action!

RACH: I’ve been rather stressed out lately. I’ve got Netflix, Hulu, and Amazon Prime.

RACH: Please share your favorite shows. Documentaries and movies are allowed, too!

RACH: I’ll even throw in a free movie night with yours truly, but only if you provide the cheap wine. I’ll provide the heavily buttered popcorn, pretzels, and hummus.

KITTY: It was my pastor's gift to me! What was I supposed to do with it? NOT accept it?

KITTY: Besides, it'll help us if we get stuck in any haunted theater or hotel.

KITTY: Right? I'ma bout to get a total migraine which is so not necessary

atm.

RACHEL: No, of course not. I just think it’s adorable in a good way.

Rachel: That’s a good point! I never thought about it that way. Hotels and theaters are both places that are likely to be haunted, since most are quite old and many have history.

Rachel: I considered bringing sage, actually.

Sam: yea but now things are... bigger. like, more intense and stuff. it makes sense why ur feeling nervous

Sam: Gotcha. thats cool that they kno and stuff.

Sam: idk, dude. its just, u said it makes u feel like ur sneaking around right? wouldnt telling folks make it so you don't feel like that?

Sam: like i said, im not super good at this stuff. but im glad u felt comfortable enuff to talk to me about it.

Rachel: It’s just a lot that’s changing. I don’t want to dissapoint you. Or Kitty. Or anyone.

Rachel: Possibly. But either way, I’m going to keep it as a handful of people knowing for now. I don’t want the rest of the tour to get involved. Sometimes I already feel alienated enough.

KITTY: Whoever is wearing that cheap ass perfume and spraying it all over the bus, stop it. Now. I'm about ready to douse our whole bus in holy water to help remove the contaminants of the smell and I'd prefer not to waste my whole collection because of some obnoxious spray.

Rachel: I still can’t believe you still carry holy water.

Rachel: It’s giving me a headache.

Sam: ok, but even if u think that, that's not how it really is? like, ur felling anxious even if u don't think u shud.

Sam: Idk exactly how ur feeling but when I figured out i had dsylxia, it sucked. but gettin help really made a difrence.

Sam: yea but shed never judge u for needing help Rachel

Sam: ok. maybe we can work up to u telling kitty? ur dads kno ur seeing a therapist right?

Rachel: I suppose it’s just hard to accept about myself. Especially the stage fright. I’ve been performing since I was a kid.

Rachel: I’m sure it did. And I mean, i am getting the help, I just don’t like it. It makes me feel like I’m sneaking around.

Rachel: They know I am, yeah. But I used to so it wasn’t a huge surprise. They don’t really know the exact extent of why I’m back in therapy, but they know enough I guess.

Sam: why do u hate it so much? its not lame to like get help for stuff, specially when its like, really hard mental stuff.

Sam: Sorry, im not good at this kinda thing

Sam: ok... I wnot tell her. just think abt talkin to her? she mite surprise u

Rachel: Because I don’t have a reason to be this anxious and afraid. Everything in my life is right where I need it to be. I shouldn’t need therapy.

Rachel: No, don’t be sorry. I mean, I obviously told you for a reason, Sam. I love Kitty, and i don’t know why I this relates to me, but she can be...judgy.

Of course I can believe we have years of friendship now, I’ve been there for all of it. Do you remember when we first met? Because I definitely don’t have that date memorized, Rach. 

…You feeling okay? You’re blabbing a bit more than usual. Have you already indulged in that red wine?

I wrote it down in my planner one year, but I can’t seem to remember the actual date. Let’s just pick a cool one during the month we first met!

a rachel barbra berry playlist ⭐

Everyone has predictable elements to them, like how I’m very likely to bring up Jesus or how Sam will bring up her family. And since we know each other well, we can predict those things easily. I think I’m the biggest expert on what makes Rachel Barbra Berry tick at this point. I’d be insulted if I didn’t know what was going on in your head at this point.

That’s a good point. Yes, yes you are. But just because you’ve known me for so long and we’re the best of friends. We’ve got years under our belt Kitty, can you believe it? We should have a friendship anniversary party or something just so I can drink red wine and blab about you on social media. Also, I can be pretty obvious with my emotions, most of the time-- that probably helps, too. Yeah..you definitely know everything that’s swirling through this talented head of mine.

I meant where you are in life, but thank you for the offer. 

I know that, Quinn! Which is why I thanked you for being so nice to me! I was just thinking about how much fun we had when we sat together on the bus last time, is all. It really was the most relazing bus ride in the books. Although maybe it was because I had someone next to me who actually talked to me and let me get all cozy with them. Although really, I think it was just you.

I used to think I knew a lot of trivia, but alas, I need to study.

To be fair we were poor, but it was the only shoe related story I thought I had.

Thankfully, there’s a plethora of trivia apps you can use to refresh those skills.

Apparently it’s the state official soft drink. I read that in one of those tourism guides they have at the hotel. It’s…sad, really. I always thought Jersey had some weird history, but man. The midwest is just so weirdly innocent and bizarre to me. As is the idea of having a lemonade stand at all. You might be a bit less city-like than I expected, Berry.

Really? How interesting and disappointing. It does make me feel rather nostalgic, though. The midwest just screams corn and innocence and weird soft drink obsessions, but I’m enjoying the charm of this place. It’s very mellow. And I can see the stars. Don’t say that! I did what all kids had to do to make money, hustle! And sell sugary drinks on the front stoop. I don’t think the other kids did performances, though..not that they’d need to because at that age I already had more talent in my toe than they’d ever have in their lives. 

Random childhood story? Check. Random fact about something sweet? Check. Random mention of Broadway? Check. This might as well have been made by a bot, because it’s the single most Rachel Barbra Berry post of all time.

That’s a good thing, right? I’m glad I’m still the same Rachel Barbra Berry we all know and love, of course-- I just didn’t think I was that predictable.

Sam: i mean it kinda shows temwork? not much tho cuz its all about u building a team and then havin them fight.

Sam: im glad ur getting the help that u need, thats super important.

Sam: ...ok. But i really think kitty should kno. shes like ur best friend.

Rachel: I hate it. Therapy, I mean. I used to go as a kid but now that I’m old and mature I don’t know if it’s doing much. Makes me feel lame.

Rachel: Doesn’t mean she needs to know this. I don’t even know how she’d respond.

That’s something no one can fault you for, Rae. Especially where you are now.

There you go being way too nice and supportive again! I swear, you just make me blush and blush and blush. But I do appreciate it, of course. I appreciate you!

I feel like such a bad Nebraskan because I had no idea about this.

That’s an… interesting story, though. I once sold my shoes to buy my mom dinner for her birthday?

My dads know way too much pointless trivia-- more than the average man. 

Lemonade Koolaid and cookies sounds like a dream.

Hello, Blair. I’d recommend going to the nearest Wal-Mart and purchasing it, then. They even have Kool-aid that’s already mixed! I’m glad you apparently love such simple pleasures.