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just found a letter in my mailbox
dated Jan 30th. From the paramedics. It wasn’t on my informed delivery today.
Maybe it’s a bill from August. I feel like I’ve opened this before.
Gangstalking.
It’s real. Targeted individuals exist, and they use new technologies to microwave audio into your brain or turn your house into a resonator. They’ll gaslight you and say you are talking out loud. With AI they’ve found a way to measure brain waves and build a panopticon like system where thought crime is sent into predicative analytics for human behavior. It’s MK Ultra Part 2, electric boogaloo. If you ever hear the sound of marbles dropping down a funnel repeatedly in your home, or the sound of inexplicable clicking 0- get out.
It's my 3 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳
Illegal Surveillance Technology
The government is 100% putting BCI into people unaware and using AI fed into large data sets to test new weapons and psychological torture devices. It is essentially schizophrenia. CIA MK Ultra Part Two.

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Events of Note:
This is just a record of events. At no point if individuals are named am I making an accusation. I suffer from delusions and hallucinations 24/7. The people named are because I recognize them, but they are likely hallucinations/delusions. All signs point to targeted harassment alongside mental health. Either that or I got a brain interface Ala nueralink unknown. They are using AI voice filters. IR diodes in eyes.
Full disclaimer: I believe I am being lynched.
Pingpong Day
Bought new dunks. Noted J/S carrying red dunk box into 8th floor bathroom. When returning to apartment a pack of descent had been placed inside the dunk box by the shoes.
Jeep:
Towed without notice. Wyoming plates in back again when located. Jeep keyed. Jeep hotwired again. Wig hair found in jeep.
Run for Roses: Went on a whim. Sat at bar. Right next to me noticed a man in what appeared to be J’s clothes that looked familiar.Two other people, one young Latina woman who caught my eye and shook her head like “don’t.” Called J’s phone. This man’s phone rang. Left immediately after.
Union Lodge: Math and bath bombs.
Apple Store: Saw a man that reminded me of a friend from high school (NO) - could have sworn he gave his name as me. On the way out the door heard “If you were just five minutes earlier” from two men in the front.
Have reported break ins/access without warrant several times to the Quincy, Police, FBI.
Background microtesla reading is well above normal for residential. Several hotspots indicating potential fire hazards.
Broken white egg in my brown eggs
Chic Filet food sickness
Alcohol delivery without confirmation of ID
Carol’s box including grandmother’s jewelry came back to me with a shipping label from California and studio foam glued to the inside.
“Your family won’t survive” audio coming from vents - recored it, and audio was replaced in recordings by another party.
Amplifier audio - Was recording reverb with ky guitar and noticed voices when amplifier turned to max running directly into a guitar pickup.
Jeep - AM station tuned to 550 as a preset and when first getting into jeep.
“Die-ter” , “Lut-teer”, “Moog” pronunciation instructions telepathically “Lederhosen” call sign.
“Do they sound like people from high school?” Text from JB asking what the voices in my apartment sound like. Text is now missing. “Right now?” When telling him I was hearing voices while Iw as out at lunch. “Coordinating an AC Install” one week before my AC went out.
I think the Sonos speakers that are in may bedroom are from before my first attempt and nor my new replacement ones that came after they were stolen. Regardless, lube was poured on these.
The Braille on my door does not match my actual unit number. (My ex-stepmother was blind.)
Oven - weird orange glow between locking door mechanism and range. Locking door thinner missing cap.
Three water lines run into kitchen sink.
Dred man tried to give me a weird down low handshake out of the blue when I was walking home from Brooklyn’s.
Been followed to ATM and back multiple times.
Hear people walking by talking directly about me. Sometimes swiping a fob on my door.
Window suction cup marks still evident on windows. Checked outside with phone camera, windows mirrored.
Drones followed me at a public park - video evidence exists.
There was a fiber optic wire or clear wire of some type running outside my window - video evidence exists.
Two suicide attempts this summer. Multiple instances of self harm. “You are trying to get a paycheck,”
Ozone air purifiers were able to be returned to the Bsomething military base (this might just be normal in Amazon)
Apple Fitness data was being written by multiple devices at the same time, with different OSs in different places. Sent one copy to S, one to G
Multiple instances of opening apple support cases and visiting Apple Store to figure out why devices totally fcked.
