Painting Of A Panic Attack Lyrics That Alter My Brain Chemistry
Death Dream
"an open mouth screams and makes no sound" "i don't know if there's breathing or not" "a still life is the last i will see of you" "my painting of a panic attack"
Get Out
"i'm in the arch of the church between her thumb and her forefinger, i'm a worshipper" "she's an uncut drug" "and for a minute i was floating dead above myself" "saw a glimmer in the dark and now i know she won't get out of my heart" "there's a name on my chest in red" "and i don't want you to get out of my heart"
I Wish I Was Sober
"we all thought that i might change as i got older" "fell down and nothing bled" "its far too late to talk so much" "forgive me i can't speak straight" "choke down the gateway drug, open the gates in came the flood" "my love you should know the best of me left hours ago" "i can't unsink the things i've sunk" "i wish that i was sober"
Woke Up Hurting
"daybreak comes with the devil's hum" "show me the door i need somewhere to go" "i woke up with dirty knees not for the first time" "i woke up hurting though i can't quite say why" "run sacred rivers up my sleeve" "i live for a beam of light" "we should pray for abduction, pray it comes soon" "plans for heaven or hell will do"
Little Drum
"i hurried home in orbit close to where i know i'm fine" "i waited for the crash to come" "too many days with too little to do" "so many days spent in empty rooms" "and then it strikes this all we've lived this long but only ever half alive" "its too late for a wasted youth" "its too late to wage a war"
Still Want To Be Here
"the perfect place may never exist" "the perfect time might be years and years away" "i still want to be here" "i would live in a devils ditch just to be near you" "nowhere to run to so we hide like mislaid infants" "fuck these faceless homes and everyone who lives in them" "i would live in a shallow pit just to be near you"
An Otherwise Disappointing Life
"i have a long list of tepid disappointments it doesn't mention you" "i don't need water i just want to wave goodbye, goodbye to an otherwise disappointing life" "i took a pain pill to scrape a hole we both could get lost in and cover love's bruise" "so lay upon me and push until its all forgotten, there are worse ways to lose you" "i have a long list of tepid disappointments and you should burn that too"
Break
"forgot to bend and now i've broken all we have" "nothings worse than realizing who you hurt" "over the edge i cant stop myself, off the ledge throwing punches" "i can't steer myself" "all over again i don't want this" "if i bend then i might not break" "if i bend then it might be okay" "can we pick up all the debris of our bitter past?"
Blood Under The Bridge
"clean out your mouth, this is not what its for" "pick up your sorrow this is not who we are" "its just blood under the bridge" "i'm too tired to fight" "watch the blood under the bridge go by" "so tie your ragged fuck-ups in a neat little knot and put it on the shelf behind the picture we bought" "i found a way to make the best of a flaw and realize its not the end its an uncomfortable pause" "and youre sick of feeling sick and so am i but its alright"
400 Bones
"400 bones crumpled in bed, i'm the only one who knows that you're still breathing" "this afternoon is one i will be keeping" "we're passing out inside a sleeping mausoleum" "this is my safe house in the hurricane" "this is what i'm living for, forever coming home" "you as my horizon line, the star i navigate by" "on absent days i will return to this place and play a silent color film within my head"
Lump Street
"though breath is warm, sex is cold" "each piece is fired inside a broken mould" "do you want more unshapely love?" "she tore his tongue out at the end of lump street" "she liked the see the blood beneath his skin" "he wore her muscles, kissed all of the bruising away" "hes a full grown man, no shoulder to cry on" "raised by wolves and they taught him to bite down hard" "scars like armor" "raised by the state but they tore it all down" "they fucked and they fought but it still felt right" "run away from these orange lump street lights" "there is life beyond the one you already know"
Die Like A Rich Boy
"i need to find somebody who can tear me away from the car crying babies and switchblade days" "i won't die in the bony arms of the state to be laid to rest in the wake of the faded town" "i can see you wrapped in egyptian threads in a marble garden, immune to the mess" "if i leave this world in a loaded daze i could finally have and eat my cake" "i want to die like a rich boy diving in a hydrocodone dream" "wanna die like a rich boy drowning in a lake that bears my name, you can die like a rich girl by me flushed and radiant with fame" "i wanna lie in a state on the tv in a golden cardboard crown" "well i found you now so tear me away from the feral street they lumped us in" "we can lose our minds at the top of the hill" "we burn cash and carry a decadent flame way in to the night and beyond the grave"
The Wreck
"we're both sinking tonight forever it goes" "as the saltwater gushes into our ships holes don't you dare jump without me" "i'm not good on my own" "there is peace beyond trouble "im desperate to meet you below the blue surface in a quiet reprieve" "it wrecks who it pleases" "the swell pulls me under come under with me" "i've got pills in my pocket"
Wait Til The Morning
"its the usual case of the only point being proven is the one that was first made" "wait til the morning" "when no one's listening anyway" "no greater good will come of it, just wait" "stop trying to change a shovel into a spade, its all the same" "no one sees the names up on the leaderboard cause no one's in the lead" "we'll burn the fiendish effigy" "we are all designed to wax and wane" "the light will come back on again"
A Lick Of Paint
"i know you're listening, i know you're there" "we get listless and worn with age" "i can see it now, theres a crack in the paint" "it wasn't you, it didn't break, but we could use a lick of paint" "it can get like that and sometimes it should" "there's medications that we can take but they kill our judgement and strip the paint" "there is time so take some rest" "don't worry too much, it can be repaired" "it could be me who's to blame, i think i need a lick of paint"















