the words you said will remain trapped in my heart forever.

“Don’t act like you lost me. You pushed me away every time I tried to stay.”

I have a crippling addiction to yearning and I need you to fill the void.

I wanted this to be forever.

Can’t sleep. Can’t wake up. Can’t remember the last time I felt like myself. My thoughts are loud but my mind is empty. Food doesn’t taste the same anymore. Conversations feel far away, like I’m watching my own life happen without me. I’m tired in a way sleep doesn’t fix. Days blur together until weeks disappear. It’s Monday, then somehow it’s Sunday again. Everyone else keeps moving forward, and I’m standing still, pretending I’m okay while quietly losing pieces of myself I don’t know how to get back.

i wonder what it's like to have a quiet mind