Saw mysterious reddit posts in NEW queue (similar to 2023) - “We are investigating C, too.”
Piece of weird leather dropped in front of me on couch “This is C, we burned her up.”
Power went out entirely at the cabin night one was there - (no loss of power to rest of neighborhood perhaps? The junction for the cabin is isolated on the power pole right in front.)
Quincy gave me an official “Notice of Reclamation” document saying if I called 911 anymore I would be evicted.
The new Quincy lease was to be executed with the leessor titled “1776 Curtis a Limited Liability Company” - not sure if that is all everybody.
I can no longer order groceries from Walmart.
S/AM “no I am not under duress” after Brooklyn’s pizza.
Posted tons of documentation to Twitter, and when returning the next day 80% of the documentation was greyed out or not uploaded - including jokey
Pulled dental bracket out of bottom right tooth with screwdriver - kept for safekeeping, missing.
A’sphotograph - missing
Family photos - deep fakes? Yes. Removed from home after discovery.
Thumps, knocks, and general malicious behavior in the service access areas technically “not” in my apartment.
Snakes under rug.
Sudden white flashes.
Computer rooted while at Union Lodge October 13th.
Kindle was mysteriously signed out and went missing - leading to buying a new kindle. While searching for kindle
Audio being spliced into TV via Sonos with a Plex server and audio running out of a system? TV sometimes talks to me in odd and confusing ways.
Hear A’s voice frequently.
Been pointed to on the street on the way to 7-11 (after showing E family photos) by two women. Point was intentional, long, and carried it while they walked from across the way.
Thought I saw NO a hotel night I decided to leave the Quincy with duffle bag for safety - pulled up in black SUV
Found a noose in my closet, when discovered and left to get air, came back and it was a lasso. Someone walked by the door in my apartment and said “Yeehaww” shortly after I picked it up.
K makes excuses to leave when I am at the pool every time for 20 - 30 minutes.
Name changed in Walmart.com to BLAKEK. (KEK is orcish for LOL).
Envelopes with 2707 on them for a while appeared to be written as LOLZ if turned upside down. This stopped occurring after being discovered.
All my food has exact timestamps down to second of expiration including top ramen.
Methane off gas containers under both sinks.
Blender fell apart (probably user error)
Blue seams in all my clothes.
The red ink is a reference not to blood but to “LULZ” written in red pen on my bedroom light switch after I got back from the hospital. I’ve never bought a red pen here. Probably wrote it myself.
Have been called:
Cottonmouth
Faggot -Abomination
Claire
Copperhead
Turkey
Hannibal Lector -Pedophile
Creep -Freakshow -Legolas -Satan -Demon -Anticrhist -Jesus
Been told:
“Put on your sissy costume.” “Dress up like a little sissy sl*t” “Jerk off for me” “Take another shit for me you drunk asshole” “You fucking redneck” “Leave the building immediately” “An elephant never forgets” “Turn on your left monitor. Turn on your sound card. Open up Apple Music. Go to bed.” “Drop your vaporizer by the trash can. Drop your phone in the bedroom door way. Say ’bye lederhosen.’” (Claimed to be MA) “Do you like sloppy seconds?” “This is entrapment” “This is obstruction of justice” “You need to listen to every word I say” “Stop listening to us” “Everyone in the Quincy is telepathic” “Everyone can hear what you are thinking” “There is a little laser pointed at your throat and you talk under your breath all the time.” “You are a ventriloquist.” “Play your Moog.” “Factory reset your Moog.” “Pour water on your Moog.” “Give us our data back” “There is a bounty on you” “You are worth 1 million dollars.” “There is a bright light in your future “There is a bright young light in your future” “You are going to be on death row” “What do you think, B?” “Use a bigger blade” “Hat trick!” “I don’t wanna die!” (Quoting me) “Where is your pencil sharpener?” (Before and after self harming with one) “We found it in the trash” “Im picking up what you’re putting down” “Jira was underage” “You jerked off a teenager” “You slept with a black teenager” “You sent nude pictures of yourself to a twelve year old” “Silence is golden” “Lockdown mode gave us what we needed to…(extend our surveillience)” “You have kerosene in your jeep” “You went to a lawyer so….