⋮ ⌗ I SAY I CAN MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD┆
⋮ ⌗ 🏷️┆ sensitive! reader x jackie jackson, smut, oral (m receiving), verbal abuse, intense emotions, secret established relationship.
⋮ ⌗ doleuia┆ur allowed to take inspiration, but pls dont copy my entire work or republish it, not proofread. robbed yall from the full smut just bc im so mf lazyyy sorry.
"you ain't hitting that turn sharp enough, jackie. i saw you on the tape from the show you sloppy, and if you sloppy, the whole line looks sloppy!"
joseph’s voice rang through the bedroom, booming with a harsh, heavy weight as you sat crouched inside the dark, cramped space of jackie’s closet, surrounded by the heavy scent of his cologne and the slick fabrics of his stage shirts, you pressed your hands over your ears. through the slats of the closet door, you could see the rigid silhouette of jackie standing perfectly still, listening to his father rant on how he wasn't doing good enough.
"i didn't bring us all this way from gary for you to get soft now. you're the oldest. you need to act like it."
the finality of his words was followed by the slam of the bedroom door, leaving a tense silence.
the moment the door slammed, the tightness in your chest snapped. being an empath in a house full of suppressed tension was exhausting but hearing joseph speak to jackie with such cold cruelty really cut right through you.
a visible sadness washed over your face, your lips trembling into a heavy pout as you sat in the darkness.
you forced yourself to swallow down your tears, blinking furiously because you knew how much jackie hated to see you cry it only added to the burden he was already carrying.
the closet door swung open, flooding the small space with the warm amber light of his bedroom. jackie stood there, his chest still heaving slightly, but the moment his eyes fell on your pouted face that looked like you were going to break down at any second his own tense expression fell.
without a word, he reached down, gripped your waist gently, and pulled you out of the closet and straight into his chest.
"c'mere baby, i swear this gon' stop soon," he murmured, his voice softening into that protective, low tone he only used when you two were completely alone.
you buried your face in his shirt, entirely crumbling as a quiet sob escaped you. he held you tightly, letting you cry against his steady heartbeat for a long moment before gently pulling back, his large thumbs sweeping across your cheeks to wipe away the tears.
he looked down at you, clearly thinking your sensitivity was about the exhaustion of your hidden relationship and having to shove yourself into a dark closet just to see him. but you shook your head as more tears continued to spill. "no, no no, jackie! i hate the way he talks to you, it's not fair."
jackie blinked, caught completely off guard by the fact that your tears weren't for yourself, but for him. a small, faint smile tugged at the corner of his lips, a defense mechanism he used to brush off reality.
he reached out, his warm fingers gently wrapping around your chin to tilt your face up so you had no choice but to look directly into his eyes. "that aint nothin' to cry for," he murmured, his thumb stroking your jawline in a slow, reassuring rhythm. "i been stop letting what that man say get to my head, y/n. it's just business. i'm tough enough to take it."
he spoke the words with total calm, but you knew him better than that. in his household, emotions were treated like a liability. showing vulnerability meant you were weak, so jackie had spent his whole life building a wall around his feelings to protect his younger brothers.
you leaned forward colliding your lips as jackie's mouth moves over yours with a deep focus. it feels heavy, breathless, and reassuring, full of a solid, grounding heat that leaves you needy.
as he gave your chin a gentle squeeze, trying to wrap up the emotional moment with a quick glance at his wrist, he read the late 10s. "i gotta start getting you home before it gets too late, baby doll."
but looking at the subtle tiredness around his eyes, you weren't buying it. instead of moving toward the door, you slowly dropped to your knees on the carpet right in front of him. you wanted to take care of him, to give him the same overwhelming, selfless comfort he had given to you around two months ago when he first loved you with his mouth.
you looked up at him, your hands resting gently on his thighs. "please, jackie," you begged softly, your fingers beginning to slide up and down the rough denim of his jeans, rubbing his thighs in a slow, tempting rhythm.
jackie instantly caught your drift, his eyes darkening as he let out a low breath, shaking his head. "we gon' have to save that for another time, angel. I don't need that to feel better... I feel better with you just right here."
"I want to." jackie let out a strained laugh, trying to back down but clearly wavering as his hands came down to rest on your shoulders. "no. you don't even know what to do, little miss 'j-jackie! I think I'm bout' to pee,'" he mocked the panicked words from your very first orgasm.
your cheeks flared a bright crimson, and you slapped his thigh playfully. "It was my first time, that's not even funny!" you pouted, but you didn't move. you looked straight up into his eyes, letting your expression soften into a wide, doe-eyed gaze, your voice dropping to a whisper. "i'm serious. please, jackie? please?"
the heavy silence of the bedroom returned, thick and charged, as the soft carpet pressed against your knees. jackie's large hands stayed anchored on your shoulders, but his grip had shifted from a firm, defensive hold to something much more breathless. he looked down at you, his chest rising and falling beneath his patterned button down shirt as your hands continued their slow, rhythmic contrast against the rough denim of his jeans.
