Dome Of Silence

Who am I to tell me who I am when you’ve taken all of me?

Old habits die hard, once again I’m back to my suicidal thoughts.

For once in my life, I just want to be good enough.

It’s cold, it’s 3 a.m. and I’m haunted by your voice. Unable to sleep, unable to forget, unable to move on.

I’m filled to the brim with emotions that all I have left is a hollow space in my chest

I just want to be held by your arms once again, just once again, I want to feel like I’m home.

I am truly, undoubtedly, absolutely alone in this world. The people who pretend they care don’t even pretend anymore. I have never felt more lonely than I do in this moment.

It hurts more to live than to die because I’m a failure who just can’t get anything right.

I was so close today, so close. I even wrote the goodbye letters and had the blade to my pulse, yet I couldn’t bring myself to do it. Coward.

Do you know how much it sucks? How it sucks that you can try and try and try but you’ll never be good enough. Not even close.

I always said I live to die. There is no point to life because nothing really matters, does it?

I guess I’ll always be an idiot when it comes to you.

I tried, I really really did. Can you blame me for eventually getting tired?

I left you because I break everything I touch.

And after all this time, even though I promised to “not give a damn”, I still cry when you forget me.

I have turned into everything I despised because it was the only way I could survive.

I became the monster I swore to protect myself from.