(we get to extend our surveillance.) - I went to a paralegal at coloradolegalservices.org “She has AIDS” (when having sex with a partner November 21st.) I do not have aids. “You have leprosy” “You have brain cancer” “You have herpes” “That is one freaky looking dude.” “What does under duress mean?” “You didn’t have your fake heart attack in the bathroom.” “Are you getting motion sickness?” “How many sleeping pills are you going to take tonight?” “Like music to my ears.” “You can hear us through your monitors” “You can hear us through your Amp” “That EMF reader is a metal detector moron” “Your kingdom has fallen” “Don’t do it Satan!” “You going to suck a big dick tonight?” Will often overhear sound. Effects like T-Rex, cougar growl, “RF is the District Attorney. Actually, its OF” “You are method acting” “You are schizophrenic” “You are not schizophrenic.” “We are the Energy Department” “We hate the word parasite” “Call us schizophrenians!” (The night I got a concussion) “Is he even Mexican?” “You do not have alien DNA” “You are an alien” “You are going to a third world country.” “There is child porn on that Moog” “There underage hookers on that laptop” “You are already dead!” - Random driver on the street “Nobody look at him!” (Group of people on 16th t hat pointedly stared at window display as I walked by - noted Latina female from run from roses along with) “There are no cameras in your apartment.” “You are on camera 24/7” “I am the sheriff of golden” “There are no cameras in your bathroom” “Close your bathroom door entirely” “Silent but deadly” “You are snorting pesticide” “The cocaine is really starting to piss us off.” “Play your song for us.” “You have to make music every day.” “Your lips are moving.” “Where did you get that coat?” “Where did you get that bag?” “Look at how he brushes off his hands” “Look at how he washes his hands” “There is no apron anymore” “We gave you cancer” “Your Moog is connected to my wifiii!” (Erik’s voice) “There is a dark energy in your apartment.” “We are having pizza tonight” “Get a salad” “There is a sleeper in your bed” “Your right leg is by your brainstem” “Trinity is sweet little thing…Courtney” (In AirPods while out on town.) “Switch voice filters” - Js voice coming back after getting pretzels.
Missing/Broken Items:
Green Watering Bulb Aerogarden (first) Cactus Montressa clipped multiple times. Guitar Tuning Pegs - Tuning Pegs for Martin - one was broken. Had to use two old ones in addition to replace after super glue incident. Electron Heat - Totaled. DFAM - Found knobs in sink Grandmother - Spring reverb went out, damaged keyed in attempt at self repair Moog One - Keybed appears to have been pulled forward. Unsure on this one. Kaos Pad - Volume switch broken. Korg FM Synth - Panel nonfunctional. Not sure how this happened. Bed Frame - Bed frame broke after I first flying jumped on it (woops). However, it randomly broke a few months later and photos showed that It appeared the screws had been sabatoged. (No wood splinters.) Window Shade in Bedroom - Came home one day and it was broken at the top, couldn’t be rolled down without maintenance request. Umbrella Moog MF Ring - Nonfunctional. Moog Expression Pedals - Nonfunctional. Wardrobe items randomly go missing/moved from drawer to drawer. Socks and hangers not recognized (yellow hanger). NARCAN found poured out. Missing Thunderbolt Cables Keys - multiple times. Told Quincy to deactivate the one missing, they never did until it turned back up. Had to make several appointments with Quantum Fiber to get internet back running. The way the fiber optic was installed in two installations was unprofessional and failed easily. Third time was the charm. Subcontractors were used all except the third time. Last will and testament missing from jump drive Tons of screws, nails, doodads found around apartment Popcorn, Barkeeper’s Friend, Drywall, white onion particles found around apartment. Documents found in lower right cabinet including a suspicious receipt. Rehab diary had been rewritten in parts and when discovered, rewritten again with half the diary ripped out. Library card missing. Clothes hemmed. 9:5 Nintendo custom artwork was sabotaged to fall when door opening
MALWARE:
Seems all devices rootkitted. iPhone, Watch, iPad, MacBook. - Several pairs of AirPods walked off. - AirPods walked out of apartment while I was taking a shower. - Thorough documentation of this exists in several places.
