um yeah so quick thoughts i need to get out. iām really obviously mixed races Ā (im black white and mexican) but ive always felt like i dont really belong anywhere because im not full black or full white or full mexican ya know? and i never grew up with any african culture around me and limited mexican culture (except for food omg so much food) so idk i feel like im not allowed to say im something (especially mexican bc i have prominent african girl hair and darker skin than like white ppl idk so im just viewed as a lightskin black girl ?) like im afraid someone will say something like āoh no youre not *blank*ā youre only like half that doesnt countā (which kinda has happened which sucks.) like i am this but youre making me feel like im not ?? idk life stinks and im feelin my emotions sorryĀ
Yeah, thatās sort of why Iām against interacial relationships even though Iām mixed myself because I know the affects on self-identity. Even though, mixed people have issues with having toĀ āchooseā, I found it helpful to do exactly that. Choose the most marginalized ethnicity and re-immerse into that. Make it a point to date people from that ethnicity as a step to decolonize and become closer to that part of you. It may become easier for you because youāre Afro-Latinx which has a big,vibrant community of their own for you to be a part of. Iād ditch the white part completely, for obvious reasons.
also, youāll have less people point out youāre only half-black if you become more vocal about black struggles and current issues, immerse more into āBlacknessā. for example, people donāt question Jesse Williams on his blackness because heās so vocal about black issues while people like Don Lemon are ridiculed for their whitewashed perspectives.Ā



















