from afar

KITTY: You should be

KITTY: Yeah. And you have to like more than want it, you have to be ready for it and seek it out yourself. It's the whole you can take a horse to water but you can't make them drink thing.

MARLEY: Sassy.

MARLEY: Pretty much, otherwise you can go through the motions for so long that eventually everything implodes and you mess a zillion things up because of how much you tried to force being okay.

KITTY: It's what I do

[...]

MARLEY: In that case, I'm honored :)

MARLEY: Yeah, I mean like I want to be better but it's hard.

KITTY: You should be

MARLEY: I was joking, mostly, you don't have to say that.

MARLEY: Right? People think if I just go back to therapy I'll get better, but talking to someone about how I don't like myself kind of makes me dislike myself more sometimes.

KITTY: I pride myself on being honest, so...

KITTY: It's crazy that people think therapy is like some overnight cure. You have to be willing to work and ready to listen and it's a lot of sessions of just crying and hating yourself. I get it.

MARLEY: I didn't ask about society, weirdo.

[...]

MARLEY: I think I have to be really ready to hear it for it to work.

KITTY: Yeah well...

KITTY: You're really pretty

[...]

KITTY: Yeah it's not going to get better until you actually let yourself listen

JACKIE: Everyone's gotta right to their opinion so I can't argue with you there.

JACKIE: Because that's what you're acting like right now. Also, I'd like it on the record that I never actually said bitch, so I'm glad you got it without me having to go there first. No, because I know I can be sometimes but at least when I'm a bitch it's usually for a reason.

MARLEY: GASP, does Kitty Wilde think I'm pretty???

MARLEY: I hope so at least!

MARLEY: Yeah, technically. But after being in a hospital for a while for it, I always know what they're going to say so it's hard to talk and absorb anything when I know what's coming.

KITTY: I have eyes, so... [UNSENT]

KITTY: You're leggy and like model-skinny and tall and have blue eyes and now you're blonde so like...yeah, I think society would say you're pretty

[...]

MARLEY: Gotcha. I guess.

MARLEY: I think I was left out of the good gene pool in my family. Granted I only really know a small part of my family.

[a few minutes later]

MARLEY: Since high school, yeah. I always shake it for a while, but, I guess it'll always come back.

KITTY: I think you got some impressive genes so don't sell yourself short

KITTY: Oh my god that was too flirty wasn't it [UNSENT]

KITTY: I mean, I don't know much of your family, either, but you seem to have some things in common with them in like a good way.

[...]

KITTY: Yeah those things don't really go away. Especially during stressful times like this.

JACKIE: Are you always this annoying or am I special?

JACKIE: Yes you are and it’s got nothing to do with that. I actually like that about you, but that trait kind of falters when you’re so rude about it. Nah, I'd probably just call him a dick.

KITTY: Trust me, I don't think there's anything special about you.

JACKIE: I never said I liked it, just that I didn't mind the smell of it.

JACKIE: No. You having a bad attitude, period. This isn't the first time you've come off as a brat and something tells me it won't be the last.

KITTY: Mmhmmm. Sure.

MARLEY: Learning things? Like what??

MARLEY: Geesh you and Quinn really are smart. Then there's me, having Kat pass math for me for years.

[...]

[...]

MARLEY: I hadn't eaten in a few days.

KITTY: Just things involving Norah in general

KITTY: I'm still a little too weirded out to talk about it

KITTY: God I sounded like a bitch didn't I [UNSENT]

KITTY: It's just good genes for the Fabwildes, I guess.

[...]

KAT: You... didn't know.

KAT: Oh my god.

KAT: Please don't say anything to her?

KITTY: Q and I don't really talk about hookups that often. It's not something I really talk about with anyone like ever for a lot of reasons.

KITTY: To who?? Norah or Quinn? Because god I don't know if I can look at either of them in the face ever again.

KITTY: How could EITHER of them??????

JACKIE: I get why you would think that, but why can't I just be someone who doesn't mind the smell of cheap perfume?

JACKIE: And even if I were the culprit, I definitely wouldn't stop now since it seems you have no idea how to go about it nicely. I knew you had a bad attitude, but I didn't think it was this bad.

KITTY: You're not helping your case by saying you like it at all.

JACKIE: That's another thing to add to the list of things I didn't know. You learn something new every day. It doesn't smell that bad though.

JACKIE: That's pretty impressive for something with water in the title. So are you really going to do it? Because I really wanna see if it works.

KITTY: I'm glad I could enlighten you, Jackie. But seeing as you don't think it smells bad, I think maybe you're the culprit with the cheap perfume.

MARLEY: Norah is completely and utterly adorable. But no one is supposed to know. She's also AWESOME at cuddling, so we're going to have to get you to level up pretty fast.

MARLEY: You must be really smart, because that's exactly what my therapist said when I called her last week. Not EXACTLY but close.

MARLEY: Yeah, you can ask, Kitty.

KITTY: I find that very hard to believe. But I am apparently learning all the weird things about Norah today, so...

KITTY: I DID get into one of the best schools in the nation and I AM related to one of the resident Ivy League graduates on tour for a reason. But I'm glad I haven't completely forgotten my psychology skills.

[...]

KAT: I know the feeling.

KAT: Well, I feel stupid. Obviously she's not, she and Norah had a thing a while back.

[...]

KAT: Sorry. I know that's your cousin. It's not exactly a secret. Please forget I said that.

KAT: It's okay. You don't have to like it or understand it yet. You've acknowledged that you are, which is the first big step. The rest will come in time.

KAT: ...Well, let me first say that this girl must be crazy if she's not interested.

KAT: Let me secondly say that I'm wonderful at playing matchmaker.

KAT: And let me thirdly say that I need to live vicariously through someone since my love life is in absolute shambles.

KITTY: ...She and WHO?????

KITTY: You’re KIDDING me

KITTY: GOD

KITTY: I don’t know, I’m pretty hard to deal with. I wouldn’t blame her. And I can barely speak around her anyways.

MARLEY: Yep! I've even got Kat's notification bell clicked just for the KittyKat videos.

MARLEY: Well, I'm glad it was you.

MARLEY: I'm happy that you're happy about it. Plus, I'm the master at keeping cute people on the DL when they want people to think they're mean and broody.

MARLEY: How don't I disappoint people? I'm in a constant spiral of pretending to be happy, when I'm not. I make people worry about me because I can't stop hurting myself. So I make people think I'm better just to let them down over and over again IE: passing out at the interview. Not being able to be a REAL role model because most of my role modelness is fake... etc etc etc.

[...]

MARLEY: Sorry that was a lot you don't have to like respond or anything.

[...]

KITTY: lol

KITTY: Like who? Don’t try to tell me Norah’s cute or something

[...]

KITTY: You’re allowed to be imperfect. Being a role model is making mistakes and then getting better. It’s accepting that you aren’t perfect that’s inspring, not actually being perfect.

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