Ryne Figueroa

Things

I let these things control me.

Born with it from the start is what I see.

I m still not giving up faith or hope to be.

Gods in my mind and heart with parents.

Christ doing what he doing the stance it.

It’s about knowing who’s real and who isn’t.

Trying to be honest with myself please fix it.

I know it’s time to fix myself but this isn’t joy.

I m not saying to use you like a toy.

I m saying to fill with the spirit I once held.

All thanks to you as the enemy used evil first.

I just didn’t know what to do with my gift.

But I see you give you take and I give back.

For me to not believe come on man that’s wack.

It was in spirit for me to be lead to baptism.

It was in spirit to lose it for purpose.

To what I believe gaining it all back for his glory.

My mind my body my spirit that he called me to be.

Wolves and sheep’s clothing that’s hard to see as me.

But I gotta accept for what is.

The world is the world it’s his.

I want my flesh to live out life as human.

But do my mission for him as well.

Knowing is better or worse it’s true man.

Forgive me for my structure it sings.

You know what you can do.

It really is up to you.

When the tough get going go and get tough.

The preparation keys for this tough life.

God had a plan for it to be in sight.

It’s the preparation before the actual living.

Time to show up for me after doing all the giving.

I admit I m just in my mind and emotions.

Peace joy love kindness happiness what a potion.

We are just people used as a pon.

No matter what the show must go on.

Realizing that it’s like dude come on.

Flip

Everyday seems like a coin toss.

Working for a higher boss.

Knowing that it’s leading to deeper things.

Things beyond for us to be seen.

I try to make sense of it yet I rather not know.

Which is my bird eagle or crow?

That’s the sense of it the confusion.

Leaving marks for the mind contusion.

Work work work work work then sleep.

Leaving in a moment of laugh and reap.

Work not the make money kind.

Work in being a light for those to shine.

Praying for a life that god intended.

No creases no fold nothing bended.

When you least expected the good hip.

Will lead from the one above for a flip.

Butterfly Effect

Try to understand it you ll be trapped.

Awake one minute then asleep for a nap.

A world with so much power attachment.

What is made for light seems dark wrapped in.

Trying to tell if I m that darkness in other light.

The real fight is my mind is with no height.

Faces of reality then spirit is a battle.

I didn’t ask for this title.

But I did ask for purpose and peace is near.

To conquer the real issue and that’s fear.

It’s like starting over black mirror connect.

Our choices really do lead to a butterfly effect.

Inside

When something eats away at us and we still live.

That’s gods chances as he keeps the give.

Pure intentions and pure hearts are given.

But those who are broken in the heart is risen.

Something’s just have to go away in this life.

I will continue to pray for an actual wife.

Because a family is what it’s about.

God first and family tree to route.

Be cautious be wise be aware of the lies.

The desires come and go like a cold.

We are human so we will fold.

Just keep seeking to find.

Something deep with god inside.

Place

Seeing many things in many forms.

Has me a little bit torn.

Wondering what’s to come next.

Can only go up from here for a flex.

Planning but having bits of pieces.

Comes in doubles call it Reese’s.

Something’s are meant to be.

Then some it’s for a moments fee.

I may not be perfect but I m trying.

It’s better than feeling your giving up.

But inside your dying.

Facing truth instead of lying.

We all got to face thing’s in this race.

Things don’t make sense become sense in place

Hour Glass

I tend to give the time a price tag.

Not really see it for being in its bag.

God will lay it down and give it all to those who appreciate.

He will let free will take over before your time is checkmate.

He makes the final call over your life.

You dont even know it but so many times you didnt see his sacrifice.

The things that should of killed you a long time ago.

Saved you it broke the mold.

You couldn't even understand a love like this.

A love that has peace attach to it.

Thank you god it seems so much has passed.

We aren't promise the tomorrow of an hour glass.

Pain

This on and off feeling.

Nothing I do seems appealing.

Watching others live the dream.

Family career health it’s a steam.

Feeling like a burden.

How can I just let anyone in?

I m quiet and loud at the same time.

I just know how to fall in line.

Things were much better on the grind.

Now my life is stuck in the mind.

A repeating photograph like a shrine.

A hold of life that I m full of shame.

God I feel like a hypocrite calling for you while in pain.

Doubt

I really have failed in many ways.

Everyday in the mind is a slay.

Add service fee to my delay.

This depression in me lasting until may.

I got it all wrong and I keep falling short.

My mission in life I don’t know I call abort.

Religion set the tone for a setup.

Spirituality came in knocking it was fed up.

I lay and reflect like a replay review.

