Savage Animal Idiot

This is Shawn. My boyfriend.

I got gerbils! This is Henry (black) and Elliot (white) who are the newest furry members of our family!

I've been struggling with a lot of things lately, one of those being a possible eating disorder. I've gone back and forth between a few months of having a healthy appetite and then a few of barely eating at all. However, I've never felt like I have for the past few weeks. I get hungry. I want to eat. Food looks good and smells good, but as soon as I put it into my mouth, I feel nauseous. It always tastes good, but I can't eat a lot of anything without wanting to throw up because it makes me nauseous to eat. It's not because I'm scared of gaining weight or because I want to lose some. I like the weight my body is at right now. I just can't eat. I try to maintain between 145 lbs and 147 lbs to feel good about my weight. After the last few weeks I'm at 144.5 lbs, which is slightly less than my preferred weight, but it's been dropping a bit at a time. I don't know. This worries me.

So, my last post was kind of depressing, so here's what the last 4 1/2 months have been like with Jake! He's my dream come true and I love him so much.

I believe that you have the best judgement on what is going on in your brain. Doing research and discovering a term for the way you are feeling is an extremely liberating feeling, as spoken from my personal experience. I think that seeking professional/medical advice is very important to ensure that you are truly correct in your self-diagnosing, plus they can help you in treating it, but I believe most people are right in how they feel. I struggled with depression and anxiety disorders for several years, knowing full well that I had these disorders, before being officially diagnosed in late 2015. In short, I think self-dxing is an okay thing to do. You know yourself better than any doctors. However, a diagnosis is better to have than not. If you think you may have a disorder of some sort, my advice to you is to seek professional help on the matter. (Sorry if I was kind of late in answering your question. I haven't been online in a while for personal reasons)