i love leaning into a bad feeling #mytwistingknife

Gripping my bathroom sink repeating I am not afraid to keep on living I am not afraid to walk this world alone

god didn't give me a dick because he knew I'd get hard when I heard a rich choral harmony

whoever invented listening to music and getting high at the same time needs to be knighted sainted and martyred romantically

The price you pay for ignoring your gut feeling is very expensive

Abundance

you know you gotta go to bed when you start seeing the skull

not now kitten daddy can feel the soil falling over his head

*makes no effort to include self* what the fuuuuuck why do i feel so left out

*makes great, unseen efforts, that ultimately result in nothing because my brain is broken and outwardly look like no effort was made at all* fuuuuuuck fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

to be honest apart from the fact that like, maintaining multiple romantic relationships obviously takes additional time and effort, the whole idea that polyamory is Relationship Expert Mode™ or is inherently more difficult than monogamy is largely just the product of the fact that a lot of that emotional work is sublimated or sidestepped by monogamy & its conventions. rather than work on your insecurities as a person you can always just deign to believe that your partner can only ever love you the mostest, and your relationship is the pinnacle of both of your social lives and histories, and any discomfort you feel about them having other relationships or feelings external to your dynamic is not the product of self worth and dependency issues that can be worked through but instead incontrovertible proof that they're a lying cheating deceitful whore

and like it's simply much easier to remain deeply emotionally immature and volatile and still keep your relationship when your partner is trapped in that dynamic with 0 outlet or alternative. common monogamy L