Router compromised - keeps switching to unencrypted. Locked out. When headed to police station to report over summer, phone was called 16 times by a number in Illinois and then remote bricked by the Perfoming Arts Center. All photo metadata appears to have been scrambled. Key photos missing, other key photos deliberately misdated. Couldn’t turn on Message Verification without wiping Apple Watch. PS5/Television - DNS changed several times to prevent being able to play games or watch TV; True depth camera is broken. POISONED CDN and APPLE MUSIC - Apple Music playlists, Netflix, and various content providing services only queue up songs and movies about darker topics like - murder, serial killers, suspiciously creepy song-names in context of what the voices talk about Time Machine external as full of 2tb despite only having one Time Machine backup on it and me not knowing password. Formatted, restarted Time Machine. No data loss (Just music libraries). True Depth Camera in iPhone is malfunctioning. UA audio defaults to a configuration not typically used by me
Health: Received handwritten letter from DH preselecting opt-out for medicaid/medicare from pavilliion L. November 4th genetics appointment has corresponding report. Never received payment reminder in mail for COBRA September until too late. Illegal “pins” installed in ears? Get not-random tinnitus after hearing a voice say “enjoy your tinnitus”. Voice is usually J.
EVEN WRITING THIS. DOING ANYTHING. DEFENDING MY PROPERTY. TRYING TO DETERMINE IF IT IS STILL PRIVATE IN MY HOME. IS TOLD TO BE FORBIDDEN.
They accuse me of sexually harassing them if I masterbutate or have sex.
they regularly filter my devices and have essentially full control of ALL devices, my apartment, and my life. I am legit afraid.
Take Me Home Tonight
ghosts
Found this ghost in the reflection of my home
Poems
Trust
Trust builds like heavy rain
And as the waters rise
I expect you to have the life preserverÂ
Did I sell myself short
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Curls
The soap bottle is leaking on the counter
Making suds and bubbles by the sinkÂ
Where we used to prepare our food
And wash our hands
As the blue spreads silentlyÂ
I gave some time to pause and think
A distant memory sewed into mood
Soft and brittle as grains of sand
 notes of a piano as dogs play outside
The bundled blankets on the couchÂ
Laughter and curly hairÂ
The smell of barbeque and saltwaterÂ
A kayak lays in the backÂ
Where it collects rain in the spring
When the lovebugs fly relentlesslyÂ
What a wonder Â
The dishes need to be doneÂ
And like that it slips awayÂ
Just another day in paradise
Where my heart has stayedÂ
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SolitudeÂ
Today I paused to listen
As the wind swayed the metal frameÂ
Of the building where I live
The roads far below glisten Â
And the sun has snow’s claimÂ
Still water on concrete remains
In this moment I heardÂ
Scratching across the floor
Someone upstairs was moving furniture
I couldn’t listen to the wind anymore
And so I came to wonderÂ
In the solitude of my home
Where the last quiet places areÂ
And what it means to be alone
The day bore on through  Â
Chores and tasks awayÂ
And as the night fell Â
The silence came again to stayÂ
I thought about what I had to sayÂ
I hadn’t seen another person for a day
And thought better of itÂ
And enjoyed the company all the same
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Dad
I met a man I once respectedÂ
The way he lectured me productive
To be like him I desiredÂ
A hero who never tiredÂ
One day it came to passÂ
The important questionÂ
Was never once askedÂ
And in his wisdom of all things him
I necessarily forgot the part of meÂ
That no one can be a master ofÂ
Except for the person who is meÂ
And so I came to learnÂ
To teach can be a simple thingÂ
But being a student much harder
Although simple it may seemÂ
To forge your heroes on the mantleÂ
While holding your mettle trueÂ
It requires balanceÂ
To become you
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Birds
Years ago a seed came to groundÂ
Casked in fleshy citrus under the boughsÂ
Far from the water and its saltÂ
Someday in the futureÂ
There would be shade at its landingÂ
But first it had to waitÂ
To fruit and be taken
Think nothing of this
To grow in dirtÂ
In order to live
Isn’t it just the manner of the worldÂ
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Alan’s Car
She lost her luster years agoÂ
And we almost didn’t pull through
We grew till well enough to know
What it means to be in controlÂ
Sometimes things got hardÂ
She didn’t act like herselfÂ
Though true love takes you farÂ
We needed to ask for helpÂ
These days we are never apartÂ
For we’ve shared the road togetherÂ
Life has certainly left its markÂ
You think I’d leave her? Never!
