this pain wouldn't be forevermore

Sometimes you just need to listen to the same song for an entire afternoon 

Old habits die screaming, 'cause when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone's bed, you put me on and said I was your favorite, but I still can't believe it because I knew you'd miss me when the thrill expired, and I just don't understand how you don't miss me in the shower and remember how my rain-soaked body was shaking, because you drew stars around my scars but now I'm bleeding, and even if I die screaming I hope you hear it

if i first saw your face in the 1500s off in a foreign land, and i was forced to marry another man, you still would’ve been mine, we would have been timeless. i would’ve read your love letters every single night, and run away and left it all behind, you still would’ve been mine, we would've been timeless. ‘cause i believe that we were supposed to find this. so, even in a different life, you still would’ve been mine, we would’ve been timeless.

thinking about “how gallant to save the empress from her gilded tower, swinging a sword he could barely lift” in the ttpd epilogue versus “all that time i sat alone in my tower, you were just honing your powers / now i can see it all” in the fate of ophelia

HE IS NOT WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR HE IS MORE