It’s a mind bonded and full.

How can I go to god now? I’ve seen too much.

I m very slow when I should be I na rush.

Failed the map quest a continue route.

My mind is always full of non stop doubt.

Brokenhearted

What to do when you seen the world inside and out?

It’s like your flesh begging for a shout.

Chasing dreams but living in talent.

When you fully realize it’s so much balance.

The want of a family for yourself.

The definition of true health and wealth.

I can see my eyes gain this consciousness.

Knowing life with success must be a risk.

But what happens when you realize they sold out.

Do you turn a blind eye live for it’s own route?

For these things eventually get departed.

How do you recover when you’re just brokenhearted?

Please

Seeing how things rattled itself.

Turn to your guilty pleasure of wealth.

Separate the good the bad the evil it’s course.

Having the answers once then begging for retort.

I see how I am and I m not happy with myself.

I have to be reminded of not right mind health.

Doesn’t excuse it just owning up to it.

Wondering who’s coming at it’s with.

I admit confusion hits my soul.

I don’t wanna be misguided for a roll.

This gigantic life is one big tease.

Thank you god for my days it’s my please.

Next

I pray over my mind body and soul on god almighty

May the enemy have no strong hold.

May I come eventually to be even bold.

Being okay with being okay smiling and laughing

But my heart to be restore with life.

To now understand I know better and who is Christ.

It’s sad it takes what is loss to truly get it.

For the better it’s to what’s to come.

Things we can’t see it feels numb.

It’s sad that it took all forms of sex.

To be left to know what comes next.

Wander

Reminded by hell and all its glory.

Real life hits and it’s not a false story.

I was left with conflicting feelings.

Anything against god n Christ isn’t appealing.

Things become scarier in the revealing.

I replayed over and over and it hurt.

Am I going there? I question with a blurt.

Hurting now that I may not see others.

Switching religion feels like a cover.

Screaming relationship I sense it.

But what ego can come out a benefit.

Then I scroll to another video.

Feels like my headset is on at a studio.

Reminded to take the bible emergency numbers.

Feeling and seeing sorrow yet again.

Went to John 14 and skip verse ten.

It was yeshua seeing me and comforting me.

I believe he sees me more in me than I see.

I went from wanting to know it all.

To apologizing if it’s not from him from a call.

What’s left is full in its ponder.

Be clam in the storm with Christ is a wander.

Remember

I go to you once I commit damage.

It’s like a slight rip of a bandage.

My selfishness leaves you in pain.

Trust when I say I m driving my spirit insane.

Guilt shame but told it’s all within time.

But I must address my darkness that’s mine.

I so want to be better.

The love I want is for her.

But I have to realize YOU are the prize.

You are the one that spares me to rise.

Reason of confirmation when I cry.

Praying one day and day one it’s conquered.

Relaxing so I won’t go bonkers.

My confessions all on tumblr.

It’s a way to come back and remember.

Resetting

I was given ten minutes and the walk felt off.

It felt I was given a signal by a cough.

I go and enter the scene.

But my spirit eyes don’t see anything green.

I literally felt like I didn’t belong where I was.

That feeling you get when you drink and buzzed.

So instead of fighting this off energy.

I dismissed myself giving it to god and not stingy.

Heading home finding a dollar on the sidewalk.

Was this a mini god blessing for a good talk?

I wanna think this is all for a big year setting.

My mark is left but this year I m resetting.

Fault

I keep running back to the same thing that breaks me

Selfish reasons of the flesh is now I see.

How can I ask for anything from god in Christ?

When I continue to not live paying my price.

The years feel like they’re too ahead.

Finding excuses but still unable to avoid a bed.

The passion is dim the not inspired is loud.

Fighting my demons of sin in a crowd.

To the father itself I won’t understand your love.

When I tell you I m just lonely alone looking above.

Living in regret disobeying your law.

Forgive me for being human in all my flaws.

Guide me before I even wake.

For my soul and my sanity sake.

I don’t know how to overcome what I’ve been taught.

I refuse to blame others the navigating is my fault.

Return

When I hear the music it brings back the memories.

All for the right reasons it feels pleasing.

I admit things did leave for its reason.

But these days I m wondering if it were for a season.

God doesn’t make mistakes things will be revealed.

But it’s that season to take my life to him and kneel.

These days and nights are for recovery.

So the things that are meant will be.

Step for step minute by minute second by second.

Hour by hour date by date we take for its lesson.

Not knowing what’s waiting around the corner

Take a step back and watch your turn.

Watch my life comeback rise as I return.