While I think of how she used to moveÂ
And all the things we would doÂ
We don’t got nothing left to prove
Wow - how I love my Chevy 5th Avenue
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Change
It’s never enough to just sit and talk
Ambition can’t fill my bottomless greed
The car wont start in the drivewayÂ
It’s tank ran out of gas a long time agoÂ
Just a baron without a coin collection
That’s the middle class American dream.
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The AntÂ
There at the park that day I noticed an ant crawling on the pavement.
It dragged a crumb three times its size like a secret it couldn’t wait to share.
This stare dare not cast a long shadow on the humble worker,
For even the sun bowed low to bless its burdened pilgrimage.
And I became enamored with the realization even an ant thanks its legs—
Each step a hymn, each stumble a psalm in the cathedral of dirt.
Did it ever tire? Was it weary? Where did it go to rest when hurt?
I knelt to ask, but silence clung to its shell like dusk on old stone.
For it had been a long time since I had rested my own feet,
And in that moment, I envied the ant’s certainty—its endless march with no doubt.
I had long told myself that uncertainty is what it is all about,
But the ant, unwavering, moved as though it had already met the end and made peace.
In a life where no concern is given to those with tired feet,
It seemed grace belonged not to those who paused, but to those who pressed forward quietly.
It is a strange thing what makes one mighty—
Not the weight they carry, but the stillness with which they carry it.
(Revised for Meter via ChatGPT)
There at the park that day I saw an ant
It crawled across the pavement, slow and sure.
It dragged a crumb three times its size — a chant
Of work well done, and purpose clean and pure.
This stare of mine cast not a shadow wide
Upon the humble labor it had shown,
For even sun dipped low, as if with pride,
To bless the burden it bore all alone.
I found myself in awe of what it knew:
That even ants give thanks for legs that ache.
Each step a hymn, each stumble ringing true,
A psalm etched deep in every path they make.
I wondered: did it tire, feel the strain?
Where did it go to rest when it was bruised?
I knelt to ask, but silence would remain—
Its shell held dusk, its mystery refused.
And then I knew how long my feet had burned.
I watched it crawl and envied all it lacked—
No fear of wrong turns made or lessons learned,
Just forward motion on a steady track.
I’d told myself that doubt was what life meant,
That wandering made the journey right.
But still it marched, as if with full consent—
At peace with both the darkness and the light.
The world gives little care for aching soles;
No honor waits for those who choose to sleep.
Yet some find grace in quiet, steadfast roles—
They press ahead while others pause to weep.
It is a strange thing, what defines the strong:
Not all they bear, but how they bear it long.
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FloridaÂ
I ache in all the private spacesÂ
That you used to also decorate
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Tomatoes
Laden cherry tomatoes still in their packagingÂ
Adorned on the black Ikea in a small roomÂ
Your grey comfy shirt - the one no one else sees you inÂ
So vulnerable and genuine - the love felt brand newÂ
Sweltering salty summer refreshing with Tajin on the rim
Daily now I sigh and wonder if you are still managing
Did your gentle sail find itself crushed against the shore
Have the beaches of your spirit weathered the stormÂ
Eating late over the range with just a stove light onÂ
There is no need for a plate or time for decorumÂ
Often I find myself pulled away - into the greyÂ
Living inside a book with half its pages torn outÂ
Reaching out to take a tomato between my fingersÂ
I never really liked these, but I try them for youÂ
Even all still, I’d rather try them than to live without
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Garbage
The man came to the doorÂ
Dragging his bag all along the wallÂ
Every step along the floorÂ
And paused in the hallÂ
As i listened closely and certainÂ
There was a moment i knew
He stooped low of a burden
And thought i shared it tooÂ
As my stoop darkened
 the shadow curled longÂ
Before the steps continued
And it withdrewÂ
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Moon
One night I watched the clouds Â
Though I couldn’t see I knewÂ
That though dim, the moon reachedÂ
To the streets belowÂ
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Little WindÂ
I remember the first time Â
It was like stepping into a showerÂ
Every breeze a reliefÂ
Late night pancakes
Under fluorescent lightsÂ
A aquamarine poolÂ
Awkward laughs Â
We drove over the highest mountainÂ
When you took me backÂ
SkywayÂ
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Debt
Sometimes I think about the green washÂ
The way it gently boiled below the hotÂ
Where we would go to rememberÂ
All the reasons we left togetherÂ
I sometimes think of pitter patter
And panting on soil after a long journeyÂ
It would be selfish of me to see youÂ
Would you know what to do
Carry on, I think is bestÂ
The selfish man thinks you thrive in a messÂ
But that’s not what it’s ever beenÂ
To many shipwrecks.Â
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Grandfather’s PantryÂ
Sometimes the oranges you boughtÂ
You don’t get around to peelÂ
I always feel a bit of guilt
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Truth
Sometimes it’s enough.Â
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Black Mirror
Open up the black mirrorÂ
And a messageÂ
The police will not answer youÂ
The only way you will be arrested.
