against Rhaenyra with the treasury gone. They've truly circled to that Aragorn tax policy quote that GRRM uses. And there's not enough food, not enough remaining ships to protect trade routes. This house is falling apart!
All in all, this season is much better than season 2. I still have problems with some of the writing changes not making much sense, but at this point I am resigned to the fact that the TV writers are doing something very different with Rhaenyra and Alicent's characters.
Edit: Ok, to preserve the surprise the writers don't really talk about Tessarion until the end of the episode so we're left to fill in the blanks. It's not very clear, but I think another possibility is that maybe the dragonkeepers were supposed to somehow transport Tessarion to King's Landing. I assume in chains on ground transport or something? Big-ass wagon? No way would a dragon put up with being constrained to a wagon that bounces at every bump in the dirt road for a long ride. And you'd need horses that wouldn't be too scared to pull this... dragon wagon. So that leaves just walking the distance? Again, the writers don't really mention any of this. And then the dragonkeepers got attacked on the way there in Tumbleton by the Greens. I mean do dragonkeepers really have the same sort of rapport or control over dragons that a dragon rider would? Do dragons even willingly do long distance walking? Or would they get restless and fly off? Could the Blacks not have assigned one of their dragonriders to accompany the Tessarion escort? It's been years since I've read the books so my lore is rusty. Is there actually any transport of dragons by non-dragon riders in the books? I find this sort of thing hard to believe. The Blacks have multiple dragons there, they could've taken down Daeron if he tried to fly away on a test flight. I don't know, I'm just more confused now. The more I think about it, the more I have to conclude that the writers just intended for Daemon to be okay with Tessarion remaining with the Hightower army, which makes no sense. This plot twist gets a thumbs-down from me.
Not sure why I still remember this, but in the second grade there was this girl named Brandi or Brandy who everyone else in my class thought was weird and gross.
Kids would talk about how weird and gross she was to her face or in hearing distance. And that was just the start of the bullying.
The only specific saga to her weirdness I can remember is that once on the playground at recess she picked up a stick and bit it lightly sideways for a second (think Bugs Bunny and a carrot). Tale of her doing that got around quickly and was played up. I never really thought she was that weird except that all the other kids kept saying she was. I really can't remember why else she was weird, but the reasons were probably dumb anyway. And it bled through to other classes in our grade too who could interact with her at recess. The bullying eventually evolved from talking to silence. She was being shunned pretty bad.
This might be main character syndrome but the way I remember it, I was the last kid to sort of treat her normally. Maybe not quite her last friend... maybe just her last real acquaintance. But one day I started shunning her too, no real reason, just because everyone else was, so at that point no one was really talking to her.
One day at the start of the school day my teacher called the attention of everyone in our class and informed us that because of the bullying, Brandy's parents had decided to pull her out of our school and transfer her to a different school so she could get a fresh start.
It came as a complete surprise to me. My teacher didn't take the time to comment on it or impart a lesson. She just left it like that. My memory's foggy, I can't remember if Brandy was there in class on the day we were being told but if she was then she didn't really say anything and left school immediately after. I think not. I think she essentially already had her last day with us and we never saw her again. There was no, "Is there anything you would want to do differently?" from the teacher. There was no chance given to make amends. It wasn't like a PBS cartoon.
But I remember sitting there at my desk, 7 years old, thinking to myself, "Wait, can't we say sorry? All the reasons were so little and stupid. And the fix would be so easy. Can't we tell her we would stop bullying her and then maybe she and her parents would change their minds and give us another chance and everyone would be her friend and it would all work out happily?" And I honestly got the feeling that maybe all the other kids in my class were thinking the exact same thing, maybe even the people who bullied her the worst. But there was no second chance for us. I always kind of wished that I had been a braver 7-year-old and not gone with the crowd, but maybe that's main character syndrome talking again. Maybe I wouldn't have made a difference at all. Maybe she saw me as no different from the rest of her bullies in the end. The rugpull of not getting a chance to say anything else to her, apology or otherwise, that awful feeling of that day has stuck with me, decades later, about a girl I barely even knew.
Ok, I lied in the first line. I know exactly why I remember this. The moral of the story is to be kind.
Hi! I recently came across your blog and really enjoyed reading your thoughts on Spirited Away — they were super insightful and clearly written, which really helped me understand the film better.
