Mentally ill girl in your computer

she deserves to burn every frilly dress she has and replace it with a wardrobe of the most comfortable and practical pants and shirts (because I’m tired of the closest she gets being casual dresses with leggings, if that’s not what she wants DONT FORCE IT ON HER)

she deserves to chop off her hair or idk do something cool with it if that’s what she wants

she deserves to punch nearly every adult in the face and tell them to go die and then they should be forced to tell her every single secret they’re keeping from her that’s about her and then she should be allowed to run away to a secluded cabin and sleep and relax and eat whatever she wants and never wear makeup or get dressed up and read books for a billion years

Wake up

Take painkillers

Jerk off

Take meds (optional)

Eat something (optional)

Pose and perform in front of the mirror for 8 hours with music playing

Make sure there isn’t anyone following me with a weapon while I’m on a walk

Lay in bed fantasizing about glory wealth fame and success

Jerk off again

1. Ohmygodohmygodohmygod you’re so hot

2. Early infatuation

3. I love you so much, I hope we can be like this forever :)

4. I’m so obsessed with you, it probably isn’t healthy but I’m not thinking about that now because I just want you here

5. iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou I’ve never felt like this before and this will last forever (real, trust)

6. He’s mine. Back off.

7. While this is wonderful and I love you a lot, I feel like I’ve stopped being my own person and that’s maybe Not Good

8. So, funny story, turns out being in love does not magically cure depression

9. Please reassure me you love me as much as I love you

10. Oh, so love can actually make depression worse. This is really Not Good (ft Robert Smith)

11. You noticed. You weren’t supposed to notice. Don’t leave. I can be happier. You’re not bad for me, I promise. Please don’t leave. Please love me less so you don’t have to leave.

12. So. I’m single now.