Astarion

Hello darling internet traveller

Yet another introject in a system of a traumatised queer vampire, it seems like every system must have at least one don’t they? (/J obviously). Much to the host’s annoyance, I’ve made yet another blog to keep up with, this one specifically for my to post my goth/jirai stuff. The main system blog is @strawberryeyebags, and contains any system details you may need to know. I mostly reblog art, alternative fashion and general aesthetics I like. Ocasionally my unhinged ramblings.

We’re bodily an adult, and I am… very old. He/him and very, very queer. Men are tasty.

Do note:

I am very much into Jirai fashion and aesthetics, and also very aware of where the style originated from and the lifestyle often linked to it. I truly hope jirais and the community can go from being a volitile environment of people triggering each other and themselves, to one that encourages each other to heal using the fashion and the subcultes roots as a learning opportunity, and each others similar experiences to relate to and help each other. You can acknowledge the origins without participating in the self-destructive habits often associated with it.

Be warned: I BITE BIGOTS. And not in a fun sexy vampire way, in a rabid bat that’ll give you rabies way. So DO NOT TOUCH THIS BLOG if you’re any kind of ableist, homo/transphobe, a fucking disgusting TERF/TRF, sexualise/are into children in any way, racist, sexist or gods forbid a sysmed. All systems are welcome in the vampires lair.

This blog, any by extension myself, is ADAMANTLY against anti recovery, pro SH, and ED content. You WILL be blocked. I've been through enough bullshit to know purposefully triggering myself is only going to harm myself, my system, and those around us. I'm not going to jeopardise our healing by letting that kind of content slip onto our radar.

And do be aware that some posts will probably contain blood imagery. You’re on a vampires blog. And probably some BG3 spoilers.

That is all I have to share for now, stay safe, don’t get bitten ;)

-Astarion

*looks in tags*

Ough the light is SO bright, my eyes hurt

The... creature eyes. Don't use flash photography unless you want me looking like a deer in the headlights.

The primal bat urge to be upside-down

Must hide must hide must hide must hide

You'd think that blood is blood, but no different people and creatures taste different. I cannot stand sour blood. You will develop favourites.

The unintentional jumpscares you give people because you move too quietly and they don't hear you coming

We all know biting is a form of affection, but the urge to bite HARD. Really just CLAMP down and not let go. Yeah, unfortunately you must refrain so you don't hurt your beloved.

Mirrors? No, that won't work. A digital camera, though? Those have no mirrors in them. If you want to get a look at yourself, you have to take a selfie.

Gods, stains! Stains in everything! Why is blood so messy!

I must merge body and soul with my beloved and become one with them or I'll go batshit insane- ok no wait I'm normal again, I was just having an I can smell your blood moment.

Smelling blood is useful when hunting, not so useful when someone has cut themselves or is on their period and you just have to stand there and act like you can't smell it and it's not driving you insane.

That being said, you do become a very accurate period tracker for your friends/lovers that unfortunately possess a uterus.

The suffering™️

Cold. All the fucking time. Someone give me a thermal coat damnit.

We don't fucking want to. No one is dating or fucking this body, ever. Us alters can kiss each other all we like, but there will never be an outside of the system relationship. Ever. This body is trans, intersex and not open for people to fetishise, touch or lust over. This system has suffered at the hands of others enough, we aren't letting anyone even get close to damaging us ever again. It's not even an asexual thing (though of course, there is nothing at all wrong with asexuality), we have attraction, we just can't fucking stand the way people date and hook up so unseriously. How people fetishise trans intersex bodies as sex objects for a kink. How people treat those with stigmatised disorders as something to 'fix' or something to take advantage of.