How accurate is this to beÂ
A and you will be prosecuted forÂ
ItÂ
The Way of Life for your actions in this case and the consequences of your actions will be severe and severe for your actions and your actions will be the same as the consequences of the consequences of the actions of the government and the people of this country will be the consequences of the people of the world will be the death of the people of the country and the people of the people of the USA and the the people of the people of the people of the people of the people of the people of the people of theÂ
Land of Ireland to be a true leader in this nation of country of America is the most serious crime in this world of our nation of our nation is a war on this is the greatest crime is a crime of our people are a crime against the world is the greatest in this world and we will not let the people are a criminal act against our people are a country is the mostÂ
Hit the three buttons over and over.
- Written With Help
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Black Mirror
PT II. Mother’s HandsÂ
Dutifully took care of a householdÂ
And made sure to tie my shoesÂ
Sewed our clothes when they were wornÂ
I still think of the dayÂ
She hid her tears as and your photoÂ
And told me to go outside to play
The The Big Mac and I have been having the exact opposite experience of this one for a long while and it is a good thing that we don’t get a ton more of the time when it is made in our kitchen because we have to be able cook the way it does and we don’t want it in our kitchen so I think it’s just the right amount to be a lot more expensive to cook and we don’t need it in our house and I think we just want it in the house so I think it is more than that but it’s just the best way I can make a lot more and it’s just not the same as I have to be able cook and it’s just the way I think it would make it for you guys have to make a little more of it was a little more expensive but it’s just the right way I think it is I think I just want you know what I think I think I think it is a little more than I think I think I think I don’t think I just want you guys to try and get some of that is the one I don’t think it’s a lot more like I just wanted a salad.Â
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Stuff
Love is love
A coward asks her sister
Where can I mail her stuffÂ
He’s so wrought up in his own life
He’s nailing the windows shut
And asking someone to check the nails
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Are Robots People
And if you could teach a robot to loveÂ
Would I know the way it wouldÂ
As a reflection of the way we doÂ
That tenderness is in the small thingsÂ
The way you call on the way homeÂ
Or how I sometimes burn the foodÂ
That being present is not a presentÂ
Would it think grand gesturesÂ
- No matter how infrequent or not -Â
Are the solution to what’s the matterÂ
Would it understand that wheneverÂ
Truly means forever
Would it respect your boundaries?Â
That whenever doesn’t meanÂ
Whenever everÂ
Would it understand when we leave
Sometimes is for love too
SupermanÂ
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CottonmouthÂ
A genius
Sits alone but somehow writesÂ
Every poem like it’s just for you
What’s the point if you speakÂ
You may as well be the poet tooÂ
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The UniverseÂ
The way you think of the universe and how you think about yourself and your life and the way that it is made is a lot less complicated and less about yourself and the world than you would think about your life in the first instance in your own right because of it but in a sense it’s a little bit different from the rest than you imagined in the past and I don’t know how you would describe yourself and what it might feel to you but it’s just like you and how it might feel and I think it’s just like I feel about you know how it all makes me think of it all of it all of us are so I just don’t think that is so I just want.