"you real stubborn, you know that?" he murmured, losing every ounce of its previous playfulness. the teasing grin was completely gone, replaced by a dark, intense focus that made your heart skip a beat.
he didn't pull away this time. instead, jackie slid his hands from your shoulders down to the nape of your neck, his fingers tangling gently into your hair. the warmth of his palms grounded you instantly.
slowly, he leaned back slightly against the edge of his mattress, parting his thighs just enough to invite you closer into his space.
for as long as your relationship had gotten sexual, jackie had only gone down on you twice. you had absolutely enjoyed both times, but you didn't want your routine to just be him pleasing you and leaving with nothing. thats why you were going to make sure you did this right.
jackie bit down on his lip, watching you, his angel, about to work the magic he didn't even know you had but you continued to surprise him as you reached for the sturdy silver button of his jeans. the contrast between his heavy, muscular frame and your naturally soft, sensitive nature always felt magnified, but seeing the sharp line of his jaw relax left you to pop his pants button, the metallic click sounding incredibly loud in the quiet room, followed by the slow scratch of the zipper descending.
you pulled down his jeans, gazing at the bulge that was completely defined now that it was out of the denim. moving closer, you placed your teeth right on the hem of his boxers, sliding them down slowly as you remained locked in intense eye contact.
"mm, where you learn that from, gal?" he asked, his voice thick and strained. out of all his relationships, he’d never seen that trick before. you were completely amazing him, and your mouth wasn't even on his cock yet.
but as you finished pulling down his briefs, you let out a sudden yelp. The soft slap of the heavy, dark length of him spring free from the elastic of his boxers against your cheek.
jackie's protective worries kicked in instantly, his eyebrows knitting together but before he could apologize or pull back, you let out a low, soft giggle of approval and liking, letting him know you were completely okay.
"you full of surprises, huh?" he rasped, his voice a low, dangerous rumble. his brown eyes fixed on yours with a desperate, unblinking intensity.
you didn't answer with words. instead, you leaned in closer, your sensitive nature making you aware of every single shift in his body. the way his thighs twitched beneath your palms and the heavy, uneven pattern of his breathing. slowly, deliberately, you leaned forward and let the tip of your tongue brush against the very top of him.
"fuck..." he gasped, his voice cracking. jackie's head snapped back against the mattress behind him, a low, guttural groan tearing from his throat.
a low, hungry sound vibrated in your throat, your lips parted, forming a soft 'O' and the friction of your soft lips as you took him in beginning to move your head in a slow, steady rhythm.
his eyes flew open to find yours again, desperate to keep that intense eye contact you’d started. right there... yeah, just like that," he whispered, his smooth charm completely reduced to breathless, desperate praise. "you're doing so good, angel. so good for me."
hearing his praise only made you bolder. you used your hand at his base to stroke the length while your mouth worked the top, mimicking the rhythm you had felt jackie use once. every time you went a little deeper, jackie’s chest would heave, his abdominal muscles tightening under his unbuttoned shirt as he absorbed the pure, unadulterated pleasure you were giving him.
the silence of the room was entirely replaced by the quiet, wet sounds of your affection and jackie's deep, stuttered breathing.
watching the flush creep up on your cheeks, completely captivated by the devotion in your gaze but as the friction began to take its toll, his breath hitched permanently as slid you slid your mouth off him with a slow, wet drag, a thin glisten of saliva trailing from your bottom lip to your chin as your thumb swept over the sensitive head.
jackie became completely captivated your gaze as the friction began to take its toll, his breath hitched permanently, his hips shuddering as he hit his limit.
"hold on, hold on, thats it baby," jackie panted, his hands suddenly gripping your shoulders to gently but firmly pull you back. he was shaking, his chest rising and falling rapidly as he looked down at you, his eyes dark with heat and a profound, overwhelming tenderness.
he reached down, his fingers trembling slightly as he hooked them under your arms and lifted you off the floor, pulling you up onto the bed with him. He wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling your flush against his chest as he buried his face into the crook of your neck, his hot breath tickling your skin.
"i can't let you finish me like that, not when it's your first time," he murmured, his voice a low, rumbling vibration against your skin as his heart hammered.
he squeezed you tight, a long, deeply contented sigh leaving his lips. "just let me hold you like this for a minute. you did perfect, baby. more than perfect."