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i thought i was at my lowest but holy shit it gets lower

my range of emotions go from “it’s scary how much i feel” to “it’s scary how much i don’t feel”

so i started to think about some stuff. never doing that again.

something about me isn’t right.

When you grow up in an abusive home, you don’t become a people pleaser to please people. You become a people pleaser to keep the potential for more abuse away.

They should invent a new kind of Being Alive where it's not painful and it doesn't hurt constantly and actually feels worth it and you're happy for more than a few hours at a time

bro last night was totally redacted! last night was fully expunged from the record. bro, do you... can you remember last night? what did we do...? what did... did we hurt someone? bro? why won't you look at me? what did I do...? whose blood is this...? bro...?

If you mess up a social interaction you can say "Failed Experiment" and move on

Cannot stress enough that you say this in your head