daphne 🐈‍⬛

losing friendships over a long time slowly is worse than one big fight that ended it all. i've lost all the things that i love about her slowly and where i once used to find reasons to love her over and over again, i now find myself questioning if i changed or she did. our silences have gone from content to uneasy and we second guess everything. i have a million different things to gush about to her and a million different things to rage at her for. there is not a person on this earth that i am more curious of and yet i despise even the sound of her name from anyone else. the most silly things remind me of her - petrol bunks, orange juice and our song. she makes me unreasonably confused and yet at the end of the day all i wish for is to laugh with her over lunch.