No Holding Back

You cut my strings

Fashioned my wings

Taught me to fly

Through the darkness

Reality doesn’t feed me

So my dreams are providing

I wanna stay under longer

But the sunlight is blinding

I’m replaying the mirages

Of you holding me tightly

Clinging to the euphoria

Of you smiling beside me

Such a far cry from our real life

All rainbows without sunshine

I’m all yours in the next life

I trust that’s when I’ll be free

For now I’ll take what I can get

The trouble with nostalgia is

When the memories are faded

We only use our favorite colors

You held the strings to my heart

Pulled them just enough

To make my head spin

Off and on and on again

No, I wouldn’t call it love, love

Safe in your arms

I trust the pain in your grip

It won’t be long

Until your hands print on my hips

Your teeth sink into my lips

You whisper

You’ve never felt love like this

A shiver down my spine

You tighten the straps

On my wrists

Your eyes grow wide

My stomach twists

You are the master

Of turning pain

It hit me

All at once

A shattering force

These aren’t games

My heart simply

Doesn’t matter

Your lips against mine

Force me backwards

In time

Tearing old wounds

Open wide

Bittersweet feelings

Instantly revived

I may be bleeding

Routine

Pull from me

All the energy you need

Dark dreams

What could be

If I was sure enough to leave

Do you not feel it

The space between us

I’m crying, you hear it?

Maybe love isn’t enough

Never thought I’d be the one

To ruin this for us

I need out of my head

You say I think way too much

I dream of others in bed

And cry when we touch

I’m thinking too much

You’re drinking too much

But this is our

Routine

Make believe

Wants you closer

But my mind knows

The version of you

It’s created

Is something

No one could ever

How poetic a story

That refuses to end

One fate revives

After time mends

Against logic and laws

Conjured by men

I feel the universe in motion

It’s been a decade

I know that it shows

It’s clear I’m not the same girl you let go

I keep the old version of you

In my mind

We pick up where we left off

Every time I close my eyes

Wonderful tricks my mind plays on me

In the still of the night

You seem like more than a dream

But the sun pulls me back

Into this reality

And I wonder if one day

Distant notes in harmony

Chords never meant to be strewn

Hearts that beat in perfect sync

To a deep and longing tune

More restless than the sea

Domani non ti cercherò

Non penserò alle cose mi hai detto

Tomorrow I will let you go

Loosen my grip on what’s left of your shadow

Mi permetterò di dimenticarti

Stop dreaming and hoping

Ma non oggi

You were so quick to spill

Time stopping confessions

Each ripping through walls

Though I tried not to let them

Caged emotions released

With no regard to how we’d catch them

Still - your eyes grow wide

At this mess we’re left with

Please, tell me love

Lie to me

I don’t want the truth

Swear to me

We’ll speak again soon

Don’t take hope

When you leave your goodbye

Let it fade slow

I miss you

Though I’ll never confess it

Keeping my distance

Just like you requested

Space and silence

Your new torture for me

But this void cuts deep

Careful what you wish for

Watch your thoughts and desires

Are you prepared for the heat

When those sparks turn to fire

Will the flames revive you

Or leave you burned and blinded

Careful what you wish for