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The Click
Panic panic panic panic panicÂ
its in the faucet every timeÂ
Ivory running running runningÂ
Don’t look behind the curtainÂ
ClickÂ
It’s just the building settling
ThumpÂ
It’s just the building settlingÂ
PopÂ
It’s just nothingÂ
Don’t look at the clickÂ
Don’t look at the clickÂ
Don’t look at the clickÂ
Why does it click if it isn’tÂ
Supposed to supposed toÂ
StopÂ
Its just me settlingÂ
It’s just me settlingÂ
It’s just me settling
The tide goes inÂ
SometimesÂ
It goes outÂ
It’s not coming inÂ
And so I’m not going outÂ
ClickÂ
It’s hereÂ
- PTSDÂ
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Diest Â
You made a clock
And you put it on a shelfÂ
Then walked awayÂ
You went to get groceriesÂ
Since that day
Was uneventful Â
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5:57pm - 5:56pmÂ
You can’tÂ
You can’tÂ
You can’tÂ
I can
That’s right BlakeÂ
Yup
I can hear voices behind the door
Laughing at the cowboy
Who magicallyÂ
Makes nooses
YeehawÂ
They walk by and relayÂ
Yes I heard thatÂ
To the monster upstairsÂ
While whisperingÂ
There is a bright light in your future
Don’t make biscuitsÂ
They turn their radios up as loud as possibleÂ
And mention nothing of the sensorsÂ
It’s all sensoryÂ
You are the observerÂ
My music equipment can hear them,Â
Apparently
They recorded the panel of the oscillations singingÂ
And play it back through the airplayÂ
I got an ad for closets and feedback limitersÂ
My subwoofer is not even hereÂ
Make sure you keep the bass downÂ
So why do they walk by?Â
He can’t hear us he’s got his AirPods inÂ
I heard that?
It’s all manipulation
Look at how I do anything
He does that intentionally
Did you do that on purpose?
You purposefully…
A running commentaryÂ
On every momentÂ
In my lifeÂ
A running commentaryÂ
On every unspoken thoughtÂ
Your vocal cords move,
VentriloquistÂ
Music to my earsÂ
Oh his pants are off
He’s method actingÂ
There was liner at WalgreensÂ
Look at how thing are brokeÂ
Pictures missingÂ
DominoÂ
Metadata fuckedÂ
DominoÂ
Voices from high schoolÂ
DominoÂ
Is he even Mexican?Â
Your an alienÂ
When I enter the apartmentÂ
Did you notice anything different?Â
Let him freak outÂ
Try a new approachÂ
Change your zip codeÂ
There’s adventure in ParaguayÂ
You shouldn’t have called the copsÂ
They write me on Taimi and GrindrÂ
Your a pedophileÂ
Go outside in your dressÂ
They comment on my music
Perform for us
Why did you glue your mouth shutÂ
And you guitar stringsÂ
And objects to its bodyÂ
And glued his earsÂ
Why did you bind your handsÂ
It’s a hostage situationÂ
I am under duressÂ
What does under duress meanÂ
Do you want the special definitionÂ
Either fitsÂ
God dammnit dude
He does that intentionally
Change your zip codeÂ
There’s adventure in ParaguayÂ
Close the bathroom door when you relieveÂ
It lets us know that you know we’re watchingÂ
Didn’t you know, its illegal to want privacyÂ
Have a nice weekend, Guillermo.Â
What time zone are you in?Â
Let’s plaintiff him
Close the bathroom door when you relieveÂ
It lets us know that you know we’re watchingÂ
Didn’t you know, its illegal to want privacyÂ
Go get a hotel tonightÂ
You can’t stay hereÂ
Move out
Don’t worry about the Washington
On the way to garbageÂ
We’ll laugh if you pick it upÂ
Don’t freak out
Why did the wood return?Â
Why did the wood return?
Why did the wood return?Â
Why did the wood return?Â
 Your kingdom has fallenÂ
That’s a demon.Â
That’s a demon.Â
That’s a demon.

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Living With Stigma
room service
I don’t have much to say:
router hijacked
metadata been totally ruined
multiple issues with belongings
Bed frame conveniently laying against door when I put in hallway
things missing
rude neighbors
drafts randomly saving
all devices remote controlled
havana syndrome?
This blog has been compromised.
They threaten me daily - including telling me anything I touch, photograph, or say, will be taken away from me forever
harassment continues
who would yuck my yum
I swear someone is throwing literal dirt in my appt

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Someone keeps swiping fobs on my front door when I’m home and walking away
Ahhhhhh!! Ahhhhhh!!! Ahhhhhhhh!!! HELP
Eh.