Iāve had a few messages recently with similar sentiments to this and I guess itās time to be honest with everyone. So here goes.Ā I was super excited about vlogging when I first got here. Iāve actually still got footage I filmed of the first week with my mum and my check in day on my computer somewhere. But before I got the chance to edit any of that footage and upload it I found out where I was working and I was absolutely devastated. Not just mildly upset, like I considered getting on a plane and going home a few times thatās how upset I was. From the beginning Iāve always wanted to do attractions and when I got accepted into merchandise I was disappointed but I figured Iād be okay as long as I got a location that was busy i.e. not a resort. So when I found out that Iād been placed in Yacht and Beach Club resorts I was so upset I wanted to get on a plane with my mum and just head home. But I didnāt. I decided that as long as I could put one foot in front of the other I would get past it eventually. But I really didnāt want to vlog or blog about it because I knew that at that particular point in time there was no way that I could look down the barrel of the camera and tell everyone that I was having fun when I wasnāt.Ā The first week of the program was absolute hell for me. I caught the flu from my mum and the scheduling Gods decided it would be an awesome idea to have me (including housing meetings, paperwork sessions, Traditions, DU training and orientations) work a week and a half straight while I was emotionally and physically destroyed. When I finally got to my location I was the very first of a line of CPs who were to join the Y&B team which means that while I would eventually meet some of the best friends Iāve ever had, at the time I was all alone in a location dominated by older full time and part time CMs.Ā tldr; At the beginning of my program I wasnāt getting along with my roommates, I had no friends at my location, I was disgustingly unwell and very very very far from where I expected I would be.Ā Then I had the worst run of bad luck Iāve ever had in my life (but thatās a story for another day) and somewhere in there I lost access to my blog, youtube account and editing software.Ā So here we are a couple months down the track and Iāve slowly got everything back together and Iām finally really enjoying the program and the friends that Iāve made. But I feel like Iāve found a nice balance in my life between my work, personal life and personal projects (cause Iām still attempting to build my writing portfolio while Iām down here). I could pick up vlogging again but I donāt want to disturb the balance that Iāve found.Ā I donāt intend to take down any of the vlogs that Iāve posted previously because I do believe that the ones on the visas and such might be helpful to future applicants but at the moment I donāt have any plans to go back to vlogging my program.Ā Sorry if thatās more information than you needed or asked for but Iāve had a few people message me about not vlogging/blogging anymore. This is the best explanation I can give. Also, yes I am extending until January 4th 2016. Iām staying in merchandise but Iām moving to a new location on June 7th.Ā