I was wondering what you think of
“To what extent does Hayao Miyazaki’s Spirited Away use fantasy and the manipulation of time and space to explore identity as an evolving construct shaped by memory, emotional reconciliation, and the journey from childhood to maturity, and how does the creator use medium-specific techniques to portray the tension between escapism and emotional truth?”
Would love to hear your perspective, especially since your writing shows such a strong grasp of the film’s deeper themes. :)
Thanks in advance, and hope you’re having a great day!
That's a very fancy question. Almost sounds like a homework question. :P I don't think I can cover every aspect of it but I'll take a quick crack at what I think I can answer. Because reading it did make me realize something about how the movie functions, so thank you for the question. I'm specifically interested in speaking of the genre-specific techniques of fantasy rather than the medium-specific techniques of animation.
There are dual narratives occurring in Spirited Away--a grounded narrative and a fantastical narrative.
The beginning of the movie shows us the beginning of Chihiro's grounded story: Chihiro, a 10-year-old girl, is moving. That's a scary time when one feels unsettled. Doubts about if one will like a new place, a new house, a new school, whether they will make any friends or be ostracized, unfinished business or friendships left behind in the old place (having a favorite teacher can feel meaningless when you are learning that life means you sometimes have to leave favorite persons behind), etc. The list of doubts goes on and on for a child who doesn't have adult problems like paying the bills to worry about. A child's social life is almost their world entire. It really gets the butterflies going in the stomach.
Chihiro's a well-behaved child. She certainly doesn't lash out strongly at her parents. But it's possible she feels a sense of inner betrayal from the people who are supposed to make her feel safe and happy (now, granted, parents can become problematic helicopter parents if they shield their kids from all surprises in life, but I digress). They are introducing her to the uncomfortable feeling of uncertainty now through this move, perhaps the first major shakeup of her young life. She'll have doubts about her place in the world. Perhaps in her old life Chihiro was a girl whose best friend was Mindy, or whose favorite teacher was Ms. Tanaka, or whose favorite cubby for her personal effects was the lower left one, or whose favorite tree in the park was the leaning one. But now she is unmoored. Who is she if those things from her old life cannot be used to define her anymore? This ties very well into how the antagonist Yubaba takes people's names, changing our protagonist to Sen for the majority of the film as she struggles with that question.
This is the central growth arc of the entire movie--Chihiro accepting this move and that life will throw the unexpected at you. That change is the only constant. In the English-language version, she definitively succeeds and at the end of the movie has become more emotionally mature or resilient. She can live with and move past the unsettled feeling that life will present her at times. Because she conquers herself, she does not need to become some rebellious or sulky adolescent at the end of the movie taking things out on her poor parents, who, after all, are just making the best decision for the whole family. She will approach her new home in earnest, instead of looking for things to dislike about it. There will be no trouble adjusting.
I find that the fantasical narrative of the movie supports the grounded narrative. How? By utilizing the fear of the unknown, which unlocks a similar psychosomatic sensation to feeling unsettled during a big move or other life change, in both Chihiro and us the viewers.
When we as viewers or readers enter a fantasy world, we don't quite know what to expect. We have to learn the rules of the new fantasy world. By navigating that unknown world, we too get an unsettled feeling as we witness day turn to night and strange spirits start to move about the bathhouse. They're visually spooky. We don't know what their deal is, whether they are dangerous or friends, if you die here do you die in the real world, are we stuck here forever, etc. The unknown creates in us an unsettled feeling that mirrors Chihiro's own unsettled feeling, in both her grounded (I have to move) and fantasical (holy cow my parents are pigs now how do I get them back!?) narratives. This is especially true for Western audiences unfamiliar with Shintoism or other aspects of Japanese folklore such as the very idea of being spirited away to another realm to learn some lesson.
Nominally her parent's fantastical reconciliation is with learning not to take food from the spirit world without asking. Bad manners. But I'd argue this might actually be a stand-in for Chihiro's more grounded problem with her parents, which, again, is that they are choosing to uproot the family. They are exposing Chihiro's anxious, immature self to uncertainty. That's their real breach of trust, rather than decorum, for her. That's why the three of them are locked in the limbo of the bathhouse spirit world as she decides what to do with them all. Will their family dynamics remain healthy, or will they be thrown into chaos for the next few years?
