Lost in Carcosa

It's nuts how common it is to not allow children to be angry, even (especially) in households where adults are angry all the time. As a child I knew my own anger was unacceptable--not just expressing it outwardly but feeling it at all. So now as an adult my immediate reaction to my own anger is often to feel guilt instead of like. Noticing when someone is being rude or unfair or my boundaries are being violated or whatever. fucked up.

A cat is a machine that turns proteins into violence.

if daniel molloy CRASHES OUT next episode it will be 100% JUSTIFIED because if the FREAKY ANCIENT CREATURESQUE ORANGE-BOBA-PEARL-ORBED VAMPIRE BOTTOM TWINK who PSYCHOLOGICALLY TORTURED me for SIX (6) DAYS in SAN FRANCISCO and then LARPED as a MEMBER OF THE WORKING CLASS in my VAMPIRE INTERVIEWEE/ATTEMPTED MURDERER/VERY BRIEF CRUSH'S PENTHOUSE SUITE in dubai FIFTY YEARS LATER and then REVEALED HIMSELF to be said interviewee's INSANELY POWERFUL COMPANION and then CONTINUED EYE-FUCKING me while i INTERVIEWED my SUBJECT about his SITUATIONSHIP OF DOOM AND DESPAIR and then after i REMEMBERED my REPRESSED MEMORIES of the PSYCHOSEXUAL TORTURE I SUFFERED AT HIS HANDS he looked at me and gave me a HALF ASSED APOLOGY and THEN, after i'd REVEALED that he'd ORCHESTRATED HIS ENTIRE RELATIONSHIP with my SUBJECT and MURDERED his DAUGHTER/SISTER/THROWPILLOW (which I did ENTIRELY for SHITS AND GIGS), he turned me into a VAMPIRE on a JETPLANE while the plane was flying over NEW JERSEY, FUCKED OFF into the night for TWO YEARS, and then told me he'd been IN LOVE WITH ME for the MAJORITY of my MORTAL LIFE and WIPED ALL OF MY MEMORIES of our TORRID LOVE AFFAIR -- well. I think i'd need to develop an addiction to something strong enough to keep myself from committing mass murder

I actually love the Louis and Regina subplot because it really is a continuation of the way Louis has always treated women, as a source of emotional labour that he can throw money at and have them make him feel better. It’s Miss Lily all over again, it’s “paying a whore to sit in a room and talk with him”. Making Claudia was always about Louis’ feelings under the pretence of saving her from the fire. He wants to save Regina from poverty but it’s all to make himself feel better. She sees through him but she’s so broke that she can’t afford to say no

imagine being called a bottom twink by the kid who moaned when you telekinesis-ed him to his knees in the 70s. armand should be worse

artists fuck better because we turn sex into art, masterpieces, mattresses become canvases where we can paint our love to someone with bodies.

its like, impossible to come up with anything funnier than the experience of seeing this post

pharoahs fuck better because they ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh put the pussy in a scarmophogoghs