Ash

This whole blog is just a conversation I am having with myself

I will probably get through this just like I have gotten through everything before but I need to be really stressed and scared first

hot girl summer but only in air conditioned spaces

childhood friends to complete strangers

you don’t realize how important lunch is until you’re wandering around thinking about how unloveable and untalented and uniquely cursed you are and then it’s 4pm and you finally eat lunch and you go Oh. oh right.

The truth is I just want more financial freedom so I can buy high quality skincare, buy quality pieces and form a classic capsule wardrobe, travel and see the world, spoil my friends and family, gain access to any hobby i want ever, never rely on anyone ever, nourish myself with good food, buy all the books i want ever, and do anything I want forever

How am I supposed to believe I’m worthy of love if I’ve had to beg for it my whole life?

does anyone know how girls who are scared to do anything can impact the world positively ?

i just figured out how to save the world. all we have to do is find and excise the undesireables. i mean just look at how much good all the examples of it in the past have done *opens history book* oops not that one *flips page* oops not that one *flips page* oops not that one *flips page* oops not that one *fli

airpods are literally such a massive downgrade like remember when headphones cost £2 didn’t need charging didn’t randomly disconnect and didn’t get lost all the time. remember when tech kinda worked for kinda cheap

remember when phones just fucking had headphone jacks

can we just skip to the part where I’m about to marry the love of my life and I’m financially stable and happy & all this shit is behind me already

It’s literally like…… help!! lol. help me!!!! haha.

no one says big mood anymore. no one even says mood. no one says anything. all thats left is a dry wind, that scours my face until i bleed