There's a strong narrative consonance between these dual narratives from that psychosomatic overlap. That's why a new fantasy world with freaky spirits was the perfect choice for replicating that unsettled feeling from the move. Examples of other media that utilize a similar grounded/fantastical or inner world approach but fail are Zack Snyder's Sucker Punch (2011) and the anime Black Rock Shooter. They lack the same gripping connection between their dual worlds.
As for memory, which was also mentioned in your question, I suppose the interesting choice the creator makes is that Chihiro does not spend much time in the movie recalling the past, or even aspects of the home she is leaving behind. The one prominent example I can think of is near the end, when Chihiro recalls falling into a river when she was young. When she remembers the name of this Kohaku River, that restores Haku's name to him. Other than that, she is very much preoccupied with dealing with plot hurdles in the present, or being anxious about the future.
Some gifs and captions of the stair scene to finish off the thematic talk:
Moving is literally scary. In this case it's not the unknown. It's the simple primal fear of heights that creates the unsettled feeling in the pit of one's stomach.
These stairs are part of the bridge between childhood and adulthood; they aren't ever going to be child-sized and comfortable to walk.
Ready or not, all there is to do is to stumble, or take a leap of faith, and it's definitely gonna hurt.
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Where is the background where I yell at my neopet to clean their room!?
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If they ever made a beat 'em up/side scroller with the Bear characters, Mikey's ammunition would totally be forks. Melee, thrown, whatever. Too close for forks, I'm switchin' to hands. Scott Pilgrim aesthetic.
Boy oh boy when you open up a Bear episode and it's an hour long you know you're in for a treat, the best the creators think they've got, and this delivered. Just banger after banger.
The hiding-out talk in the kitchen between Carmy and Bob Odenkirk's character was masterful, one of the best in the series. Good writing surprises you while staying believable. That Mikey and Lee actually got on good terms after the fork incident was a believable surprise to me. Some people are intense but can actually patch things up easily. So much pain bubbling under the surface for most of the convo but ultimately it got Carmy some much needed closure. From freaking Lee of all people.
Richie and Frank both sharing their insecurities with each other was great. The under-the-table scene was wholesome and magical. Yeah, they probably should've limited the number of characters under there for intimacy. But it's still one of the visuals of the entire series that will stand out the most with me, along with that damn dinner table with the thrown fork.
Let me tell you, I was struggling with whether to end this meme with Shinji, Carmy, or Cousin.
And even that scene at the end with Richie and Tiff dancing together. The reaction shot of her is so quick but just the emotions that play over her face. And him letting her hide her face in his chest. So good.
I'm glad we didn't get any blowups this episode. The characters deserve some unmitigated happiness. Dammit, so do the viewers.
While I enjoyed the end point of the Al-Anon woman's monologue (chaotic brother saying he did water the plants, as well as Carmy empathizing with someone else in the group), I thought it took way too much runtime for it to get there. I know the directors/showrunner like these longtakes to give an actor an opportunity to really sink into a monologue, but it seemed like the director was trying to replicate the longtake monologue Carmy had in one of these same meetings from an earlier season, and it just seemed like a weaker echo.
Not an acting criticism either as I thought the actress did a good job.
The Frank Lloyd Wright house/museum montage didn't work for me either. It just seemed boring. I get that it's good for Carmy to have a life outside of the restaurant business, and that everyone needs inspiration, or to be searching for a sense of place or rootedness. But the shots just seemed unconnected and therefore didn't land for me. Marcus experiencing Copenhagen in an earlier season landed much better for me, perhaps because he was in a new environment, learning, getting out of his comfort zone. Perhaps it would've been better to focus on learning about one Frank Lloyd Wright building or feature in particular and how that one thing spoke to Carmy and why.
I'm not entirely sure how to feel about the writers bringing back old faces to give viewers a jolt of excitement. From the Ever crew to Luca in this episode... I mean, excellent writing would mean writers can give excitement and surprise from the main crew of characters. There isn't a need to reach for an old face. (Remember that the Ever crew and Luca were once new faces.) It can be... a writing/showrunning crutch. I'll have to see how they're utilized over the rest of the season before I can definitively say that's what's happening here.
After sabotaging everyone with the ever-changing menu, Carmy has finally come to his senses. And all it took was leaving him with no real choice because of the farmers' orders. It was the most obvious self-sabotage, which every viewer saw coming from the earlier seasons. When you're working with many line chefs/servers who are not used to the gourmet scene, it just never made much sense to start off with that modus operandi. Carmy probably could've built his team up to the challenge of a changing menu, had he started off with a set menu in the first place.
This reaction came out somewhat negative. I'm still enjoying the show overall despite my quibbles with this episode.
1-dimensionality of Claire Dunlap (The Bear season 4 spoilers)
A romantic relationship for Carmy isn't a bad thing for a show like the Bear. It doesn't have to be all restaurant for Carmy. The themes of the show are also about how to work through trauma. And being able to have a healthy romantic relationship can also feed that theme.
They just did a bad job writing it with Claire, who's just so perfect and all the other characters will tell you about how perfect she is too. They should've written a character who feels realistic. The writers cooked her up in a lab, not kitchen, to be the peace for Carmy.
And therein lies the problem. We don't say that Jimmy represents Charity for Carmy. Or that Luca represents Grace. Or Marcus Fidelity. That's because they're their own grounded people not defined by Carmy, not so easy to be boiled down to one thing. Claire is not like that. Claire very much is constructed for Carmy.
They're pots of soup with depth of flavor. Claire is just stock. She needs more to be a meal. Yeah, sorry for the cooking metaphor. I thought it fitting, considering the terrain.
As it stands it doesn't feel like she has anything going on in her own life outside of the hospital and Carmy. She was created for his story arc (specifically about how his trauma prevents him from thriving in a normal relationship with a well-adjusted person), not for one of her own. Hell, even scenes about her dealing with her residency and own life's problems, having other potential suitors but not pursuing them because of her hangups with Carmy, could've helped make her feel like her own realized, separate character. Marcus had his grandmother, his pastry-chef-development. Syd has her dilemma with the two restaurants, her relationship with her father. But Claire feels like her own island with only tenuous links to this world.
The writers tried to rectify that this season with Claire interacting with the non-Carmy characters more. They even gave her the big hospital comfort scene with Syd. But it's obvious the writers did that to rescue Claire's character too. Another character with links to Syd comforting Syd instead would've resonated so much more. Similar to her being helpful with the kid under the table at the wedding situation. Look how helpful she is swooping in! The writers want us to love her. But it's flaws and imperfections that make people get attached to characters. Wabi-sabi.
Getting into the wider analysis landscape, I will certainly concede that there's a lot of misogyny in society and female characters are far more likely to get writing criticisms of all sorts, including Mary Sue accusations. But I don't think that's where I'm coming from.
A romantic subplot could've added more to the show had the love interest been more interesting. It was unrealized potential.
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Someone made this comment on another website defending AI art: "it is a tool. Only the result is important, not the path. The biggest trait of artist is knowing when to stop, when the art is finished, and his satisfaction with the piece is showing the level of his talent and artistic intelligence. The attempts which artist throws into trash, the way he knows what looks and feels good, his taste, is actually what makes a great artist. Not the type of brushes he´s using."
It rankled me so I responded with this:
The path is important. If you look at art progress pics it shows a certain human determination to push through when one's skills are not there yet, to slowly hone one's skills over the years until they are finally capable of the vision an artist has in their head. That's very human and it's what AI artists lack in their art.
Taste is an important part of an artist's mind or heart, but when it comes to an AI artist I'd hesitate to call it talent on their part. They are not the artist themselves. They are not the ones who are making the brushstrokes. If anything they are more similar to patrons of Renaissance Italy, only they are commissioning AI instead of a human being. Yes, the taste and commissions of those rich patrons were a vital part of the art scene, but they were not the artists themselves making it happen. In the same sense, it is the AI that is actually creating the art, not the AI "artist."
I have taste which feeds into my appreciation of art, but I am content with that. I would not say that that taste makes me an artist. Because I don't put in a prompt and pretend that I am the creator, slapping my name on a piece I didn't work for. It was the churn of computer processors and memory that labored for AI art.
There's a huge difference between a real artist scrapping ten pieces of artwork that don't meet their standards and an AI artist "scrapping" a hundred pieces of artwork that don't meet their "standards." There's nothing to the AI artist scrapping artwork. They're not killing their darlings. The scrapped pieces of work are nothing personal to them, they feel absolutely no ownership of these failures.
Never failed; never tried. The AI artist has never dared to sit with failure.